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willnotcannot

willnotcannot

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I've found myself coming on and off this forum, looking for advice and information, so I've decided it's time I join the crowd.

I'm not sure why, but for whatever reason, drugs intrigue me greatly. I'm a fairly simple person, consumerism offers me with very little to aspire to and I'm an introvert at heart. My needs in life are little, which brings me to drugs - the logical, yet oddly insane answer.

Yet I'm not particularly insane and I don't have any significant problems in life (I mean, we all have ours problems, however I haven't experienced anything traumatic that has set me into a daily state of tantalizing trauma). I just feel that this is the kind of person I am. To try new things and to embrace 'the experience', whatever it be.

That's why drugs are so amazing to me. It doesn't matter if the feeling is good or bad, it's all just one big experience and that's something I've learnt to embrace.

The key word - embrace.

I like the feeling, the intensity and the experimentation. Most importantly, I do it because it's so different from reality. It's truly an experience, unlike going to watch a movie. I don't want a director and some actors to create their own reality, which you're not even experiencing - merely watching. I want to be in that movie and to create my own reality, so-to-speak.

I'm still young and I've only ever tried a few substances in my life, however that's why I'm here, so I can try a few more or at least learn their effects :p

I apologize for the pretentious dialogue, I am nothing like this is real life. However, since I'm talking about drugs in a meaningful manner, I feel obliged to show some class, at the least ;)
 
...I like movies :( I don't think drugs and movies can be compared. (Apples and Oranges)
Welcome, I am new here as well, lurker for a longtime as well :)
 
Hello willnotcannot,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thank you for sharing that Introductory Essay with us - I did not find it to be pretentious at all. It came across to me as very honest, and I for one, greatly appreciate that here. I'm sure the mods do too, :D.

May I ask which psychedelic substances you have tried to date and what you made of the experiences? In particular, tried DMT yet? What did you think?

Take a good look around - this place is huge and full of in-depth, juicy information and lots of neat and caring people. I think you're going to like it here.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.
 
haha don't worry buddy, I love movies too :)

I've vaguely messed around with nutmeg for a bit, but I never really got far. I'm eager to try DXM and I've got some plans for LSA/Mescaline - but only because they're easily extracted.

I would love to try DMT and LSD, only the problem obviously is in finding these psychedelic substances from trusted sources in the first place. I simply don't know anyone and I have no clue how.

Thanks for the warm welcome.
 
Perhaps you should look also into growing and/or hunting psychedelic mushrooms. Though I think LSD is a good starting place, it is difficult to source good, reliable, pure, decent dose level acid these days. Easier to get so little one barely gets off or even an unwanted very long lasting research chemical.

With homegrown mushrooms (kits available via internet, spore exchange rings for spores, lots of how to books, etc.) you have it made. You know all about what happened when, who grew them, what they are, etc. Also, a hefty (I'd recommend starting MUCH lower and working your way up) dose in the 8 or more grams range should give you a great taste of what hyperspace resembles/is about.

I just think DMT is a very daunting place to start and there are so many other options. . . regardless, I just thought I'd put that out there for you to have to consider.
 
Unfortunately, I don't think my living arrangements will allow such freedom.

Have you tried LSA or Mescaline? What were your experiences with that?
 
Hi willnotcannot,

Welcome to the forum. New members are restricted to the welcome area to post until we get to know them a little better. This is a well working system to keep the quality of this forum as high as possible, so please bear with us. Once you make a few more posts so that we get a feel for you and you for us/the forum you will be promoted to full membership.

As for LSD, in case you ever do come across some, there are testing kits available that can help you determine whether it's really LSD or not.

Personally I have no experience with mescaline but it's supposedly an extremely interesting experience. The only down side is that it can take quite long to start working (up to 4 hours). I agree with Pandora on the mushrooms. Grow-kits can be very easy to get to work and enough for two or three experienes even. However if your living conditions don't allow for it at the moment you should probably wait.

