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Rising Star
Currently I'm 30 years old and have had a keen interest in many substances since the age of 9 or 10.
I first started off like most people where I live, on squidgy black (resin) - although I was only 11 at the time I thoroughly enjoyed the body and mind relaxation it gave me. Then progressively experimenting with other stuff like speed & lsd, the most vivid experience I remember was when I was 16 (my early clubbing years) where I took around 5 tabs of acid over the course of 3-4 hours, all I remember was being extremely spaced out but when leaving the club it all turned nasty, which I believe was due to being outside with over 100 people near me. I remember my visions being like an old 20's film where the frame rate was extremely slow and luckily for me a friend got me a ride home - still to this day I do not remember getting home or getting in bed - probably a good thing.
Since this experiment I realised that I needed to take it easier on combinations of substances and to learn more about my interests.
As the years went on I started to experiment with ecstasy which gave me a mixture of results ranging from being in love with everything and everyone to the feeling of dying (which was one of the last times I had experimented with it)
Once I had a steady job I ventured into the cocaine domain which was up until the last couple of years my favourite substance (although being expensive this phase didn't last long). There were many times which I had spent nights in with one of my best buddy's doing coke and smoking mj, which at the time I felt this was some of the best combinations around - although going to sleep was always hard and took a long time.
These weekly experiments didn't last long and eventually just faded back to just mj for a couple of years, though it didn't last long until another new substance came to hand, that being crack. I have only done this probably 5-6 times but I quickly realised how addictive it can be and soon I decided to give this up but during this little crazy spell I also ventured into opiates and got my one and only 10 bag of h, I never wanted to inject anything so it was the old tin foil job - it was very strong and felt like I was incredibly drunk (something I rarely enjoy) and I ended up giving over 1/2 of the bag away.
Again I felt like I had learned a lot about how my body reacted to certain chemicals and my body's limits. I went back again to just mj and started to get the urge to go back to psychedelics and whilst it was still legal in the uk I purchased a big bag of truffles and on a warm day me and a buddy consumed approx 5-6g each, after a while just putting the stuff in my mouth made me gag, so we sat by the sea waiting for it to kick in and when it did, it was as if I was getting the same mind & body feelings from the 5 hitter back years ago, though this time I was by a beach with people walking up and down along side the sea. After about 1/2 hour of being completely mind bent, we both decided to go back home. Once we arrived we both sat almost glued to the sofa with the feeling of the stuff running through my veins almost like the feeling of electricity (which reminded me of the feeling of ecstasy) this lasted a few hours and slowly wore off.
After the law changed I went again back to mj for a few more years until I learned about San Pedro and peyote and whilst San Pedro/Peruvian Torch was (and still is) legal in the UK I thought I would try some PT, although I could only get a small bag around 15g I also got some HBWS about 12 seeds and when the time was right I started eating the dried PT raw (probably the worse tasting stuff I've ever tried) but I managed to keep it down without being sick and then consumed the HBWS, after about 30-40 minutes I felt the stuff kicking in and although it wasn't exactly intense, the body and mind rushes I was getting were incredibly blissful and lasted for around 10 hours.
I felt like I had found my substance of choice with PT until I heard about dmt, being a hallucinogenic I found reading/listening to Terrance McKenna & Rick Strassman incredibly fascinating that taking such a small amount of this crystal could endure such a profound sensation and visual hallucination, I knew this was something I had to try some day. After a long time of searching for a way to get some (making it myself currently was completely out of the question) I found one of my old school friends had recently been producing some via the lazy mans tek with MHRB powder and after speaking to him about this he agreed to help me out and brewed me around 1/2g and gave me his old machine pipe.
Being a bit dubious on how much to take and how my body would react I started off on the smallest amount possible which only gave some slight OEV distortions and warm body buzz. Gradually I started to increase the dosage to the point where I felt like I had broken though (although I'm not 100% sure of) but will continue to venture into this world. As this was such a short lasting and most profound effect I've ever experienced this feels like my last new substance of choice and with no bad side effects (so far) I believe this is my new home
So there you go, my life in a few paragraphs - after years of making good and bad decisions I now know that I can't act like a child and take whatever comes my way, although it may not harm me, I should always be prepared for what I truly want to achieve and not to be too scared of the unknown as the mind can make a beautiful experience turn into a living hell in an instant if in the wrong environment or mental state.
