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nickle nuts

nickle nuts

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Wow, it seems like Ive been "lurking" on these forums for years! And in fact I have lol. This isnt the introduction
I would like to have written, but its my reality now.

Im a 42 yr old single dad raising my youngest son on my own.
In November I was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. The doc said I had roughly 10 to 12 months left.
I do of course plan to prove him wrong though:!:

Between all the drugs they have me on, the chemo, and the cancer, most of my psychedelic experiments have
come to a screeching halt. Mostly because Im not sure which things are safe to mix. But I still love to
come to this forum! I decided I wanted to do an intro and say hey to you guys since Ive been lurking for
so long lol.

Ive received such a wealth of knowledge from you guys, Im hoping to have the chance to share whatever I can and
give something back. But for now, Hey everyone!
 
Welcome Mr. Nickle Nuts,

So, it's time for some research. Hmmm... Learn what is tried and true and continue. If you can find a safe path to continue with your experementation I say do it. If that is actually what you truly want.

Not to be too frank, but. I've been continuing with the DMT path with the notion to prepare for death. I have friends who have come back and claimed they no longer fear the unknown. Maybe if we can make an easy and informed transition into the next place we can shape a more favorable destiny.

Although, I have to speculate maybe as many moments in this time-space continum might be the best thing at the moment... Get it while you can. Why detach, right?

I love you already, stay in touch.
 
..welcome nickle nuts :)..congratulations on being a father..doing it on your own is intense, so i know you must be one of the hardest working people here..
yes, do prove those doctors wrong..it can be done..
look forward to your perspectives..see you around..
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Thanks, Yes I am for sure interested in continuing the experiments. Im not sure that DMT is the patch for me though. Every time I journeyed with it, it was more like what I heard someone refer to here as "attacked by geometry" lol. Even on breakthrough doses I never got much if any mental insight. Cactus and mushrooms seemed to work better for me for that type of journey.

I do think that the "traveling" Ive done has given me some peace of mind through this though. Ive seen and experienced things that my mind is capable of that show me how powerful and undying my spirit or soul, or whatever you want to call it is :) Ive seen people get attacked on these forums for mentioning Jesus, but Im also a Christian which helps me also. And I see no contradiction between being a Christian and psychedelic use. But dont worry, Im not here to preach! hahaha

Feel free if anyone has any questions for me. Im not really fearing death as much as Im affraid how my kids will deal with losing me. My youngest already has serious issues. But on a positive note, Im feeling great lately and am back to my daily workouts, juicing plenty of organic veggis and trying to gain some weight back!

Im hoping to be able to resume my studies with san pedro and achuma. Ive been wondering about possible interactions between the cactus alkaloids and the fentanyl patch I have to wear though...
 
Welcome, nickel nuts. As a father myself, your situation is heartbreaking. I hope you make the absolute most of whatever time you have left and love your kids with everything you have.
 
Thank you, heartbreaking for sure. Aside from treatment, spending as much time with my kids as possible has been my main focus.

I dont want this to turn into a "poor me" thread though. I am strong, healthy otherwise, and have a great attitude! I plan on having many years left to enjoy everything I can.

Its just really cool to finally join in the discussions here. I find Im ALOT less worried about my old silly fears now. Its been very liberating...
 
Very sorry to hear this. Welcome to the nexus and look forward to many more posts from you.How did you find out You had cancer?did you have any symptoms?also was wondering your beliefs in the after life.Hang in there buddy !
 
Hi Timecat, for me this started as a pain in my upper abdomen after a meal at Ihop (go figure lol) The pain was on the left side and right at the point where the bottom of my ribcage ends.

At fisrt I thought Ihop poisoned me, but it didnt really feel the way an upset stomach feels. So not being too excited about doctor visits, I of course ignored it for around 6 weeks lol. Thinking maybe it was indigestion or possibly an ulcer at worst.

The intensity of the pain seemed to be related to some of the foods I ate. Also of interest, I insufflated a few seeds of yopo one eve, and that definitely made the pain worse. After a large pizza dinner one night, the pain was worse than usual so I did break down and go to the ER. After a million tests and scans they admitted me :(

As for my beliefs in the after life, I hold a Christian view. Which, interestingly enough, was given to me one night on a large dose of mushrooms.
NN
 
Haveyou hesard about the sAnto dIame church? They are a Christian Church that uses ayahuasca. It might be worth looking in to.

But first look in to the documentary the beautIful trUth:

A troubled 15-year-old boy attempting to cope with the recent death of his mother sets out to research Dr. Max Gerson's claims of a diet that can cure cancer as his first assignment for home-schooling in this documentary from filmmaker Steve Kroschel (Avalanche, Dying to Have Known). Garrett is a boy who has always been close to nature. He lives on a reserve with a menagerie of orphaned animals, and over the years he's become especially sensitive to the nutritional needs of the diet-sensitive animals he's charged with caring for. When Garrett's mother suffers a tragic and untimely death, the boy falls into a dangerous downward spiral and nearly flunks out of school. Increasingly concerned for Garrett's well-being and determined to strengthen their bond despite the many challenges on the horizon, his father makes the decision to begin home-schooling the distressed teen. Garrett's first assignment: study a controversial book written by Dr. Max Gerson, a physician who claims to have discovered a diet that's capable of curing cancer. Is Dr. Gerson's therapy truly the legitimate, alternative cure it appears to be? In order to find out the truth behind this long-suppressed treatment, Garrett interviews not only Dr. Gerson's family members, but various doctors, skeptics, and cancer patients as well. His studies completed and his findings revelatory, Garrett now sets out to tell the entire world about The Gerson Miracle.
 
Ooh yes, I have read a little about sAnto dIame. I would for sure be interested in learning more about them. One thing that would cause me some problems though, I have to wear a fentanyl patch for pain. Its a strong opiate pain reliever. Im pretty sure mixing the fentanyl with the vine could cause some interactions :( Have you ever been to the church? Isnt it by invite only?

I have seen The Beautiful Truth. Pretty amazing stuff! I was pretty excited about going to the clinic they run in mexico, but I ran into some problems getting my passport. But I am doing my juicing and organic foods!

We are really researching far and wide trying to come up with an alternative to the poison chemo that doctors love so much. I read through one of the papers my insurance company sent me about the costs, and the doctors are billing my insurance over $42,000 EACH time I get chemo!!! That is sooo insane.
NN
 
I havent been to the church, but I live close enough to Ashland OR. I didnt know they were by invite only. I read a thread from another forum describing someone from the bay areas experience. He sounded alone on his journey. He rode up on his motorcycle, met with the leaders of the church for an interview then was allowed to return for the ceremony. Maybe making it for that initial interview is where you recieve the invitation. I couldnt hurt to go knocking on some doors...
 
Welcome!

I have heard from a friend that Cayenne pepper helped with his cancer.
After doing a little searching...
I have found that Organically Grown Oregano, Garlic and Turmeric/Curry Powder added to your diet may help also.

<3 to you and your children
 
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