Well, I can definitely relate to you on a lot of the things you talked about -- the drug history, dropping out, etc.

I would encourage you to work with N,N-DMT. I have no experience with 5-MeO, and I'm frankly not that interested, the N,N is incredible, visual, safe, and easy to recover from. Additionally, it is predominantly N,N-DMT that is an active constituent of Ayahuasca as well as its presence in our bodies, many plants, and other mammals as well. It has implications and relevance that I don't believe 5-MeO has at all. (Just my opinion)

If you have any further trouble with extraction tek, I'd personally be happy to share some of my experience with you. I use a very safe, very easy tek. (check out Q21Q21 Vinegar/Lime tek -- unbelievably easy)

-Chris