GunsGermsSteel
Rising Star
Hello everyone,
Recently I finally worked up the courage to undergo a Pharamahuasca experience and I'm sure I'm in company who understand when I say it was the most revelatory experience of my entire life.
It was through Graham Hancock I had first heard of Ayahuasca and his articulate and honest accounts of his experiences convinced me that Ayahuasca was the teacher I needed. I'd done my research on DMT and the various compound forms for oral ingestion, however Pharma was the most appealing to me on the basis of it's availability to me and my disdain of 'purging'. Close to 6 months it sat dormant in my drawer as my fear was too great, not necessarily of the experience but more because I feared that I could be permanently changed. I could see this for just the resistance it was but couldn't look it in the eye until recently.
So I took the plunge. I approached the experience with reverence and positive intentions and was almost instantly rewarded after taking the MAOI - I think my mind appreciated the gesture of trying to better myself. After taking the DMT it was a gradual ascent of bliss lasting approximately 2 hours before I was taken away. When I went to the other place the first thing I was shown was the pure unadulterated love of the universe. Once I had seen this I was ready for the bad things. This was an intense experience that focussed on several aspects of my life but there were 3 main areas I was directed to. The first thing was the battle of my ego, I was shown how destructive and misdirected my internal dialogue and thought patterns had become, all because of my desire to try to control each situation I faced. Next was the damage I'd done to others and the unintentional cruelty I exacted on others as I tried to cater to my own wants. Finally, I was shown purpose and that it was my duty to follow my passions just for the love of the art and not for the rewards as I had done before.
After 2 hours in the other world I came back to Earth. I feel reborn, I don't ever recall having this spectrum of emotional sensitivity, as cliche as it sounds I genuinely feel alive for the first time.
I'm hoping some of you can relate to this experience, apologies if it's long winded but believe me this is much shorter than what I'd originally written
Recently I finally worked up the courage to undergo a Pharamahuasca experience and I'm sure I'm in company who understand when I say it was the most revelatory experience of my entire life.
It was through Graham Hancock I had first heard of Ayahuasca and his articulate and honest accounts of his experiences convinced me that Ayahuasca was the teacher I needed. I'd done my research on DMT and the various compound forms for oral ingestion, however Pharma was the most appealing to me on the basis of it's availability to me and my disdain of 'purging'. Close to 6 months it sat dormant in my drawer as my fear was too great, not necessarily of the experience but more because I feared that I could be permanently changed. I could see this for just the resistance it was but couldn't look it in the eye until recently.
So I took the plunge. I approached the experience with reverence and positive intentions and was almost instantly rewarded after taking the MAOI - I think my mind appreciated the gesture of trying to better myself. After taking the DMT it was a gradual ascent of bliss lasting approximately 2 hours before I was taken away. When I went to the other place the first thing I was shown was the pure unadulterated love of the universe. Once I had seen this I was ready for the bad things. This was an intense experience that focussed on several aspects of my life but there were 3 main areas I was directed to. The first thing was the battle of my ego, I was shown how destructive and misdirected my internal dialogue and thought patterns had become, all because of my desire to try to control each situation I faced. Next was the damage I'd done to others and the unintentional cruelty I exacted on others as I tried to cater to my own wants. Finally, I was shown purpose and that it was my duty to follow my passions just for the love of the art and not for the rewards as I had done before.
After 2 hours in the other world I came back to Earth. I feel reborn, I don't ever recall having this spectrum of emotional sensitivity, as cliche as it sounds I genuinely feel alive for the first time.
I'm hoping some of you can relate to this experience, apologies if it's long winded but believe me this is much shorter than what I'd originally written
