Ok, so I thought I should write a little more about SWIM's experience with recreational and psychedelic drugs, because honestly, I was hoping to have full membership by now, and SWIM keeps seeing threads to which they would like to contribute, but can't. So here goes...
SWIM doesn't know what to say, but they have had their fair share of experience with more drugs than most people could name, and has given most of them away, as the novelty wore off, as with a child's toy. Psychedelics, however, have had a lasting impact on SWIM's life, and SWIM will most likely be experimenting and working with them for the rest of SWIM's life. SWIM has a strong respect for these substances, having been on the most amazing trips, inside SWIM's own mind, and out into the vast expanses of the multiverse. Experiences that have terrified and amazed SWIM, imposing on them a sense of wonder, both alternately and synchronously. Experiences that have helped SWIM to realise that there -is- something else to this amazing gift that we call life.
SWIM was always a devout atheist, shrugging off the beliefs of religious nuts and crazy hippies without a second thought, simultaneously amused by their convictions, and envious of them for having such faith. Nobody likes to imagine facing oblivion. Even after travelling inside and out, seemingly as far as the mind could take one such explorer, SWIM wasn't even close to being convinced. And then came DMT. SWIM's first dose was amazing, but nothing that was vastly different from your usual psychedelic experience, aside from the incredible and undeniable coursing of amazing, spiraling, pulsating energy. It was a low dose, half a cone of relatively mild changa. However, after hearing stories, and trying it for themselves, SWIM recognised the potential for something deeper. Over two years later, SWIM found someone peddling the stuff for a profit, but felt lucky to have the opportunity, and decided to experiment further. It was this that helped SWIM to finally, after five years of experimentation, combine SWIM's experiences, stories that they had heard and knowledge of physics into some sort of belief structure.
While hardly defined, this change of beliefs was an enormous step for SWIM. Even though SWIM had spent much time meditating, practising lucid dreaming and even astral projection, SWIM could never convince themselves that it was more than just manipulating their own mind. Now SWIM knows that there is something else, waiting to be discovered. SWIM is excited to be studying physics shortly, exploring the places that DMT can take them, participating in this board of like-minded individuals, and just learning more about the universe and whatever may be in or outside of it.
So. there you have it.
Oh and yeah, SWIM is happy to post some of his experience reports, with DMT or otherwise, if that might help with the full membership thing. SWIM looks forward to contributing
