No need to reply to post just trying to get some laughs

[premeditated]

Spent all this money doing teks...got all the nice equipment...got like 5gs in powder...got 5 full carts ready to go....but just sitting here looking at it...like a scarddy cat...I've never been so excited and terrified to do something at the exact same time.

 

[Voidmatrix]

Welcome to the club!

One love

 

[premeditated]

Welcome to the club!

One love

The craziest part is as soon as I exhale...big smile...body high...I'm like why was I afraid. My number 1 intention always is to break free from the rumination of everyday thinking. I call it an emotional 🗑....can't compare traumas to others bc we all have different sizes of emotional 🗑. When it gets full we have to release it somehow. Some do it with drugs, alcohol, church..etc. I don't judge unless it's hurting someone else. Psychedelics is like a new restore point in the brain. We gotta stop blaming whatever for our happiness today...it's hard as fuck bc we want to play victim sometimes. Factory reset and it's up to us to install new clean software..if we continue to put viruses in our cpu....own up to it.

 

[Pandora]

DMT is serious business/medicine. It has taught me so much about my own fear(s). It tends to give me what I need way more than what I want or what I think I need. 5 grams is quite a stash. I imagine it would set up a bit of trepidation in me if I looked at it all,

 

[premeditated]

DMT is serious business/medicine. It has taught me so much about my own fear(s). It tends to give me what I need way more than what I want or what I think I need. 5 grams is quite a stash. I imagine it would set up a bit of trepidation in me if I looked at it all,

I'm a super newbie just trying teks. When I've tried just a small bit it..it burned so I assumed it was bad. So I started all over a few times.

 

[Tripolation]

 

[Kobranek]

I needed to read that today about putting viruses in our cpu and expecting a better outcome. Need to play the victim sometimes...nah all the time lol. We can be our own worst enemies and dmt is a great big fucken mirror for better or worse... am I ready to see my true self? Will the person that I see know who I'm looking at? If not do I even know my self? who is that I'm even looking at?

If you do see yourself? Why have I been blinding myself all this time? Is this insanity or peace?

 

[premeditated]

I needed to read that today about putting viruses in our cpu and expecting a better outcome. Need to play the victim sometimes...nah all the time lol. We can be our own worst enemies and dmt is a great big fucken mirror for better or worse... am I ready to see my true self? Will the person that I see know who I'm looking at? If not do I even know my self? who is that I'm even looking at?

If you do see yourself? Why have I been blinding myself all this time? Is this insanity or peace?

Bro I can talk about this subject all day and night. My vicious cycle is crazy. I can heal myself 90 percent of the way but there is 10 that I can't access and have buried to protect me from ending myself. So everytime I get super happy consistently over 8 months..I believe I'm ready to tackle that 10 percent which prevents me from being in an intimate relationship and having kids...then I look at myself without any ego and try to access that 10 percent..reality kicks my ass and sends me into a depressive loop and have to start all over again. So it's best to just stay at 90 percent.

 

[Kobranek]

The way I would see myself without an ego would to see myself as an innocent kid, my inner child free from all the attachments preconceived notions and conditioning tapping into the curiosity and wonder that has eroded over time due to all the expectations that are instilled by those who may not had our best interests in mind and made us to believe that narrative.

 

[premeditated]

The way I would see myself without an ego would to see myself as an innocent kid, my inner child free from all the attachments preconceived notions and conditioning tapping into the curiosity and wonder that has eroded over time due to all the expectations that are instilled by those who may not had our best interests in mind and made us to believe that narrative.

Beautifully said..

 

[Koduckushi]

Sometimes that kid is yelling for help, and pulling all the levers to get it.

 

[premeditated]

Sometimes that kid is yelling for help, and pulling all the levers to get

Beautifully said..

I've met some ppl with childhood trauma so great that they don't have any memories before like the age of 10. That blows my mind bc I can remember being 2..

 

[mcgettums]

This is so funny! Some friends and I used to play a game where you would make that shape with your hand, and if someone looked at it you could punch them in the arm. The catch was that you had to have your hand like that below your knee for it to count lol

 

[premeditated]

This is so funny! Some friends and I used to play a game where you would make that shape with your hand, and if someone looked at it you could punch them in the arm. The catch was that you had to have your hand like that below your knee for it to count lol

Used to? Ive never stopped....world

 

[zyun]

My number 1 intention always is to break free from the rumination of everyday thinking.

On the comeup of a DMT trip I always experience a shift in perspective where I percieve the story I tell myself in my day-to-day as an "outsider" in all its sillyness.
Everyone tells themselves a story as they go through their days, which is fine, it helps us make sense of the world and achieve things, but it might become a problem if the story becomes a habit and we forget that it's just a story. It's really a gift to be able to step outside of it once in a while.

 

[premeditated]

On the comeup of a DMT trip I always experience a shift in perspective where I percieve the story I tell myself in my day-to-day as an "outsider" in all its sillyness.
Everyone tells themselves a story as they go through their days, which is fine, it helps us make sense of the world and achieve things, but it might become a problem if the story becomes a habit and we forget that it's just a story. It's really a gift to be able to step outside of it once in a while.

. If you can have a somewhat positive story life can be manageable. But when that story is fabricated or some ppl are so lost in anxiety and depression their minds are stuck in a loop of survival. I find myself coming out of dmt trips feeli guilty of not being my authentic self when I thought I was being that.