now that im back...

[impossiblemachine]

hey all,

its been a few days since i really truly brokethrough and i am kind of finding myself in a lot of "good" confusion. what is this place we breakthrough to? why does it happen? why do we need to smoke to get ourselves there. i was born and raised catholic, so i feel torn. i am in no way shape or form trying to lessen my first breakthrough, im just trying to come to grips with what it i saw...if its real.

i will say though that since i broke through, my overall quality of existence has been better. did i win the lottery or get a raise? no...i mean that in the sense of my demeanor, outlook...i appreciate more because i feel i understand more. i feel like i came back from hyperspace wiser....im not saying i have all the answers or any, but i feel a unique state of "experienced" that i would usually think of as coming with age.(if that makes sense) a new found humbleness that exudes confidence

why is that place so familiar? why so welcoming? what are common or accepted beliefs on this? im not trying to force anything and i realize not everything is meant to be understood...but i think about my breakthrough everyday and sometimes i feel so connected to it that i get just a tiny rush of what it felt like to be there.

do i have a new found responsibility after breaking through? what are your thoughts on all this? more experienced travelers have any advice? thank you all for reading

ANTROCLES-cant wait to go back...

IM

 

[jamie]

Very good questions..ones I am sure we have all pondered after working with this amazing molecule..Id be surprised if someone had gone there and not asked these questions.. questions I know I have wondered about..still no definitive answers though..it's a big mystery..keeps it interesting..

I feel my quality of existance is better from working with spice and it's relatives for sure..but as to the actual nature of THAT place..who knows? It's dman beautiful though and I get the sense that working with the spice is an important thing.

 

[Oncewas]

I felt the same way. I'm not exactly christian but I do believe in a god and that christ was a great man. But I'm not trying to talk religion . Maybe we go there to understand something. To understand not to understand. To go there and to just follow your heart and soul wherever you may roll.

Maybe it's God's gift to man to show us true beauty if we are pure at heart. Maybe it's just us being able to see the functions of the mind at a subatomic level.

All I know is I didn't just "See" something. I was something else, somewhere else my brother. I saw paradise, after I died. All I know is it is a very confusing gift.

I also have that same lasting happiness and sense of well-being. Everything I see is more beautiful and I even started singing lately(something I'm not good at). And I'm like at the two weak mark of my first break-through experience.

 

[impossiblemachine]

thank you. i appreciate your input and thoughts. one thing else that came up....has anything ever contacted you? or have you seen anything on this plain when you werent on dmt? just a question...

IM

 

[jacetea]

A few times at night I've felt a weird "jolt" that reminded me of DMT. I found after taking dmt only twice I have had, and remembered, dreams nearly every night. I also felt something weird, you know that DMT "pull" or rush feeling right when the trip starts? I felt that, but I never really went anywhere. It could just be muscles I was tensing up while the trip went on, I'm not sure. Other than that, I've been firmly grounded without taking DMT.

EDIT: I assume you mean in the DMT realm, but no, nobody has ever contacted me. I've been around other entities, they observed and checked me out but never really contacted with speech. I felt love and caring from them, but no real contact to speak of.

 

[MooshyPeaches]

I was pretty much a atheist, but still open minded about the why's and unknowns about human existence. How is our DNA and mental capacity so superior to any other animal on earth, etc, etc. We find ruins of cultures that have a literal draw out of the solar system 6000 years ago. In 'modern' days when did we discover pluto? not till like 1917 or something. Cultures that had their own lost language, insane concepts of space, time, mathematics; calendars that can could predict lunar eclipses for hundreds even thousands of years in the future, all a little too much, somethings gotta be missing.

Than i took DMT and those answers weren't literally answered, but life for me seems to have become more clear. Not necessarily 'good' or 'bad' but just is. You really do goto a uncomprehendable existence made out of energy or pure information. raw energy of consciousness itself, raw energy of life experience.

Also, i as well have had very... almost powerful dreams a few times since my DMT experience. I always have something to think about in the morning and it fades away so quickly. Im thinking wherever the consciousness goes/does during sleep, whatever WE do, is somehow more recognizable since you 'went' there sober, with some ego intact. Its like your dreams haven't really changed but you....cant even think of the words! All i know is that life truly does hold some secrets from us, and we actually have the 'tools' to probe poke and experience some of them.