self-preservation saves us from doing stupid things and endangering ourselves. It has its useful purpose. I wonder if I can separate this fear from the one that I'm trying to let go.  

As for extraction and method of intake, Yes, I am in a process of purchasing all needed ingredients/equipment. Don't really like the oral method, that's why I never went through with the ayahuasca extract that I made about a year ago. I'm pretty much set on smoking it.