demetrispeaks
Rising Star
i am not sure how to begin this or even why i am. i am very timid as a capricorn, but very thorough and parsimonious. i don't try new experiences like sharing in a forum very often and i feel a sort of block, or hesitance, but i will try anyways. i'm not sure if this is a mini-autobiography and people will get tired of reading what i write, or if it's too much, but i guess i'll try? i feel like i need a community of people who understand what i've been experiencing and this is the closest i've gotten.
i have been an avid psychedelic user for a couple years now, my first experience being LSD and shortly after my second being an end-all borderline ignorant dose of vaporized 5-MEO-DMT when in all honesty i had no idea what i was bargaining for. i experienced total ego-death and out of body hallucination, shortly before being snapped back into my body and face-to-face with one of the not so sentient entities. i don't believe it was a jester or a sprite, but more of one of the 'god' entities. it was a very traumatic and moving experience, after which i spent 45 minutes shrieking and crying. in retrospect i wouldn't classify it as a negative experience, but instead a life-changing one, as i smoked this a couple weeks before joining the military. a month into basic, i was too far removed from where i had been before i signed the contract and i gave up and quit. this spun me into a hard amphetamine addiction and an admittedly ignorant cavalier expedition into using psychedelics (hard ones and benign ones) very frequently and in large amounts.
the third time i ever took dmt i vaporized what i think was n,n-dmt, i closed my eyes and was transported to this omniscient golden room. there was a tablet in front of me and it had the most vivid heiroglyphics and strange symbols, and they were rotating in circles. there were symbols too, like i saw a set of justice scales, and there all sorts of things i couldn't understand. and the inside of the golden room reminded me of tool's 10,000 days artwork, i had a sense of 'what am i supposed to be learning?' and felt like i was in a hurry, and couldn't grasp it, then it ended.
the other day, after i've now smoked DMT many times, i had a vision where i closed my eyes and there was an entity, and he had a turban on and he was smiling and showing me these things, and it seemed like he was moving trays around, or like tablets or something. then it shot to videos of myself in my head walking around at work with safety glasses on, then it cut back to the entity smiling and laughing in the turban. very confusing, but VERY exhilarating.
what i've experienced is an incredibly profound influx of new spiritual knowledge and a complete turn-around of my life. i've recently extracted my own very pure dmt using Q21Q21's tek (which i think i have done very well) and have been learning to grow through it, and to respect it. my life has strangely become different: my habits are different and methodical, i am happier on average, i do not feel the urge to drink heavily anymore, or smoke cannabis heavily. in fact, i have become complacent with relative sobriety. but the more i use dmt the more i realize that i don't really understand HOW it is doing what it is doing for me, and it is very liberating but also very confusing :/
all of these are good things, and i believe DMT is an amazing compound. i am very happy and thankful for this community, i have been an anonymous peruser for many months now.
i'm not sure how to end this so :/
i have been an avid psychedelic user for a couple years now, my first experience being LSD and shortly after my second being an end-all borderline ignorant dose of vaporized 5-MEO-DMT when in all honesty i had no idea what i was bargaining for. i experienced total ego-death and out of body hallucination, shortly before being snapped back into my body and face-to-face with one of the not so sentient entities. i don't believe it was a jester or a sprite, but more of one of the 'god' entities. it was a very traumatic and moving experience, after which i spent 45 minutes shrieking and crying. in retrospect i wouldn't classify it as a negative experience, but instead a life-changing one, as i smoked this a couple weeks before joining the military. a month into basic, i was too far removed from where i had been before i signed the contract and i gave up and quit. this spun me into a hard amphetamine addiction and an admittedly ignorant cavalier expedition into using psychedelics (hard ones and benign ones) very frequently and in large amounts.
the third time i ever took dmt i vaporized what i think was n,n-dmt, i closed my eyes and was transported to this omniscient golden room. there was a tablet in front of me and it had the most vivid heiroglyphics and strange symbols, and they were rotating in circles. there were symbols too, like i saw a set of justice scales, and there all sorts of things i couldn't understand. and the inside of the golden room reminded me of tool's 10,000 days artwork, i had a sense of 'what am i supposed to be learning?' and felt like i was in a hurry, and couldn't grasp it, then it ended.
the other day, after i've now smoked DMT many times, i had a vision where i closed my eyes and there was an entity, and he had a turban on and he was smiling and showing me these things, and it seemed like he was moving trays around, or like tablets or something. then it shot to videos of myself in my head walking around at work with safety glasses on, then it cut back to the entity smiling and laughing in the turban. very confusing, but VERY exhilarating.
what i've experienced is an incredibly profound influx of new spiritual knowledge and a complete turn-around of my life. i've recently extracted my own very pure dmt using Q21Q21's tek (which i think i have done very well) and have been learning to grow through it, and to respect it. my life has strangely become different: my habits are different and methodical, i am happier on average, i do not feel the urge to drink heavily anymore, or smoke cannabis heavily. in fact, i have become complacent with relative sobriety. but the more i use dmt the more i realize that i don't really understand HOW it is doing what it is doing for me, and it is very liberating but also very confusing :/
all of these are good things, and i believe DMT is an amazing compound. i am very happy and thankful for this community, i have been an anonymous peruser for many months now.
i'm not sure how to end this so :/
