Thank you all from my heart. This was indeed a touching one for me to write and I have been trying to formulate it in my head for some time.

I ended up accidentally taking a pretty solid dose of LSD a few nights back, long story, lol and it all came together for me so I could get it on paper. Funny thing was I didn't even want to trip that night.

I, we, all of our concerts and understandings are up grades and evolving process`s. This one has been coming for a while stemming from a mind blowing ayahuasca ceremony now 2 years ago while living in Peru the first time.

R.S.- as always thank you for your addition to this discussion. They are always a grand touch and food for thought. Originally this essay was to be titled God the dreamer, but with all the stigmas and emotions attached to that word I baulked. Also I didn't want people to get stuck there as I find happens a lot.

Feeling God is the final frontier or end of the

It was necessary for me to be stripped of all my beliefs and understandings out in the forest as I was. It was needed because they were bs.

Not that the ideas and concepts themselves were bs but because my reasons for adopting these truths were. I, me, myself was full of sh#+.

I believe things because they felt good. Because they sounded clever. Because, well simply, I wanted to.

I was shown the error of my convictions and was basically spiritually demolished. Shattered to pieces and left alone naked, in the smoking rubble.

I returned home from the forest. Confused ultra sensitive yet very much at peace and cleansed. It wasn't for months of being back in the states that I even realised there was a little bit of sorrow within me for my lost spirit.

I spoken with a friend and she said one sentence that completed my months of integration.

"Sometimes we must be stripped bare to find our truths".

For me this is that time period.