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My personal Nurse/Angel/Goddess !!

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Herba Luisa

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Although i experiment with the spice since aeons but i am still so amazed and overwhelmed by the strangeness and power of the experience.

Set and setting: i was lying on a lounge in a winter garden stuffed with orchids, palm- and bananatrees, outside it's sunny but windy with a thunderstorm on the horizon. I am on my own, relaxed but as usual with an slight pre-flight anxiety. An hour before launch i drank a small g+t to calm my down. Just before vapeing i meditate about Love and that i like to know more about it.
Then i loaded my glass vapor giney with about 40mg Fb DMT on an ash bed with another screen on top. I was ready as possible and with two hits on the GVG i was done!! I've got a little bag filled with lavender and rice to cover my eyes. the weight on the eyes is quite pleasant and relaxing.

Immediately i was propelled in an universe made of shiny chromatic mercury.
There where fast spinning mercury tentacles, shiny impossible shapes, totally alien and morphing way beyond real.
I had to breath real hard and convince me once more that i just vaped the spice and like to know LOVE!
As soon as i entered hyperspace i was surrounded by three to four beings! The whole reality was made of colorful membranes and i was made of rainbow bubble too. And then i recognized HER.
I was stunned to recognize HER, i met her on so many occasion on Spice. I had to laugh out loud because she was sooo alien, soo strange, but she was definitively my personal Angel/Nurse/Elf/Goddess !! And she learnt me love and passion and she always will. She will always be there for me, in life and beyond !! She is amazing!
Then the trance was broken and i enjoyed the post fight hallucinations with all those plants in my winter garden.
Now, I like to thank all the people here on the nexus who shared their knowledge about the spice. Infinite thanks!!
So, now i am in the mood to smoke some weed an enjoy the rest of this very special sunday afternoon !!
 
Actually i was part of HER - (we're/i am ONE) - since time. membrane to membrane unified in n,n-dimensional foam!
 
Nice writeup, would have liked to read more!

I met someone like Her too, a snake-like entity that radiated compassion and love like no human I've ever met, her touch was pure bliss...
 
tryptographer said:
Nice writeup, would have liked to read more!

I met someone like Her too, a snake-like entity that radiated compassion and love like no human I've ever met, her touch was pure bliss...


I agree. I really enjoyed reading this, and I appreciate you took the time to write this out.

N,N-Dimensional! Love it! :twisted:
 
I have to admit that for me the transition/breakthrough is always quite a horrible experience. Just before the moment when my ego got shredded there is always this feeling/thought "What have i done?...how dare you?...how could i forget how dreadful ego death is?....NEVER Again !! Then just like regain consciousness after passing out -the Understanding. The "Ahh, how could i forget"-feeling and then this loving female Beeing calm me down. Her presence is pure love and bliss! My visions are always more than alien. I never experience realworld objects/persons. This world is made of very fast - shiny chromatic liquid crystal-, mercury-like. This impossible morphing, fast spinning tentacles are made of consciousness, but soo strange!!
It's always so hard to remember...
 
Herba Luisa said:
I have to admit that for me the transition/breakthrough is always quite a horrible experience. Just before the moment when my ego got shredded there is always this feeling/thought "What have i done?...how dare you?...how could i forget how dreadful ego death is?....NEVER Again !! Then just like regain consciousness after passing out -the Understanding. The "Ahh, how could i forget"-feeling and then this loving female Beeing calm me down. Her presence is pure love and bliss! My visions are always more than alien. I never experience realworld objects/persons. This world is made of very fast - shiny chromatic liquid crystal-, mercury-like. This impossible morphing, fast spinning tentacles are made of consciousness, but soo strange!!
It's always so hard to remember...


Yes, it's sometimes very difficult to recall. I almost always write down the visions/things I experience on the journey. It's kind of like a dream diary, it sort of helps recalling the experiences. I can recommend to it to everyone, there's no harm in writing at least couple words about your journeys, one can even add a note of the dosage and duration etc.
 
Herba Luisa said:
I have to admit that for me the transition/breakthrough is always quite a horrible experience. Just before the moment when my ego got shredded there is always this feeling/thought "What have i done?...how dare you?...how could i forget how dreadful ego death is?....NEVER Again !! Then just like regain consciousness after passing out -the Understanding. The "Ahh, how could i forget"-feeling and then this loving female Beeing calm me down. Her presence is pure love and bliss! My visions are always more than alien. I never experience realworld objects/persons. This world is made of very fast - shiny chromatic liquid crystal-, mercury-like. This impossible morphing, fast spinning tentacles are made of consciousness, but soo strange!!
It's always so hard to remember...


I had to comment on this since this is how it happens to me. Always that feeling of 'omg, omg, I'm dying! I really did too much! Why, god, why...!'. It's always a feeling of impending death and as soon as it finally washes over me, like you said the understanding just flows and everything is fine. It comes to me this way every time, a 'voice', my higher voice greets me as I breakthrough the veil with the message of 'There! See, it wasn't so bad... words can't describe this... it just doesn't translate well... but now you remember!' and I do remember! It's a rememberance that permeates every fiber of your body and you want to laugh and cry and scream 'Of course! Of course I understand this now! How could I have ever forgotten!!?' but then once I return to normal waking conciousness it's always fuzzy, always a feeling of 'Well, I sort of remember... there was this secret... but I knew the whole time... something important but... well it was me but so alien, but familiar... well now I don't remember it as well.'
 
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