Laced713
Rising Star
Hello everyone whom should read this. First off I find it funny that I was already planning this message as I read through advice in the forums and decided to join before I found out it was strongly suggested, especially since my own precognition is one of many reasons I'm interested in Ayahuasca.
As for the breakdown of me? Well I'm a 31 year old male with extensive experience in Lysergic Acid Diethylamide and Psilocybe Cubensis. I have been exploring those two realms since I was 14 and had an experience on a high dose of LSD in which I regressed through childhood all the way back to an infant state then out of body viewing myself when I was 16. Sadly I was at home at the time and my older brother (having been doing the same things) was scared and let the cat out of the bag. Due to my being disoriented/incoherent/unresponsive as the trip set in my family decided to take me to a hospital where they simply let me ride it out. I have no fear of admitting any of this since it is already of record and the hospital called the police to interview me so it's of more than a medical record.
Needless to say I will always be discussing me and not SWIM when it comes to experiences or attempts. I wouldn't even try to claim it's SWIM and I honestly think some of the posters do out of paranoia and if they have nothing they know of on record for themselves (in reference to the subjects of this forum and site) then they are right to do so.
Anyhow to continue, I used to think of myself as Atheist for a time even after my regressive experience as at the time I did not know that was what had happened. My spiritual awakening began after the death of my Grandmother. I had a dream in which she visited me but it was not typical in the "spirit came to me" way. instead I was out of body and floated down to her sitting under the peach tree's on her farm where she used to during the summer in her younger days. The thing was I never knew she liked to sit out there I hadn't paid attention to that as I was a child. Only when I discussed the dream with family did i find that out. This got me to thinking and I began going to a Christian church with my grandparents on the maternal side. Around the same time as the world trade center attacks this was all happening. that particular day I awoke to a friend knocking on the door to tell me and my roommate about it. When I awoke I knew something terrible had happened in the world, I sensed a large and sudden loss of life. I continued church for two more weeks but found that many of the questions I was beginning to form were not answered. I also began some research into the history of that and many other religions and found that humans had bent the messages to their own needs and corrupted them all. Even Buddhism was corrupted here in America by those seeking to make money using it under the self help guise.
So seeking the truth for myself was all I had. Through my studies I did find the truth was hidden in all the religions if you only pay attention to what they agree on. It was at this point I began using LSD again, though as a spiritual assistant (rather than for recreation) and discovered the ability to feel my connection to the worlds consciousness.
At this point I have learned to feel that connection nearly every waking moment without any LSD use and think LSD has served it's purpose in my life. In fact it is that very connection that seems to give me a powerful ability to predict things in my immediate future without even knowing I'm doing it until the prediction happens. It's not as though I think "this will happen" It is more of a feeling of something good or bad about to happen sometime that day. Sometimes I do have a vision of whats about to happen only a few seconds before it does like a one second clip of what happens flashes in my minds eye and it does it with unimportant things. I also can often read the minds of those closest to me in a way, like I know their desires. As an example if I go to the store for dinner I often buy exactly what my girlfriend wanted that night and I assure you we have a large repertoire of recipes so it's not due to her being finicky and me trying to please, as she is not and I make no such attempt. Also I've noticed a "open dialogue" between myself and the world around me. If I had a question or something was on my mind even a random thought with no significance I'd notice it show up in single or multiple instances through various forms of media or the conversations of others, the more important it was to me the more it showed up untill I was guided to a way to find the answers.
Anyways back to my religious studies I even studied tribal and ancient religions and found they seemed to be the most accurate in similarity to what I had been discovering about my own spiritual connection, the world, life and death. This led me to the Mayan before I had even heard all the 2012 hype. I had read a very little about Ayahuasca due to seeking other psychedelics during my recreational drug use in my teens. With my new-found spiritual knowledge I was suddenly thrown for a loop as within the same week I began to really research this Mayan Spiritual helper Ayahuasca and was seeking more in depth knowledge to many questions (I'll get to later) and how I could try some I came across "The Spirit Molecule" video on a private Torrent site I frequent (note I was only browsing the site not searching for anything at the time) Was able to get a digital copy of Dr. Strassmans book and went to visit my brother and he had come back from a festival with some DMT crystal which I had just discovered was a major active compund in Ayahuasca. Yes he let me try a small dose though just enough to get some very mild visuals comparable to a single hit of weak LSD. He said if I wanted more he could get it or show me how to extract it but I turned him down, I wanted to know more about it before I went further.
