So, things in my little world are advancing swiftly and nicely. I've been reticent to report for many reasons, the least if which not being a fear of failure. Among the changes going on now are the fact that my homeless stint ( of four years) is over, and I've found an awesome situation that affords me the ability to chase some big dreams, and that I walked away from methadone, after nearly five years, three clinics, and two very short "survival/maintenance runs on heroin in between those clinics. ( which were long ago and which I was silent about at the time)
So, it's been a month since I last dosed and the post acute symptoms are bearable but FREAKING ANNOYING! Covered in sticky cold sweat, achy, RLS, fatigue. And a burning sensation that feels like a hole in my brain where the feel good used to be.
So, I'm trying kratom. Red bali strain. I just drank a heaping teaspoon in the juice of a whole grapefruit with a lump of raw sugar about an hour ago and... I'm not sure, but it may be working. I am clear enough to write this, and have an almost benzo like anxiolytic state going on, seems like if I move my head and body it initiates a wave of the sensation. Hmmm.
It'd be awesome if I could use this to work my way thru this stage, and not experience another special hell through it. Is this valid hack?
So, it's been a month since I last dosed and the post acute symptoms are bearable but FREAKING ANNOYING! Covered in sticky cold sweat, achy, RLS, fatigue. And a burning sensation that feels like a hole in my brain where the feel good used to be.
So, I'm trying kratom. Red bali strain. I just drank a heaping teaspoon in the juice of a whole grapefruit with a lump of raw sugar about an hour ago and... I'm not sure, but it may be working. I am clear enough to write this, and have an almost benzo like anxiolytic state going on, seems like if I move my head and body it initiates a wave of the sensation. Hmmm.
It'd be awesome if I could use this to work my way thru this stage, and not experience another special hell through it. Is this valid hack?