soul-explorer
Rising Star
Hi guys,
I've been here for a while, but it was pointed out to me that I should write some Introduction
So here it comes.
At the end of last Summer I became interested in psychedelics again, I had one mushroom experience as a teenager, but then nothing for over a decade.
My goals and hopes were to work on some emotional blockages/trauma I had a hard time getting rid of.
I started out with MDMA and LSD and then quickly stumbled upon DMT.
For my purposes I decided to go the Pharmauasca route and had my first and wonderful experience in October:
A few more Pharma trips followed and I had my last one in January:
The 2nd-last trip was wonderful and only about 2weeks earlier.
Always took about the same dosage, but the last two trips catapulted me much deeper into the rabbit hole. The fear of ego-death/the unknown made the last trip not so pleasant. In retrospect I also was not in such a good place mentally, so that correlates for sure.
After this scary experience I decided to take a break from DMT. I had three LSD trips in the meantime, the last one about 1month ago and it was a wonderful, life-affirming experience.
Now, about 9months after I started to use psychedelics for my inner-work, I really feel like major shifts have been happening inside of me.
Pharma does feels like a 'medicine' to me, it was a great guide and I'm quite positive it released emotional trauma that months of psychotherapy failed to.
I'm becoming a much more approachable, loving and confident person, being far less afraid of intimate relationships with others.
This enables me to go out and go for the stuff I've been wanting for a long time, but always ended up self-sabotaging.
At this point I don't even feel the need of taking any psychedelics anytime soon. This seems to be a time of action. I feel very alive and hungry for change.
Thanks guys, this place has been a great resource with very supportive people!
I've been here for a while, but it was pointed out to me that I should write some Introduction
So here it comes.
At the end of last Summer I became interested in psychedelics again, I had one mushroom experience as a teenager, but then nothing for over a decade.
My goals and hopes were to work on some emotional blockages/trauma I had a hard time getting rid of.
I started out with MDMA and LSD and then quickly stumbled upon DMT.
For my purposes I decided to go the Pharmauasca route and had my first and wonderful experience in October:
A few more Pharma trips followed and I had my last one in January:
The 2nd-last trip was wonderful and only about 2weeks earlier.
Always took about the same dosage, but the last two trips catapulted me much deeper into the rabbit hole. The fear of ego-death/the unknown made the last trip not so pleasant. In retrospect I also was not in such a good place mentally, so that correlates for sure.
After this scary experience I decided to take a break from DMT. I had three LSD trips in the meantime, the last one about 1month ago and it was a wonderful, life-affirming experience.
Now, about 9months after I started to use psychedelics for my inner-work, I really feel like major shifts have been happening inside of me.
Pharma does feels like a 'medicine' to me, it was a great guide and I'm quite positive it released emotional trauma that months of psychotherapy failed to.
I'm becoming a much more approachable, loving and confident person, being far less afraid of intimate relationships with others.
This enables me to go out and go for the stuff I've been wanting for a long time, but always ended up self-sabotaging.
At this point I don't even feel the need of taking any psychedelics anytime soon. This seems to be a time of action. I feel very alive and hungry for change.
Thanks guys, this place has been a great resource with very supportive people!
