Ok, there where 6 of us. My 5 friends and my friends mother.. I think she is in her 50s. She ate a few shrooms with us then closed her self in another room alone.. to my dismay. About 3 hours in and some normal triping.. I found myself sitting on a couch in the living room of the house we all where staying in (rented for the week) looking at another couch right directly across from me. I started to have very vivid hallucinations while looking at the arm of this couch.. It ebbed and flowed and dissolved into the air around it. I was along for the ride, but I made a choice to take the wheel and drive. I felt energy moving though my lower body up to my chest and face. My whole body felt like a lightning rod. I heard a pop and I thought it was a circuit beaker in the house as I felt that the lights flickered, the music stopped and there was the older mother there in the room with us she had come out and I felt I had called to her in that blip of time. I stated to tell every one how sorry I was for doing that and how I wouldnt do it again they acted as if nothing had happend and said it was ok. I asked "Marla" (the mother) if she had heard me she said yes. I told her I was sorry if I scared her she said "i know you wont hurt me" I asked her to sit by me she said "no". I told Marla we needed to talk and she said yes we do. she came and sat on the couch in front of me and I started shaking my head back and forth in small quick movements. This is when I began to feel as If I was not quite myself. My whole posture changed and my voice and expressions where not my own. I talked to her about her life. I asked her questions about her job and I knew everything about her. I got feelings of great anger from her that made me grit my teeth and hurt my neck. I felt like a woman (im not) every one was oddly silent while all this happend but they where afraid and I had to take time out to calm them. I asked her about her desk chair at work and she looked at me like I walked on her grave. I asked her if it was yellow. She said "navy blue" I thought this was funny and said "its not black, now is it". She said no she loved that chair it took her a too long to get it. I said "how long" "9 years" she said. "9 years, was it worth it?" I said, "you gave up so much". she said "it was" I told her not to forget it and released her. THis whole time I felt I had locked her in my eyes and she seemed as if she couldnt move or avoid telling me the truth. I released her, and shook my head
I started feeling like myself again but now "reality" was pulling back. I started to know how everything was connected and I felt my mind slipping away, this scared me I didn't want to leave my friends I felt I had to watch over them they seemed children like to me. Every thing made way too much scene the music, what people said, everything was connected. I knew what was going to be said before it was said, same with music movements of others everything. Everything is always and forever will be... everything. I was keeping this in the back on my head.. if I where to dwell on it for more then a a heart beat I would have been lost. Up and down up and down I walked the edge of this world. I started to forget about it a little bit, they where pulling me back to them my friends. I then reached a point where I felt very at peace with myself and everything. I started to tell jokes and stories to every one and the mood became so happy all was love I wanted them to understand this. Every one told me over and over how happy I had made them and how happy I had come. The peak dipped down a bit and I felt much more just stoned but still very good. 2 people asked to speak to me in private. They told me of some personal struggles and I told them to let them go, we shared tears. I started to come down.
The sun woke up and no one would talk to me about the night before.
My friend that was 2 hrs away called me and told me I came to her in a dream. I recall that.
I'm left shaken but I feel some how better. I am not the same person.
edit: I'm sorry if that is hard to read. This is not what I do best. There are more things that took place but its so hard to recall everything at once.
thank you for letting me share.
