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Dakine

Dakine

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Hello,
I am a new member and would like to introduce myself. I am relatively experienced with psychedelics. I understand that DMT is unlike any other psychedelic and am thinking about trying it for the first time. I have been reading up on DMT not only in the wiki, but on other sites as well. My fascination with DMT began with a late night documentary on Netflix called "D.M.T.: the spirit molecule".

What really sparked my interest from the documentary was the idea that DMT builds the bridge between technology and spirituality. While I do not consider myself a spiritual person overall, I have been getting more and more in touch with myself spiritually through meditation and lucid dreaming.

I find this interesting because I have taken LSD before and that had profound effects on how I perceived technology and how electricity flows through circuits. I felt as though I was one with anything technological in my room (clock, computer, microwave, etc). It was a wonderful experience because I felt I had a purpose of being here. I thought that I was god-like, like born with electricity, or having some sort of malfunction in the delivery room which induced an electric shock throughout my body that still resides in me today. As soon as I sobered from my trip, the idea that electricity plays a big role in my life remained with me. Being a Computer Engineer major, my main hobbies/interests reside in anything technology.

I am unsure I DMT would be a smart decision currently, as I feel I am unstable spiritually and emotionally. When I say emotionally I mean I feel as though I have a few personality disorders. It is very clear to me that my mom's side of the family has some sort of bipolar disorder. It is apparent to me that I may have a little bit of this disorder in me as well. I have days where I reflect on my life. I ask myself questions like if I died tomorrow, who would be impacted besides my family? What have I accomplished with my time here? I know that personality and mental disorders play a role in experiencing DMT. Although neither myself or my mother have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder I strongly believe I have a mild case.

I have plenty more to say but am sure there are other places to post about each topic, and you all probably don't want to read 4 paragraphs about some newbie who hasn't even tried DMT:roll: So i'll wrap it up. Any inputs for whether or not i'm in a good position to be experimenting with DMT would be helpful.

Thanks!
-Dakine:thumb_up:
 
Disorders like that are something to watch out for. You sound like youve been down a rabit hole or two and been ok in the end. I dont think that one blast off is going to make the flip unless it was horribly bad, and as a first timer most of the time the shock & aw keeps away most fear and scary things. I believe a important part of being a avid tripper is keeping mental balance. If you do too many too much too long it can have a big impact on your sober world. The key here is to know when to take a break. Really if you decide to try it just make sure to keep check on your mental world after, if you feel it had any adverse effects stop.

I also have a friend with bi-polar and ocd and he feels tripping helps.
 
Thanks for the reply.
I understand and feel as though I am in good mental condition. My peaks and valleys(emotionally) indicate bipolar disorder around every 2 weeks or month. However, I always have something to worry about or overcome. For example, If I have no money in my bank, life is not any more hard for me, but I feel as though my life is horrible because my grades aren't bad. But then, if my grades are good and I have money in my bank, I feel as though my life is horrible because I have no friends or nothing going on socially. That probably wasn't the best explanation but the main point is there's always something in my life that I feel I have a struggle against, and overall I am always sad.

Which leads me to believe I may have a deep depression that I can hide from myself very well. Mainly because I am in denial about my sadness and want people to see me as a person who is strong and can overcome any battle. So far I have done a good job portraying myself as so. I quit cigarettes cold turkey, as well as quit smoking pot (3-4 times a day) cold turkey (9 days clean!). AT THE SAME TIME! My roommate, if he's trying to quit, cannot even make it through the morning without smoking.

Which leads me to the conclusion that I may not be bi-polar but having a long-term battle with depression, a battle that I feel I am slowly overcoming.

Again, I apologize in advance if i'm going off-topic for the forum i'm posting in.
 
Anyone in the world at any point in time can most likely point to some aspect of their life they are struggling with. Thats just life. I believe the saying "look on the bright side" applys here. It sounds like you got an idea of whats going on in your noggin. You can find cases of people who feel like phycs helped those issues and cases where they have amplified them. In the very end your going to have to make the decision weather its a good idea. and after that, if you should continue with dmt.

I feel like I myself have some slight depression issues, or more likly a deep lying one. How ever tripping is like a reset for me. A good trip kinda brings me back to center and puts my life into perspective. not always a fun thing so it takes a little dedication get through but I always come out for the better in the end.
 
Hello Dakine,

Welcome to the Nexus. Great to have another new member sign up, :D.

Oh I feel I should mention that, "DMT: The Spirit Molecule," - the book is MUCH better than the movie and well worth procuring and reading.

Regarding mental health issues, I think you are right to be cautious and to proceed slowly. It's not always possible to be in an ideal place with set and setting but one should endeavor to maximize the factors when possible. This includes waiting until the time is right, the call is strong, etc. There is some very good information in the Health & Safety section, which is visible in the upper right hand corner of your forum pages. Here it is for your reference DMT-Nexus Wiki:Health and Safety - DMT-Nexus Wiki.

Finally, as I am mentioning to new members a lot, this is a time of radical change here at Nexus. Our main DMT source plant, MHRB is no longer procurable. So, folks are working on growing their own at home as well as researching new plants and extraction teks. You may find yourself waiting awhile before you get a chance to sample DMT due to these factors.

So, please take a good look around. I do hope you will choose to participate and I look forward to seeing you around this place.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.
 
It could help you work through some of your perceived disorders or exacerbate them. I've always had some kind of anxiety disorder that has never been medically corrected and as I get older I feel less need for social interaction. Dmt can really show you just how insignificant we all really are on the universal level and while most of us will always be forced to return to some form of reality and social interaction it can ease a lot of anxiety and depression. Of course, on the other hand, it can make reality harder and harder to deal with.
 
If you already have some prior experience with other psychedelics, and it went well for you, then you have a good chance of having positive DMT experiences as well. Although it's orders of magnitude more potent than a moderate LSD or mushroom dose, they all do work within the same spectrum of mental effects. Some people have an extremely hard time with the dissolution of boundaries and definitions that happens with the psychedelic experience... Others find it very helpful and cathartic. Having had good trips on the classic psychedelics is a good sign.

All of us have struggles to some extent or another, whether it be depression or anxiety or uncertainty or self doubt or what have you. A powerful psychedelic trip can offer some new perspectives to help deal with these things, although most of the work happens during integration, which can take weeks or months or years. You sound like you have a pretty clear idea of who you are and where you are at, so you should also have a sense of whether you are ready to face these things.

And it might not be heavy: it could just end up being a fun wild ride with a strong sense of appreciation toward life.
 
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