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Rising Star
Hello all, im a 30 year old american male, not shure what to say so I guess ill give a short bio.
I have been interested in introspection and thought processes since I can remember,when I was in high school I was a completely straight edge metal head until the end of my senior year I started smoking schwag weed, then a friend showed up with 4 tabs of lsd shortly after graduation.
at that point I knew there was going to be countless experiences in my future.
I only took acid one more time after that and have never seen it since.
a bit over a year later I discovered MDMA but didnt realize until years later that the pills I was taking had mda as well, so for 3-4 months I binged on these MDMA/MDA pills 4-6 times a week and they were pretty much free, spent more on vicks and glow sticks unless we had a house rave.
(hands down the most influential part of my entire life I get a mild euphoric feeling just reminiscing)
some time after that in 2002 I believe it was I got in some trouble for weed ,and at the request of my lawyer I stopped smoking weed and subjected myself to a drug screening biweekly.
during this time complete sobriety was driving me mad and I was feeling like I had lost this big game called life.
amidst a deep depression and I was also forced to move in with my alcoholic father because the lawyers wanted more than I could get obviously..
after dealing with my alcoholic father slurring in a yell at me for how big of a piece of garbage I am for smoking weed for a few months I didn't care anymore so I went online and bought an oz of salvia some 2ce and 2ci.
my second trip on 2ce I took way too much on accident, I felt it kick in way too soon, fast and hard, leaned back in my chair and relaxed my legs, as they separated one hit a leg of the coffee table and I saw it stop.. but I felt it go all the way to the floor.
the song playing was putting out such an intense energy that pinned me in my seat.
this was all happening simultaneously.
this was my first rough experience, I was absolutely convinced I was going to die, laying in a bed my body took upon an almost liquid feel that I could see in my mind, contorting in to a perfect sphere then growing points and twisting in and out of itself almost like a ninja star on acid.
about an hour in I made my peace,accepted that I was going to die and just hopped everyone would forgive me.
shortly after that everything started getting exponentially better by the second.
skip to a few months later and everything was resolved with my legal issues and I had many own place again, my cousin stops by one absolutely amazing spring evening announcing that a reliable source had instructed him on a good place to pick mushrooms near by, within a few hours we procured about 1/4 of a small paper bag with what we thought were legit mushrooms and showed them to the guy who told us about the spot, he confirmed each one individually then chewed one up right in front of us as some sort of confirmation.
since then mushrooms have been the bread and butter of my psychedelic relationship, I haven't not had a stash in years.
recently since the death of terrace mckenna DMT has been brought to my attention, recently a friend tried to extract from ACRB but only got some incredibly harsh but potent brown goo that I don't think is n-n-dmt because upon smoking most of a 60 mg dose my vision was overtaken by a large perfectly symmetrical red cog, all else was black and there was someone/something standing in the light of the cog, all I could see was a shadow of an upper body and a head, as if I was being watched.
I then immediately blacked out and threw up on myself, when I came to I thought I had eaten something, took a few minutes to remember It was smoked
the experience was harsh, unpleasant and felt very unhealthy, like I had smoked some terrible RC.
I have been interested in introspection and thought processes since I can remember,when I was in high school I was a completely straight edge metal head until the end of my senior year I started smoking schwag weed, then a friend showed up with 4 tabs of lsd shortly after graduation.
at that point I knew there was going to be countless experiences in my future.
I only took acid one more time after that and have never seen it since.
a bit over a year later I discovered MDMA but didnt realize until years later that the pills I was taking had mda as well, so for 3-4 months I binged on these MDMA/MDA pills 4-6 times a week and they were pretty much free, spent more on vicks and glow sticks unless we had a house rave.
(hands down the most influential part of my entire life I get a mild euphoric feeling just reminiscing)
some time after that in 2002 I believe it was I got in some trouble for weed ,and at the request of my lawyer I stopped smoking weed and subjected myself to a drug screening biweekly.
during this time complete sobriety was driving me mad and I was feeling like I had lost this big game called life.
amidst a deep depression and I was also forced to move in with my alcoholic father because the lawyers wanted more than I could get obviously..
after dealing with my alcoholic father slurring in a yell at me for how big of a piece of garbage I am for smoking weed for a few months I didn't care anymore so I went online and bought an oz of salvia some 2ce and 2ci.
my second trip on 2ce I took way too much on accident, I felt it kick in way too soon, fast and hard, leaned back in my chair and relaxed my legs, as they separated one hit a leg of the coffee table and I saw it stop.. but I felt it go all the way to the floor.
the song playing was putting out such an intense energy that pinned me in my seat.
this was all happening simultaneously.
this was my first rough experience, I was absolutely convinced I was going to die, laying in a bed my body took upon an almost liquid feel that I could see in my mind, contorting in to a perfect sphere then growing points and twisting in and out of itself almost like a ninja star on acid.
about an hour in I made my peace,accepted that I was going to die and just hopped everyone would forgive me.
shortly after that everything started getting exponentially better by the second.
skip to a few months later and everything was resolved with my legal issues and I had many own place again, my cousin stops by one absolutely amazing spring evening announcing that a reliable source had instructed him on a good place to pick mushrooms near by, within a few hours we procured about 1/4 of a small paper bag with what we thought were legit mushrooms and showed them to the guy who told us about the spot, he confirmed each one individually then chewed one up right in front of us as some sort of confirmation.
since then mushrooms have been the bread and butter of my psychedelic relationship, I haven't not had a stash in years.
recently since the death of terrace mckenna DMT has been brought to my attention, recently a friend tried to extract from ACRB but only got some incredibly harsh but potent brown goo that I don't think is n-n-dmt because upon smoking most of a 60 mg dose my vision was overtaken by a large perfectly symmetrical red cog, all else was black and there was someone/something standing in the light of the cog, all I could see was a shadow of an upper body and a head, as if I was being watched.
I then immediately blacked out and threw up on myself, when I came to I thought I had eaten something, took a few minutes to remember It was smoked
the experience was harsh, unpleasant and felt very unhealthy, like I had smoked some terrible RC.