As for DXM... it's an interesting yet dangerous substance IMO. It has a certain addiction potential and frequent use can seriously mess with your short term memory and cognitive abilities. Fortunately these seem to restore themselves after some time of abstinence - at least in my experience.
I don't remember if there any long term physiological problems involved as well. Earlier they were saying it causes neurological lesions (olney's lesion) but on Erowid I found this (Erowid.org: Erowid Reference 7030 : Oral administration of dextromethorphan does not produce neuronal vacuolation in the rat brain : Carliss RD, Radovsky A, Chengelis CP, O'neill TP, Shuey DL) article that says otherwise. It also has a safety ratio of only 10 (10 times a normal dose is usually fatal), which means an overdose with dangerous/fatal effects is easier to obtain as say with substances like LSD or cannabis which have a safety ratio of 1000.

So be sure to do your research before you go down that road.

be well and enjoy the forum.
Cheers
 
willnotcannot said:
I've vaguely messed around with nutmeg for a bit, but I never really got far. I'm eager to try DXM and I've got some plans for LSA/Mescaline - but only because they're easily extracted.
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hey willnotcannot , welcome to the nexus

pls dont go messin with dxm

its best to go with some mushrooms , mescaline or Lsd if you can , try to get some syrian rue if possible yes syrian rue will help you out too , just powder it make a tea , filter the sludge and drink it , this will give you an idea what psychadelics are , rather than taking a dissociative such as dxm , standard psychadelics like lsd , mushrooms , mescaline are very different from substances like dxm or other shit you can get from a medical pharmacy (i strongly advice you against drugs from pharmacy's until the day pharmacy's stock up on Lsd and DMT giving it to everyone ), thats why do harmalas (syrian rue ) now

its best to consume or take in something good than something worse

peace
 
I've done extensive research on DXM, particularly on other forums and from what I've read, it's relatively safe if it's a one off trip and if it's infrequent. I only really plan on trying it once and seeing how that goes. I really don't see psychedelics and my trips to be frequent experiences. Just something different every once and a while. I would consider myself to be an extremely disciplined individual, so addiction doesn't worry me - unless if it's something truly dangerous like opiates.

An important distinction to note about DXM is that it's a dissociative, not a psychedelic. I believe that Ketamine and PCP are the two other main one's, however they're impossible to find without the right contacts, so DXM is really the only logical answer for the time being. I really want to try a bit of everything, at least initially, if not for the different experiences alone.

I've been reading about Syrian Rue and I still don't get it. Every time I read an erowid report, it's always mixed with another plant and it's something I cannot easily locate (I believe it's called Mimosa tenuiflora. If anyone could explain this to me, that would be great, or can u still take it alone for a worthwhile trip? Even then, it seems to be an initiator for other drugs like mushrooms, as opposed to something that's supposed to be directly taken - although I could be incorrect.

My plan for the time being, is to mess around with LSA with potential LSH, since that's the most practical drug to obtain. DXM is also the other one that's practical.

The problem with LSD, Mescaline and particularly mushrooms, is that I simply don't have the living arrangements or contacts to obtain the items necessary. Maybe when it's shroom season, then I'll have a crack. I want to give mescaline a go, however I need to figure out how to obtain a san pedro plant.
 
willnotcannot,

be patient with the things you cannot obtain at the moment. Surely there will come a time where you can grow things yourself or know the right people.

As for Syrian Rue, it contains Harmala alkaloids which belong to the class of RIMA - reversible inhibitors of mono-amino oxidase. These are usually needed to make DMT orally active, that's why it's usually mixed with other plants. DMT containing plants. The whole mix is then a so called Ayahuasca anaologue.

On its own syrian rue has some psychotropic properties but personally I don't enjoy it on its own simply because it comes with nausea and sedation for me. I'm also not sure to what extent it actually produces effects. I'm sure other members can tell you more.

It's good that you did your research on DXM. There is a reason why a lot of people on here will say "stay away from it" though. It's a very strange substance with a very dark lure to it... I cannot explain it in any better way. In my early explorations I took quite an interest in it and ended up being very distressed mentally. In the beginning I loved it, later I didn't feel quite right without it, and finally I began to think of it as a demon whispering in my ear, promising me powers over my mind and spirit... but the price was high: I was paying with memories and pieces of my self.
It may be safe physiologically, but it is a substance that should be used cautiously IMO. I for one will not tell you to stay away, but rather to be aware of what you are getting into.

take care
 
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