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rho

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My investigation with psychedelic substances began around two years ago with a small dose of LSD. It was the second drug I had ever used (alcohol being the first), and I turned to the web for more information and perspectives on various chemical and psychedelic issues. Through that time I found myself always returning to the Nexus and the community and its collective resources have proven to be an invaluable asset in my exploration of chemicals and mind.

Many years ago I was exploring dream worlds, and at the height of my experience I had become quite efficient at dream recall and, to a point, becoming lucid while dreaming. Some strange experiences there caused me to set aside the practice, and for several years took no interest in the mind as anything more than reasoning machine.
Then at the start of my sophomore year of college, the opportunity to try LSD presented itself. LSD had been a chemical which had fascinated me for a long time, I could not pass up the chance to try it. The experience itself was nothing particularly profound or even that great, but it had planted the idea that maybe- just maybe- I didn't know as much as I had thought about the nature of things.
A few months later I began smoking marijuana and that summer took mushrooms on two occasions; later taking another small dose of acid.
Then in the winter, I had my first truly psychedelic experience with LSD. Later that week my friends and I dosed again, which turned out to be a bad idea. It was my first bad trip and left me wondering if I would use psychedelics again.

After two months of no drugs, I broke down and decided to use Kash's Advanced LSA Extraction Tek and try LSA. My first attempt failed (my own fault), and I did not experience a full trip. I did ingest enough LSA to, in combination with cannabis, provide me with a most amazing healing experience. It allowed me to integrate my bad trip and a slew of personal and family issues which had been plaguing me. I have since used LSA 4-5 times with the most amazing results. The Morning Glory has a very special place in my life, appearing even when using other substances.
I'm a university student in my early twenties. After two years studying Computer Science, I fell in love with philosophy and have been studying it both in and out of school. I have special interest in historical and traditional uses of substances and various explanations and endeavours into the mystical/spiritual experience.

I look forward to further exploring the world of psychedelics, and eagerly anticipate the addition of mescaline and DMT to my experience. I have been recording these experiences (and my thoughts on them) to the best of my ability and have decided I need an outlet for them, if for no other reason than to keep myself sane (staring at a private notebook filled with things so alien to ordinary life eventually begins to feed a madness of sorts). I look forward to contributing to this community and continuing our conversation (even if, in my silence, you did not realize we were having a conversation).
In short, Hello.


-rho
 
Hi rho,

welcome to the nexus! Thanks for your intro. It really is a good idea IMO to communicate with others who have had similar experiences and understand the value of these most interesting substances. It can help a lot with integration, not only in a philosophical sense but in a practical one as well. I know it has been a great asset for me in my psychedelically isolated existence to have the Nexus to visit and feel sort of at home.

so once again, welcome. take a good look around and enjoy!

cheers
 
Welcome!


I love the line, "...maybe, just maybe I didn't know as much as I had thought about the nature of things."

Ain't that always the way?
 
Welcome rho! You seem to be coming from the right place and are exploring with a thoughtful approach. We're glad to have you here, and look forward to reading more detailed notes about your experiences. Your successful integration of the harder experiences is a very positive thing. Lets hear more!
 
Thanks for the responses!

Guyomech, as far as my bad experience is concerned, what I found hardest to handle was that it wasn't some darker counterpart to the wholly other rapturous states and visions which had accompanied my experiences in the past. Rather it was a state of intense paranoia, emanating not from the chemical change but from within myself. I was in a state of hyper-awareness of the environment and could see the influences of the decisions I made. In the actions of people I knew to be my friends a great distrust arose; human intention was assigned to anything and everything. A quieter voice recognized this to be what was happening, and while powerless to stop it from occurring, provided enough consolation to quietly wait it out.
I have a more detailed write up for both this experience and the subsequent coming to terms with it which I intend to post sometime soon.


Looking back (and thinking about any future occurances), I'm not so sure if 'just waiting it out' is a good response to these experiences as it attempts to merely keep everything in a stasis of sorts. Does anyone have any other methods or approaches when dealing with the inevitable bad trip?
 
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