Hello notkuroda,

I'm your age, also a father, also on my second marriage, also with a high demand professional activity. Your conflict is also mine. And it is a delicate balance act, probably harder to deal with than other similar conundrums, mostly because there's a huge contrast between our social establishment rules and the deep insights brought by entheogens.

For me, entheogens are not necessarily a reversal of priorities, or something to beat in order to carry on with social and family responsibilities. Love becomes stronger. Also empathy with loved ones. Plant teachers show you that the mystery is deeper than yourself and everything, that subjectivity is key and everything is related. Those lessons are not unique to loony psychonauts. There's much more to share and apply to everyday life than appears at first sight.

Realizing that social contracts are constructs? Yes. That social demands and worries look like an epiphenomenon of our limited, partial human experience? That too. And the hardest bit is seeing your kids or wife worried or suffering because of something you might "debunk" easily appealing to your experiences. But you know these experiences cannot be translated, so in the end you just behave the same way you would with any adult experience: adapting it to what your peers can understand.

Try to share all you can with your wife. That is priceless for me. But I'm pretty sure that, no matter how tricky the balance is, your loony psychonaut side will help to spare your kids a lot of bull. With no need whatsoever to mention "hyperspace". I think in the end it will pay off.

And welcome to the Nexus