The space cracked open, I was emerging from a translucent chamber, a high technology coffin but the purpose was to sustain energy and the dream. I briefly looked down at what I knew to be my body as I floated backward and away. The intention was strong, I'm going out for a look around and I want their help. He is a bit startled. A Grey, much shorter than I moves backward guiding me quickly toward a door which has just opened. He didn't expect this but knows the protocol. He needs to hand me off. Somehow I feel in charge. Grateful to him for his work - but now I am getting up to see what is outside.
Two taller slender beings who are imaged as of best-friend sisters in my family receive me beyond the doors. Unlike the more sterile Grey they emit joy and love. They show me the spiral. They indicate this is what I awoke to see. It is a shaft of pure white light. I understand it is the conduit for all existence. Around the shaft of light a spiral which is to be traveled not unlike a road to a mountain top by spirits on a journey.
Now I am being filled. I am unsure of this, I was enjoying my emptiness - I wonder what is this I'm being filled with. A face is shown with a finger over the lips as if to say 'shhh'. As I try to analyze the fluid filling my being the entire experience flip-flops between love and horror several times. It is pure loving light - now it is nuclear waste from an invading alien race. Then it is clear. This is the doubt of a logical mind which so wants to understand but is born of and can only be a servant to the light. This mind must surrender. "See I am full of light", it is love, it has always been this way. Now it is clear. This is duality manifesting. Conceptualize, make dual, identify, project fear. I smile, it's so simple. This is knowing is Peace.
My attention draws back to the spire, my filling rises my perspective up the winding road. My awe is getting to out of control. I am shown a sitting Buddha and understand to hold my balance. I must not get lost in the awe - I would surely spiral out of control. With focused attention the space widens and the vibration stabilizes. I take an off ramp, and for the first time, it is clear I am revisiting a past life. I am being carried - sitting up or perhaps in a wheelchair. I am old but content. This is a party which could be in my honor. But it is I who am so grateful. The space is strong with Buddhist themes and colors. This is my family. I stop moving and am seated in a prepared place. Small chairs are brought and circled around me. My love goes out as the children circle around. They are so full of life movement and joy. I understand they are grand children or great grandchildren. This is indeed a blessing. Somehow I think, "this is me also". But then "also to whom", "who said that".
My earth eyes open. I resist the urge to focus them. It is clear ... again ... this is a dream. I am shown supporting hands in the clouds. This world is to learn. To see the nature of desire, fear, the false self and source of my own suffering. What a gift.
