There's an atheist program here in austin on public television, comes on every sunday. They take in phone calls and stuff. Anyways, you can't tell them atheists that anything is a fact based on belief only.

I've never been an atheist, briefly thought I might be at one time, but I've never been religious either. I'm just searching for something I believe is out there, perhaps the same thing you are. And, I don't expect to know the ways to find it. I think I'm picking up bits and pieces through physics that I learn of, through rational thinking, and the psychedelic experience. Those three seems to be a good combination. But, I like to think I don't miss a chance to learn something new about something new. Like watching birds do their thing, or how dogs have a single-minded focus on any thing at a time. I try to imagine their world.

But, its interesting how pyschedelics could flip the switch between atheism and belief in something.

And, if you replace the word SWIM in your essay, with the word "I", or "ME", then it reads pretty well