Welcome.

I also lurked for a time before stepping up and joining in.  I only became a full member in the past couple days.

One thing I can say for sure, is this is a VERY good bunch of friends to have.  With the amount of brainpower and spirit here, we should be able to move mountains and craft palaces in them to boot.

Take your time with spice and changa... or dive in, if you feel like it.  Ingested MAOIs give amazing results, but you have to observe the MAOI diet strictly.  (better to fast)  SWIM finds that using another vehicle (shrooms, L, DXM, K) to take you into orbit before igniting the hyperspace rocket is also much more efficient when you have a limited amount of spice.  Launching an intergalactic voyage from the moon is far easier than from Cape Canaveral...

Anyhow.  I know how you feel.