Not in all my YEARS!!!!

[olympus mon]

Ive been having troubles breaking through with my changa out here in Cusco. I bought a beautiful hand carved pipe made from bone by a local shamaninc tienda.

My first couple attempts something was clearly wrong, I had to take at one time close to 6-8 hits and still could only feel masive harmala drunk but little to no DMT.

I did some research and cleansed my system of the nerve pain medication Tramadol I was on and after a week of no other meds I tried again. It was better but man...something was still very wrong, not even close to breakthrough and I felt im wasting my precious years supply gift from IH.:thumb_up:

I decided to make a bong and try again. I used a dry gourd and some random parts and screens and came up with a working bong. I told Claire Id be doing my thing downstairs and she wished my happy travels as always.

Loaded a bowl and gave it a solid pull getting her nice and cherry red. I couldn,t see anything because its a gourd so just I puffed tuff, exhaled...paused a second and then cleared the chamber.

Guys n glas... Ive never been hit this hard in my life. Within mili seconds of clearing the gourd the onset was so violently rapid I thought, Shit man exhale now! Thank God i did because without even holding the hit in at all I was blasting into a world of confusion like I have never felt or known.

I saw the room engulf in flames and felt that Claire was being attacked by men. (for those who dont know about 2 weeks ago Claire was attacked and robbed out here so we have both been dealing with a lot of emotions, she wasnt harmed more than bruises but scared us both as to the very real dangers of living in S.A) Anyways...

I knew that this was a dmt trip and was somehow able to separate myself from the journey, almost see it from outside of me but I HAD to make sure the house wasnt on fire and Claire was ok so i did something I have never done before on any dmt journey. I cried out for help.."Claire!! I need help...NOW!"

I couldnt see anything I was lost in some strange overdosed place of hyperspace and total disconnect from reality but started to come back around enough to finally make out the words "is the house ok, are you ok?" She rubbed my back and calmly assured me everything was fine.

Some time after that I was pretty much back in reality and sitting up shaking my head in astounishment. I asked Claire how long was I screaming and rolling around for and asked was it really loud? She giggled, "Hun, you were just sitting there silent".

I laughed and she giggled at me. I had to know, so asked her how long had it been. She told me from the time I left our bedroom till that moment was about 5 min! :shock:

It was hard to believe, and wow does a bong make a huge difference! Every instinctive cell in my body screamed for me to blow that hit out asap...Wow im glad I listended to experience.

I needed to go through this. It really was a positive experience even though it must sound scary. It was like all these fears and emotions associated with Claires attack and robbing were waiiting there behind a flood gate of hate, pain and anger. It felt like a cannon blast of pent up emotional energy hit me atright in the heart.

I have since re-built the bong, lol...one with a clear chamber so I can see the smoke as well as a much smaller, one hit sized bowl for it. I tried it out and it was perfect!!!! One good rip and I was fully broken through into this place of healing light and in that after glow of final success I understood why I love this path we are on so dearly.

Much love
OM

 

[VIII]

That was a very nice read! Sounds very heated and intense! Sorry to hear about the troubles but it is great that it helped you unload or integrate your emotions from the experience.

Bongs are truly incredible for breakthrough dosing! Brought a smile to my face when you mentioned trying to exhale as quick as possible. I've had a couple unintentional breakthroughs as a result of bongs. Take a bit too big of a hit and then "wooooah here it comes!"

Happy afterglow vibes

 

[Whatisreal]

Brought a smile to my face when you mentioned trying to exhale as quick as possible. I've had a couple unintentional breakthroughs as a result of bongs. Take a bit too big of a hit and then "wooooah here it comes!"

Me too :lol: Same thing. Thinking "WOAHH exhale now" almost right after clearing the bong.

Beautiful report brother. Safe traveling.

 

[○]

YES :thumb_up:

My strongest experience to date was with a bong apparatus. Taking a reasonable dose all in one go is :shock: :twisted: .

Bongs are not to be taken lightly. They will plunge you to the heart of it, no doubt. The buildup can be so overwhelmingly quick, sometimes you don't even have time to nervous and/or scared hehe.

 

[corpus callosum]

Redirect Notice

^^Something very much like this can be absolutely devastating with changa.Like Tattvamasi, my strongest experience was with a bong of this size and changa in a single inhalation. Its remarkably smooth despite the small size.

 

[Sky Motion]

Beautiful integration & we all know that the bong is really something else when it comes to spice. Nothing can compare to taking a fast large rip the onset takes literally no time at all.

Love you Oly be well!

 

[Pandora]

Wow olympus mon - thank you so much for sharing this amazing, deep, challenging and I hope healing experience.

Reminded me of taking a huge dose once and coming out of trance in a panic telling my sitter I spent the whole time struggling and gasping hard for breath. He was amazed and told me I had just lain there the entire time, appearing to be deeply asleep, breathing deeply and evenly. We spent some time marveling together at how easy it was to completely separate our consciousness and perceptions from our actual bodies and reality.

I am so sorry Claire had to go through what she did, especially given the mission that she is on to help orphaned children. I know your paths will not be easy in the time to come but I am gratified and impressed at how you seem to be reaching for health and healing.

Peace and love to you both.

 

[Ringworm]

Fear is such a little bitch.

Gets harder and harder to rise above it the older I get and the more I have to lose.

 

[MomentOfTruth]

I had this happen one time with a steamroller and some melted dmt. My buddy loaded up a chunk of dmt that had been exposed to enough heat that it melted together and formed a super condensed ball. I was unaware that he had loaded this super condensed DMT into the steamroller and i took one big giant hit. Before I even pulled the entire hit in my body screamed at me to exhale.