(no offense to you smokers, I.V. peoples) For spiritual purposes I've decided against smoking it at all as I am not seeking this for recreation and believe that is all smoking or intravenous use is really good for. I don't want to run through the door say hi and run back out I want to sit and chat for a few hours you know?
So this is where I stand now. I have tried syrian rue with chacruna but I assume the diet thing is necessary for me as I used plenty and got no effect aside from being off balance having strong trails and purging from both ends
. I now have the vine of souls and Chacruna and am preparing myself for my journey sometime in the next week or two depending upon when I find the time to brew. I seek to understand my telepathic/precognition/Open Dialogue abilities and strengthen them as well as understand what the ancient Mayans knew of the world and I'm hoping this great teacher can guide me on some healing of a torn disc in my back. I also lost my little sister abruptly last year with no good explanation from the medical community (they say medicine interaction but didn't take enough blood when she arrived at the hospital and only have post mortem amounts of the medications which were far too low to cause death, though thats likely due to the breakdown in the bloodstream between death and autopsy) and wish to visit this other side I will travel to which is where I believe she is now and hope perhaps to get an answer as to why or how she died. No I am not dangerously emotional about that it is merely another reason added to all the others that I already had.
I can say after my almost unbearably uncomfortable experience using rue, which I had a feeling would go that way, The lack of a bad feeling about this next attempt, and my extensive experience with high doses of LSD (5-10 hits of strong stuff at a time, many times, lost count) I have no anxiety about what I am about to experience. I decided to share all of this with an understanding community as there is no one else with whom I can do so and thank you all for your support as I have certainly read some excellent suggestions on how to go about my next attempt. Please do respond with any further suggestions or questions you may have. I will let you know how it goes!:d
As for the breakdown of me? Well I'm a 31 year old male with extensive experience in Lysergic Acid Diethylamide and Psilocybe Cubensis. I have been exploring those two realms since I was 14 and had an experience on a high dose of LSD in which I regressed through childhood all the way back to an infant state then out of body viewing myself when I was 16. Sadly I was at home at the time and my older brother (having been doing the same things) was scared and let the cat out of the bag. Due to my being disoriented/incoherent/unresponsive as the trip set in my family decided to take me to a hospital where they simply let me ride it out. I have no fear of admitting any of this since it is already of record and the hospital called the police to interview me so it's of more than a medical record.
Needless to say I will always be discussing me and not SWIM when it comes to experiences or attempts. I wouldn't even try to claim it's SWIM and I honestly think some of the posters do out of paranoia and if they have nothing they know of on record for themselves (in reference to the subjects of this forum and site) then they are right to do so.
Anyhow to continue, I used to think of myself as Atheist for a time even after my regressive experience as at the time I did not know that was what had happened. My spiritual awakening began after the death of my Grandmother. I had a dream in which she visited me but it was not typical in the "spirit came to me" way. instead I was out of body and floated down to her sitting under the peach tree's on her farm where she used to during the summer in her younger days. The thing was I never knew she liked to sit out there I hadn't paid attention to that as I was a child. Only when I discussed the dream with family did i find that out. This got me to thinking and I began going to a Christian church with my grandparents on the maternal side. Around the same time as the world trade center attacks this was all happening. that particular day I awoke to a friend knocking on the door to tell me and my roommate about it. When I awoke I knew something terrible had happened in the world, I sensed a large and sudden loss of life. I continued church for two more weeks but found that many of the questions I was beginning to form were not answered. I also began some research into the history of that and many other religions and found that humans had bent the messages to their own needs and corrupted them all. Even Buddhism was corrupted here in America by those seeking to make money using it under the self help guise.