I first started off like most people where I live, on squidgy black (resin) - although I was only 11 at the time I thoroughly enjoyed the body and mind relaxation it gave me. Then progressively experimenting with other stuff like speed & lsd, the most vivid experience I remember was when I was 16 (my early clubbing years) where I took around 5 tabs of acid over the course of 3-4 hours, all I remember was being extremely spaced out but when leaving the club it all turned nasty, which I believe was due to being outside with over 100 people near me. I remember my visions being like an old 20's film where the frame rate was extremely slow and luckily for me a friend got me a ride home - still to this day I do not remember getting home or getting in bed - probably a good thing.
Since this experiment I realised that I needed to take it easier on combinations of substances and to learn more about my interests.
As the years went on I started to experiment with ecstasy which gave me a mixture of results ranging from being in love with everything and everyone to the feeling of dying (which was one of the last times I had experimented with it)
Once I had a steady job I ventured into the cocaine domain which was up until the last couple of years my favourite substance (although being expensive this phase didn't last long). There were many times which I had spent nights in with one of my best buddy's doing coke and smoking mj, which at the time I felt this was some of the best combinations around - although going to sleep was always hard and took a long time.
These weekly experiments didn't last long and eventually just faded back to just mj for a couple of years, though it didn't last long until another new substance came to hand, that being crack. I have only done this probably 5-6 times but I quickly realised how addictive it can be and soon I decided to give this up but during this little crazy spell I also ventured into opiates and got my one and only 10 bag of h, I never wanted to inject anything so it was the old tin foil job - it was very strong and felt like I was incredibly drunk (something I rarely enjoy) and I ended up giving over 1/2 of the bag away.
Again I felt like I had learned a lot about how my body reacted to certain chemicals and my body's limits. I went back again to just mj and started to get the urge to go back to psychedelics and whilst it was still legal in the uk I purchased a big bag of truffles and on a warm day me and a buddy consumed approx 5-6g each, after a while just putting the stuff in my mouth made me gag, so we sat by the sea waiting for it to kick in and when it did, it was as if I was getting the same mind & body feelings from the 5 hitter back years ago, though this time I was by a beach with people walking up and down along side the sea. After about 1/2 hour of being completely mind bent, we both decided to go back home. Once we arrived we both sat almost glued to the sofa with the feeling of the stuff running through my veins almost like the feeling of electricity (which reminded me of the feeling of ecstasy) this lasted a few hours and slowly wore off.
After the law changed I went again back to mj for a few more years until I learned about San Pedro and peyote and whilst San Pedro/Peruvian Torch was (and still is) legal in the UK I thought I would try some PT, although I could only get a small bag around 15g I also got some HBWS about 12 seeds and when the time was right I started eating the dried PT raw (probably the worse tasting stuff I've ever tried) but I managed to keep it down without being sick and then consumed the HBWS, after about 30-40 minutes I felt the stuff kicking in and although it wasn't exactly intense, the body and mind rushes I was getting were incredibly blissful and lasted for around 10 hours.
I felt like I had found my substance of choice with PT until I heard about dmt, being a hallucinogenic I found reading/listening to Terrance McKenna & Rick Strassman incredibly fascinating that taking such a small amount of this crystal could endure such a profound sensation and visual hallucination, I knew this was something I had to try some day. After a long time of searching for a way to get some (making it myself currently was completely out of the question) I found one of my old school friends had recently been producing some via the lazy mans tek with MHRB powder and after speaking to him about this he agreed to help me out and brewed me around 1/2g and gave me his old machine pipe.
Being a bit dubious on how much to take and how my body would react I started off on the smallest amount possible which only gave some slight OEV distortions and warm body buzz. Gradually I started to increase the dosage to the point where I felt like I had broken though (although I'm not 100% sure of) but will continue to venture into this world. As this was such a short lasting and most profound effect I've ever experienced this feels like my last new substance of choice and with no bad side effects (so far) I believe this is my new home
So there you go, my life in a few paragraphs - after years of making good and bad decisions I now know that I can't act like a child and take whatever comes my way, although it may not harm me, I should always be prepared for what I truly want to achieve and not to be too scared of the unknown as the mind can make a beautiful experience turn into a living hell in an instant if in the wrong environment or mental state.
