Welcome fry,

I'm also new here, yet not new to DMT. I'm sorry to hear that your DMT experience went so wrong. I've taken a pretty wide variety of drugs throughout my life... herbals and chemicals. LSD was my long time favourite, but DMT is something else. Almost like a hidden key to unlock sacred knowledge. If you are dedicated, you can make your own DMT. I prefer drinking it, together with an MAOI. This approach will not disappoint you, if you do it right. It can have a very therapeutic effect on your life and it is really simple to prepare. I've even managed to prevent a friend from starting to take anti-depressants, because of a few DMT (pharmahuasca) sessions I had with her.