FallingAwake
Rising Star
Hi Nexus!
Phew.. I'm kind of nervous.. but here goes:
I'm in my mid twenties and had up until about exactly a year ago been on the "traditional American dream" track of what makes for a hypnotic and material-laden existence. I studied Psychology in college, went on to get a Masters, and shortly thereafter found myself in a cubicle, metaphysically and metaphorically banging my head against the wall.
Last year I attended an extremely beautiful and moving festival where I had my first breakthrough experience, not with DMT, but which took me deep into my inner space where I found myself engulfed in a landscape of infinite colors, planes, and directions of light- all leading to a pulsating geometric shape that as I concentrated on it, collapsed within itself to reveal the same landscape again, and again. Waves of love hit me like crashing surf, and I felt negativity being peeled off of me like old wallpaper from a wall. I didn't know who I was, when I was born, or the lot of it. In fact I asked a friend, "did I die??" and he responded with a huge smile on his face, "YOU WERE NEVER ALIVE!"
This began a year of intense reading and studying on all the old greats from Ram Dass, Herman Hesse, Castenada, Paulo Coelho, Vivekandna, Robert Anton Wilson, Alex Grey, Yogananda, the Gita, you name it pretty much. Last I counted I've read around 45 or so books on this life-changing experience since last September in an attempt to really get a grasp on what is going on with my life, where it is headed, and what it is I'm supposed to "do"... or how to approach this precious gift.
So now after some home experiments with consciousness expansion from physical means like yoga and beyond, I'm hoping to gain more insight and knowledge from joining this board, and from the great minds who congregate here.
I really love the attitude of humbleness and caring that I've seen from browsing the board the past day or two, and look forward to someday making some meaningful contributions to the extensive library you all have created.
Thank you!
EDIT:
Current Psyhs I am experienced with are:
Cannabis
LSD (5 times or so, two blotters highest dose) *by far my most consistent positive and meaningful substance*
2-CE (twice, 15mg doses)
Psilocybin (6 times or so, 4.0g being the highest dose)
MDMA (almost positively impure, but ~ 3 times)
Things I'd like to learn more about include:
DMT, acacia/mhrb extraction
Mescalito
Harmine/Harmaline (I've heard McKenna talk a lot about these two I think)
I deeply rever these substances and experiences, and look forward to where they can take me in terms of spirituality and self-knowledge, along with the research, respect, and reflection I feel they are most deserving of.
Phew.. I'm kind of nervous.. but here goes:
I'm in my mid twenties and had up until about exactly a year ago been on the "traditional American dream" track of what makes for a hypnotic and material-laden existence. I studied Psychology in college, went on to get a Masters, and shortly thereafter found myself in a cubicle, metaphysically and metaphorically banging my head against the wall.
Last year I attended an extremely beautiful and moving festival where I had my first breakthrough experience, not with DMT, but which took me deep into my inner space where I found myself engulfed in a landscape of infinite colors, planes, and directions of light- all leading to a pulsating geometric shape that as I concentrated on it, collapsed within itself to reveal the same landscape again, and again. Waves of love hit me like crashing surf, and I felt negativity being peeled off of me like old wallpaper from a wall. I didn't know who I was, when I was born, or the lot of it. In fact I asked a friend, "did I die??" and he responded with a huge smile on his face, "YOU WERE NEVER ALIVE!"
This began a year of intense reading and studying on all the old greats from Ram Dass, Herman Hesse, Castenada, Paulo Coelho, Vivekandna, Robert Anton Wilson, Alex Grey, Yogananda, the Gita, you name it pretty much. Last I counted I've read around 45 or so books on this life-changing experience since last September in an attempt to really get a grasp on what is going on with my life, where it is headed, and what it is I'm supposed to "do"... or how to approach this precious gift.
So now after some home experiments with consciousness expansion from physical means like yoga and beyond, I'm hoping to gain more insight and knowledge from joining this board, and from the great minds who congregate here.
I really love the attitude of humbleness and caring that I've seen from browsing the board the past day or two, and look forward to someday making some meaningful contributions to the extensive library you all have created.
Thank you!
EDIT:
Current Psyhs I am experienced with are:
Cannabis
LSD (5 times or so, two blotters highest dose) *by far my most consistent positive and meaningful substance*
2-CE (twice, 15mg doses)
Psilocybin (6 times or so, 4.0g being the highest dose)
MDMA (almost positively impure, but ~ 3 times)
Things I'd like to learn more about include:
DMT, acacia/mhrb extraction
Mescalito
Harmine/Harmaline (I've heard McKenna talk a lot about these two I think)
I deeply rever these substances and experiences, and look forward to where they can take me in terms of spirituality and self-knowledge, along with the research, respect, and reflection I feel they are most deserving of.
