Welcome to the Nexus !

Did you try oral DMT yet?

Im not sure if exactly answers the questions you have, but at least it seems to lead to more practical lessons, ime helping one get the extra push needed to start putting the necessary changes in daily life in practice.  I dont think it really tells me about what existence is about (though I do get some hints, about how there's this bi-directional movement between Unity and Multiplicity, and that somehow life, and my personal development, have to do with going back to this Unity),  but what ayahuasca does seem to do for me, is to give a sensation of cleaning, of showing me what im doing wrong, of helping me remember once again I should make the effort to become better.