I really feel like typing, so this may be quite long. But I am eager to because a full member here.
Here is my story.
When I started taking psychedelics, I was far too young and my mind is completely NOT what it is now. But I am glad the things that happened, did, because if it didn't, I would not be where I am right now.
First hard drug I tried, was MDMA, and had such a wonderful enlightening experience with it. It really changed my view on everything in life. Every little thing. And MDMA is what started my growth as a human. After plenty of doses with MDMA, I became mixing MDMA with some mary jane. And I am a pretty little guy, and I would say now, I over did MDMA quite a bit. But my first experiences with the psychedelic world, was with MDMA and marijuana. I knew my limits very well when it came to MDMA, and a few nights, I would take upwards of 8 rolls in a night. Speed never settled with me well, so I would always make sure it was as clean as possible. After that many rolls, and smoking a lot of marijuana, things would always get very wonderful. The open eye visuals and mindset was great. To me, these large doses and weed, are very very similar to my one experience with LSD. Except a lot happier. So once I found the psychedelic world, and it started to uncover, my next thing on my list, was mushrooms. First time with mushrooms, I ate a full dub. Because i thought I could handle it. "If I can eat over 10 rolls throughout one night, I could easily handle a high dose of mushrooms". I said in my head. But the psychedelic world on just a normal psychedelic, is far different. Its very real, its not always just 'happy happy joy joy' like MDMA is. And I found that out after about 4 experiences with mushrooms. Like mentioned before, I have tried LSD once, and also I have tried 2cb a handful of times(truly wonderful). I can no longer eat mushrooms now, because I kind of ruined them because of a DOM trip. I am not sure if anyone here is familiar with DOM, but my DOM trip was by far more intense than I believe my experience with DMT will ever be, unless I have a terrifying experience with it. A few years ago, when I was dumb, I dosed myself with 12mg of DOM. A VERY VERY strong dose. I dont wanna get too much into it, but I died that night.(virtually) I met God. After meeting Him, I met the devil. And he was not very nice. At all, and was not forgiving. My DOM trip was complete insanity for over 20 hours. DOM is a VERY long lasting drug. Especially at the dose I took. The entire trip, i was fading in an out of this 'DOM' world. And that terrifying experience, really opened my eyes to my greatest fears deep deep deep inside of me, at my core. Although it was completely terrifying, and scary, it was my most eye opening experience so far in my journey. Because of that drug though, my fears of dying, and a whole array of fears, are now diminished. Since that trip, my third eye has been very touchy. Just one single tiny magic mushroom, will give me a very very strong trip. A scary one, because of the length, it just reminds me too much of DOM.
After a few years of not really touching psychedelics, and not really any drugs at all, I read the book by Rick. DMT: The Spirit Molecule. And I readied myself for a much more matured journey. My views have changed a lot since my definite abuse with psychedelics. I never really prepared myself, nor respected them as I should have.
I recently developed a nice batch of DMT, perfectly white/clear, and was perfectly ready to handle the intensity of what is coming my way. I have taken about 6 small doses. My first dose was very very strong, did not breakthrough, but being pushed that hard into the psychedelic world, was breathtaking. I am fascinated. I am being very cautious, and working slowly until I am ready to breakthrough. Completely banishing the slight fear/anxiety of DMT that it once gave me. My first dose was slightly nerve racking, but once the initial fear was gone, I am very blessed from DMT. I cannot believe at how much it can uncover. Every time afterwards, I make sure to embrace the wonderful afterglow it gives me. Even at very very very small doses. I am taking this next batch very slowly, and am ready to breakthrough. DMT is my perfect partner to accompany me with my new person I have so well made within these past few years. I am comfortable with me, my mind, my worries, my fears. Me. I love who I am, I love how I work, now I am ready to explore.
Thank you guys for having such a wonderful community for people, I already feel welcomed.
Here is my story.
When I started taking psychedelics, I was far too young and my mind is completely NOT what it is now. But I am glad the things that happened, did, because if it didn't, I would not be where I am right now.
First hard drug I tried, was MDMA, and had such a wonderful enlightening experience with it. It really changed my view on everything in life. Every little thing. And MDMA is what started my growth as a human. After plenty of doses with MDMA, I became mixing MDMA with some mary jane. And I am a pretty little guy, and I would say now, I over did MDMA quite a bit. But my first experiences with the psychedelic world, was with MDMA and marijuana. I knew my limits very well when it came to MDMA, and a few nights, I would take upwards of 8 rolls in a night. Speed never settled with me well, so I would always make sure it was as clean as possible. After that many rolls, and smoking a lot of marijuana, things would always get very wonderful. The open eye visuals and mindset was great. To me, these large doses and weed, are very very similar to my one experience with LSD. Except a lot happier. So once I found the psychedelic world, and it started to uncover, my next thing on my list, was mushrooms. First time with mushrooms, I ate a full dub. Because i thought I could handle it. "If I can eat over 10 rolls throughout one night, I could easily handle a high dose of mushrooms". I said in my head. But the psychedelic world on just a normal psychedelic, is far different. Its very real, its not always just 'happy happy joy joy' like MDMA is. And I found that out after about 4 experiences with mushrooms. Like mentioned before, I have tried LSD once, and also I have tried 2cb a handful of times(truly wonderful). I can no longer eat mushrooms now, because I kind of ruined them because of a DOM trip. I am not sure if anyone here is familiar with DOM, but my DOM trip was by far more intense than I believe my experience with DMT will ever be, unless I have a terrifying experience with it. A few years ago, when I was dumb, I dosed myself with 12mg of DOM. A VERY VERY strong dose. I dont wanna get too much into it, but I died that night.(virtually) I met God. After meeting Him, I met the devil. And he was not very nice. At all, and was not forgiving. My DOM trip was complete insanity for over 20 hours. DOM is a VERY long lasting drug. Especially at the dose I took. The entire trip, i was fading in an out of this 'DOM' world. And that terrifying experience, really opened my eyes to my greatest fears deep deep deep inside of me, at my core. Although it was completely terrifying, and scary, it was my most eye opening experience so far in my journey. Because of that drug though, my fears of dying, and a whole array of fears, are now diminished. Since that trip, my third eye has been very touchy. Just one single tiny magic mushroom, will give me a very very strong trip. A scary one, because of the length, it just reminds me too much of DOM.
After a few years of not really touching psychedelics, and not really any drugs at all, I read the book by Rick. DMT: The Spirit Molecule. And I readied myself for a much more matured journey. My views have changed a lot since my definite abuse with psychedelics. I never really prepared myself, nor respected them as I should have.
I recently developed a nice batch of DMT, perfectly white/clear, and was perfectly ready to handle the intensity of what is coming my way. I have taken about 6 small doses. My first dose was very very strong, did not breakthrough, but being pushed that hard into the psychedelic world, was breathtaking. I am fascinated. I am being very cautious, and working slowly until I am ready to breakthrough. Completely banishing the slight fear/anxiety of DMT that it once gave me. My first dose was slightly nerve racking, but once the initial fear was gone, I am very blessed from DMT. I cannot believe at how much it can uncover. Every time afterwards, I make sure to embrace the wonderful afterglow it gives me. Even at very very very small doses. I am taking this next batch very slowly, and am ready to breakthrough. DMT is my perfect partner to accompany me with my new person I have so well made within these past few years. I am comfortable with me, my mind, my worries, my fears. Me. I love who I am, I love how I work, now I am ready to explore.
Thank you guys for having such a wonderful community for people, I already feel welcomed.