So seeking the truth for myself was all I had. Through my studies I did find the truth was hidden in all the religions if you only pay attention to what they agree on. It was at this point I began using LSD again, though as a spiritual assistant (rather than for recreation) and discovered the ability to feel my connection to the worlds consciousness.
At this point I have learned to feel that connection nearly every waking moment without any LSD use and think LSD has served it's purpose in my life. In fact it is that very connection that seems to give me a powerful ability to predict things in my immediate future without even knowing I'm doing it until the prediction happens. It's not as though I think "this will happen" It is more of a feeling of something good or bad about to happen sometime that day. Sometimes I do have a vision of whats about to happen only a few seconds before it does like a one second clip of what happens flashes in my minds eye and it does it with unimportant things. I also can often read the minds of those closest to me in a way, like I know their desires. As an example if I go to the store for dinner I often buy exactly what my girlfriend wanted that night and I assure you we have a large repertoire of recipes so it's not due to her being finicky and me trying to please, as she is not and I make no such attempt. Also I've noticed a "open dialogue" between myself and the world around me. If I had a question or something was on my mind even a random thought with no significance I'd notice it show up in single or multiple instances through various forms of media or the conversations of others, the more important it was to me the more it showed up untill I was guided to a way to find the answers.
Anyways back to my religious studies I even studied tribal and ancient religions and found they seemed to be the most accurate in similarity to what I had been discovering about my own spiritual connection, the world, life and death. This led me to the Mayan before I had even heard all the 2012 hype. I had read a very little about Ayahuasca due to seeking other psychedelics during my recreational drug use in my teens. With my new-found spiritual knowledge I was suddenly thrown for a loop as within the same week I began to really research this Mayan Spiritual helper Ayahuasca and was seeking more in depth knowledge to many questions (I'll get to later) and how I could try some I came across "The Spirit Molecule" video on a private Torrent site I frequent (note I was only browsing the site not searching for anything at the time) Was able to get a digital copy of Dr. Strassmans book and went to visit my brother and he had come back from a festival with some DMT crystal which I had just discovered was a major active compund in Ayahuasca. Yes he let me try a small dose though just enough to get some very mild visuals comparable to a single hit of weak LSD. He said if I wanted more he could get it or show me how to extract it but I turned him down, I wanted to know more about it before I went further.
(no offense to you smokers, I.V. peoples) For spiritual purposes I've decided against smoking it at all as I am not seeking this for recreation and believe that is all smoking or intravenous use is really good for. I don't want to run through the door say hi and run back out I want to sit and chat for a few hours you know?
So this is where I stand now. I have tried syrian rue with chacruna but I assume the diet thing is necessary for me as I used plenty and got no effect aside from being off balance having strong trails and purging from both ends
. I now have the vine of souls and Chacruna and am preparing myself for my journey sometime in the next week or two depending upon when I find the time to brew. I seek to understand my telepathic/precognition/Open Dialogue abilities and strengthen them as well as understand what the ancient Mayans knew of the world and I'm hoping this great teacher can guide me on some healing of a torn disc in my back. I also lost my little sister abruptly last year with no good explanation from the medical community (they say medicine interaction but didn't take enough blood when she arrived at the hospital and only have post mortem amounts of the medications which were far too low to cause death, though thats likely due to the breakdown in the bloodstream between death and autopsy) and wish to visit this other side I will travel to which is where I believe she is now and hope perhaps to get an answer as to why or how she died. No I am not dangerously emotional about that it is merely another reason added to all the others that I already had. I can say after my almost unbearably uncomfortable experience using rue, which I had a feeling would go that way, The lack of a bad feeling about this next attempt, and my extensive experience with high doses of LSD (5-10 hits of strong stuff at a time, many times, lost count) I have no anxiety about what I am about to experience. I decided to share all of this with an understanding community as there is no one else with whom I can do so and thank you all for your support as I have certainly read some excellent suggestions on how to go about my next attempt. Please do respond with any further suggestions or questions you may have. I will let you know how it goes!:d