The only way i can describe the following experience is that i felt like i had loaded up a double barrel shotgun, stuck it in my mouth, and blew my brain out the back of my skull. I was immediately floored and unable to move. I had my eyes open because i was in shock at the quick onset and strong effects. There were 3 dimensional jacks(like the game) spinning 1000mph around the room, swirly around me, enveloping me. I was horrified. I couldn't figure out which was more uncomfortable... lying there with my eyes open, or closing them.

It was absolutely insane. It lasted about 10 minutes total.

I've also had similar experiences that were some of the most powerful that i've ever experienced, yet only lasted 5 minutes. Bizarre how this works sometimes.

Thanks for sharing!

 

[Infinite I]

In regards to the bong I never understood problems people have not breaking through or it not working and having to spend a lot of money on the gvg when a bong always works for my friends and I. Sure the gvg is pretty great but I really don't see the need if you have a bong, to each their own and of course one day I'd like to try a gvg but it's not top of my list of things to do, I want to breakthrough on dmt a bong will always deliver! :shock: Cool report love seeing experienced users saying I've never had anything like that happen!! :thumb_up:

 

[acacian]

that sounds intense mate.. both the intensity and also the confrontational manner of the trip. Its funny sometimes how you think you've been squirming around screaming for ages only to come out and learn that you were laying peacefully for a mere five minutes. How are you feeling about the situation with claire now? Do you feel you got past some barriers with that trip?
And yeah... for breaking through.. bong rip all the way for me :thumb_up: . The most reliable method for the most powerful experiences has always been a well packed bong of 1:1 changa for me... i remember my last one, like yours I didn't even get to finish pulling the cone and I was already being universally penetrated. "I understood why I love this path we are on so dearly" this rings true for me often when coming out of a deep experience, especially if I have had to break through certain fears that have been urking at me prior...only to be met with such powerful love on entry.. it is deeply humbling this path

 

[TheAppleCore]

Fear is such a little bitch.

Gets harder and harder to rise above it the older I get and the more I have to lose.

Well, considering how safe DMT is, you don't really have much to lose do you?

I've been thinking a lot about the fear lately. A roadblock for me as well. It seems that, if you have the right intention, then fear isn't really as big an issue. If you want to use DMT as a tool for learning or personal growth, then yes, you might still be afraid, but so what? In fact, fear is probably a necessary component of the learning process.

 

[olympus mon]

Fear is such a little bitch.

Gets harder and harder to rise above it the older I get and the more I have to lose.

Well, considering how safe DMT is, you don't really have much to lose do you?

I've been thinking a lot about the fear lately. A roadblock for me as well. It seems that, if you have the right intention, then fear isn't really as big an issue. If you want to use DMT as a tool for learning or personal growth, then yes, you might still be afraid, but so what? In fact, fear is probably a necessary component of the learning process.

Brave words....lets see how you feel after a real hard one mate.

 

[TheAppleCore]

Ah... to say that I've had some hard trips... would be a drastic understatement. I'm not trying to boast or anything, not close. Like I said, fear still remains a roadblock for me! I don't claim to have the solution.

 

[acacian]

Fear is such a little bitch.

Gets harder and harder to rise above it the older I get and the more I have to lose.

Well, considering how safe DMT is, you don't really have much to lose do you?

I've been thinking a lot about the fear lately. A roadblock for me as well. It seems that, if you have the right intention, then fear isn't really as big an issue. If you want to use DMT as a tool for learning or personal growth, then yes, you might still be afraid, but so what? In fact, fear is probably a necessary component of the learning process.

very well said.. some of my terrifying experiences have ended up teaching me a lot about my emotions and why I felt those fears in the first place. Intention does play a huge role in the journey.. thats one of the biggest things I've learnt from dmt.. and especially that you are not your thoughts or fears.. there is always that someone underneath experiencing them and they always have been and will always be (this is a truth for me personally by the way I don't mean to sound like I'm pushing that on anyone as an absolute). it can be hard to separate oneself from their thoughts at times.. I certainly still struggle with it. dmt has definitely helped me see the relationship between myself and those fears though and the reason I feel them is actually quite humbling in itself.

scary experiences are not pleasant but if you can take a step back and see where your intention fits in with it all, it can be quite comforting realising where it all stems from. I've realised through my experiences that a lot of my fears stem from a very strong yearning for the feeling of love ...and consequently the fear usually comes as a result of contemplating how horrible it would be losing it. I now recognise that the yearning for love is in itself a genuine intention and a beautiful quality and that has helped me break through a few barriers in myself...
Last breakthrough for me dealt very storngly with the duality concept of the universe by showing me how important it is to just feel, and not contemplate that feeling too much.. thats where the fear starts creeping in for me.... its a contemplation of it. I feel as if fear isn't now, its like a contemplation of now which then creates its own whacko dimension.. aha...what a mindf*ck

 

[TheAppleCore]

Last breakthrough for me dealt very storngly with the duality concept of the universe by showing me how important it is to just feel, and not contemplate that feeling too much.. thats where the fear starts creeping in for me.... its a contemplation of it. I feel as if fear isn't now, its like a contemplation of now which then creates its own whacko dimension.. aha...what a mindf*ck

Nice one! Reminds me of something Alan Watts said, which is that we have a tendency to think so much about our emotions that we create a vicious cycle of negativity, in which we experience anxiety about anxiety about anxiety. If we just passively observe our emotions, without fighting them, we end the cycle.