psychedeliConquistador
Rising Star
This past July fourth i had a hell of a night. i was going to a small party at my friend's house and i was really annoyed and stressed because i had wasted half the night picking my brother up from the airport. i'm pretty bad with directions and i had gotten lost on my way to pick him up (the fireworks were rather distracting). i eventually found out where i was and picked him up. on the way back home he told me to take some exit that would get us home quicker than the route i knew. i took his exit and we ended up getting lost in the city for several hours.
I showed up at the party fairly late and everyone had already gotten pretty deep into the booze. i didn't really feel like drinking that night so i decided that a quick journey to hyperspace would brighten my day. i was sort of trying to get back to this place i had made it to the first time i broke through. i had a little over a point and a half of spice in a capsule and i loaded about half of it into my pipe.
I hit the pipe until i had vaporized it all, i laid back and closed my eyes. everything seemed fairly straight forward and i felt like i was about to break through. i started feeling like i was coming back down and opened my eyes. i was still tripping and i thought that if i quickly did another dose i might be able to break through. bad idea. i dumped what i thought was a little bit of spice(ended up being the entire capsule) into my pipe and once more vaporized the bowl.
the room (which was lit by black lights) turned into a swirl of neon colors, and besides brilliant green patterns that's the last visual i can remember. i had a moment that seemed to last for ever in which i reached what i feel was nirvana. i could think of every person and event in my life. i recognized and accepted every flaw in my life and was at complete peace with the universe. i realized that every piece of reality was just another piece of myself. i recognized myself in every person and in every corner of relation. we were all pieces of the same god and by discovering this i had collapsed all of existence back into one singular being.
I felt so alone. every person i ever knew was just an extension of my own mind. i felt like this knowledge could not be unlearned. i could do whatever i wanted with reality and all i wanted was to go back to the way things were. i decided to try to put things back together and i recreated everything exactly as it had been.
around this time i was beginning to come back and i was having a lot of trouble convincing myself that this was not the world i had created. i discussed my trip with a close friend and repeatedly had to ask him if everything was still real. i felt off for several days after and still thought that life might just be a distraction i had created to keep myself company. i eventually got over the feeling and got on with my life but this event shook me up a bit to say the least.
I showed up at the party fairly late and everyone had already gotten pretty deep into the booze. i didn't really feel like drinking that night so i decided that a quick journey to hyperspace would brighten my day. i was sort of trying to get back to this place i had made it to the first time i broke through. i had a little over a point and a half of spice in a capsule and i loaded about half of it into my pipe.
I hit the pipe until i had vaporized it all, i laid back and closed my eyes. everything seemed fairly straight forward and i felt like i was about to break through. i started feeling like i was coming back down and opened my eyes. i was still tripping and i thought that if i quickly did another dose i might be able to break through. bad idea. i dumped what i thought was a little bit of spice(ended up being the entire capsule) into my pipe and once more vaporized the bowl.
the room (which was lit by black lights) turned into a swirl of neon colors, and besides brilliant green patterns that's the last visual i can remember. i had a moment that seemed to last for ever in which i reached what i feel was nirvana. i could think of every person and event in my life. i recognized and accepted every flaw in my life and was at complete peace with the universe. i realized that every piece of reality was just another piece of myself. i recognized myself in every person and in every corner of relation. we were all pieces of the same god and by discovering this i had collapsed all of existence back into one singular being.
I felt so alone. every person i ever knew was just an extension of my own mind. i felt like this knowledge could not be unlearned. i could do whatever i wanted with reality and all i wanted was to go back to the way things were. i decided to try to put things back together and i recreated everything exactly as it had been.
around this time i was beginning to come back and i was having a lot of trouble convincing myself that this was not the world i had created. i discussed my trip with a close friend and repeatedly had to ask him if everything was still real. i felt off for several days after and still thought that life might just be a distraction i had created to keep myself company. i eventually got over the feeling and got on with my life but this event shook me up a bit to say the least.
