plaguewolf
Rising Star
Its been weeks since my first and only journey into hyperspace, and i was so profoundly terrified that i have yet to do so again.
but regardless of how that sounds it was not a bad thing, rather the experience itself was world shattering and unexplainable.
Firstly many of the things i experience i could not immediately remember upon 'return', and secondly the trip was broken into many different experiences that perceptibly were happening at the same time.
I still don't remember 'hyperspace, although i'm certain at some point i broke through, judging not from any particular memory but rather from the content of what i have recalled since then.
I guess it would be simplest and easiest to start with the section i remember vividly, but to do that i need to stress the likelihood of my mental instability.(potentially schizo here...).
The first real memory of the experience that comes to mind is what i suspect to be a misinterpretation due to a paranoia psychosis. I vividly remember a parasitic being that spread through word and thought form and fed upon negative emotion in our minds. I vividly remember upon coming out of hyperspace that there were still visuals, one of which was this ethereal tendril coming out of me and my friends heads, but coming 'out isn't the word for it since i'm certain that all things are inward in orientation. I never looked into it but it was vivid and i had this overwhelming sense that i had to tell somebody or write it down.
Other than that i have been able to recall small fragments of the actual journey, but most of it was simply a trip loop. i had this sensational understanding that i had done this before, and was currently doing it again, and that i had realized it before just as now. and i struggled hard to not let go of that realization. it was as if for a moment i woke from a epileptic dream and did not want to go back into the world of brief stuttering reality. I seem to remember talking with the other inhabitants of the room, (a fellow traveler, as well as somebody who should not have been there, but the things they were saying made me realize it wasn't my friends, it was another version of them, entirely different from the people i knew. (or maybe thats ego separation talking???) I do however remember that some things that were said as i was coming down, not the words themselves but the contents of the words and their meaning was painting a mosaic around my room.
all in all i'm thoroughly confused, and still haven't processed it all. but i feel closer to my unified theory of everything now than i ever was before.
(riding the aftershock of the big bang?)
anyway, thought i'd post here, as i'd been lurking a while now.
edit: hind note,we're the virus, and psychedelics are the vaccines
but regardless of how that sounds it was not a bad thing, rather the experience itself was world shattering and unexplainable.
Firstly many of the things i experience i could not immediately remember upon 'return', and secondly the trip was broken into many different experiences that perceptibly were happening at the same time.
I still don't remember 'hyperspace, although i'm certain at some point i broke through, judging not from any particular memory but rather from the content of what i have recalled since then.
I guess it would be simplest and easiest to start with the section i remember vividly, but to do that i need to stress the likelihood of my mental instability.(potentially schizo here...).
The first real memory of the experience that comes to mind is what i suspect to be a misinterpretation due to a paranoia psychosis. I vividly remember a parasitic being that spread through word and thought form and fed upon negative emotion in our minds. I vividly remember upon coming out of hyperspace that there were still visuals, one of which was this ethereal tendril coming out of me and my friends heads, but coming 'out isn't the word for it since i'm certain that all things are inward in orientation. I never looked into it but it was vivid and i had this overwhelming sense that i had to tell somebody or write it down.
Other than that i have been able to recall small fragments of the actual journey, but most of it was simply a trip loop. i had this sensational understanding that i had done this before, and was currently doing it again, and that i had realized it before just as now. and i struggled hard to not let go of that realization. it was as if for a moment i woke from a epileptic dream and did not want to go back into the world of brief stuttering reality. I seem to remember talking with the other inhabitants of the room, (a fellow traveler, as well as somebody who should not have been there, but the things they were saying made me realize it wasn't my friends, it was another version of them, entirely different from the people i knew. (or maybe thats ego separation talking???) I do however remember that some things that were said as i was coming down, not the words themselves but the contents of the words and their meaning was painting a mosaic around my room.
all in all i'm thoroughly confused, and still haven't processed it all. but i feel closer to my unified theory of everything now than i ever was before.
(riding the aftershock of the big bang?)
anyway, thought i'd post here, as i'd been lurking a while now.
edit: hind note,we're the virus, and psychedelics are the vaccines
