zubidlo
Rising Star
Hi explorers,
First I want to say how thankful I am, that this forum exist. It means much to me to able to know that I'm not alone, helps me to collect courage needed for further exploration into sacred plants realm. You see, there is nobody I could share this path with, all my friend are scared shitless when they hear 'psychedelics' or 'shamanic'.
I'm new into spice realm, I been through a few attempts into jurema realm, but I need to say, it is quite different from what I was expected. I mean, I've read many reports, but only very few could be compared to my experience in retrospect. My spice doesn't take me to any role-coaster hyperspace of tunnels, doesn't show me any entities etc. and it's not different every time. My jurema 'surgically' removes my consciousness from the body and turns it into kind of ego-less witness and places it into a realm of ancient totem-god. It is overwhelmingly beautiful dimension of fractal-spectrum-light, timeless, move-less, thought-less.I always fight against that 'neural surgery', but than I just let go. Few hours after the attempt I always forget that realm, but when I'm back there next time I know it's the same realm again. I don't want to start to write about experience itself, but about something else.
What I learned so far is this:
1.After each attempt I'm left with feeling of respect for spice and takes me about a week to bother this 'plant ancient god' again. And it's good relationship I guess. I'm not looking for just 'a drug'. This game is played in spice terms, not mine.
2.There need to be made a preparation - set up. I totally agree with these guys here : DMT - Erowid Exp - 'DMT 423'
Only thing I want to add is that my dmt music is 'Distant System - Spiral Empire', it is alive language in the realm and always helps me to let go to melt into ego-less witness by shifting my attention to it, when 'the fear' is arising. Recommended!
3.The day after every attempt I'm given 'a lucid-dreaming' ability. All I need to do is to take a nap afternoon when is still daylight. There is always a dream, and I'm aware that I'm sleeping!?!:roll: I can see part of my sleeping body (depends on position) in daylight and I'm dreaming at the same time. It's like watching TV and seeing your reflection on the screen under right angle and light.I control myself in dream story really well. I'm not a 'victim/powerless' like in normal dreaming state, but I'm much more under control. I noticed that dreams are carrying 'a message' for first time in my life. It's amazing experience every time. I remember these dreams for days. The other day I would swear I that characters in my dream noticed that I'm awake dreamer and playing with them!:d First time this ability manifested, I couldn't believe it, but than I searched on net if that is possible and it is. Even on this forum I found a similar reports.
4.Jurema is changing me. I'm living my life like before, but something is changed. It's hard to gasp for now, but it seems that I becoming quieter and I pay definitely less attention to reality around me. It's like echo of that quiet half an hour after you come back from spice realm and you still bit high, but very quiet, without many thoughts. Sometimes I feel strange sadness in that state, but it is gone next days.
Alright, enough for now...
I wish everyone good luck and thanks for your opinions and experiences. It's been great help.
First I want to say how thankful I am, that this forum exist. It means much to me to able to know that I'm not alone, helps me to collect courage needed for further exploration into sacred plants realm. You see, there is nobody I could share this path with, all my friend are scared shitless when they hear 'psychedelics' or 'shamanic'.
I'm new into spice realm, I been through a few attempts into jurema realm, but I need to say, it is quite different from what I was expected. I mean, I've read many reports, but only very few could be compared to my experience in retrospect. My spice doesn't take me to any role-coaster hyperspace of tunnels, doesn't show me any entities etc. and it's not different every time. My jurema 'surgically' removes my consciousness from the body and turns it into kind of ego-less witness and places it into a realm of ancient totem-god. It is overwhelmingly beautiful dimension of fractal-spectrum-light, timeless, move-less, thought-less.I always fight against that 'neural surgery', but than I just let go. Few hours after the attempt I always forget that realm, but when I'm back there next time I know it's the same realm again. I don't want to start to write about experience itself, but about something else.
What I learned so far is this:
1.After each attempt I'm left with feeling of respect for spice and takes me about a week to bother this 'plant ancient god' again. And it's good relationship I guess. I'm not looking for just 'a drug'. This game is played in spice terms, not mine.
2.There need to be made a preparation - set up. I totally agree with these guys here : DMT - Erowid Exp - 'DMT 423'
Only thing I want to add is that my dmt music is 'Distant System - Spiral Empire', it is alive language in the realm and always helps me to let go to melt into ego-less witness by shifting my attention to it, when 'the fear' is arising. Recommended!
3.The day after every attempt I'm given 'a lucid-dreaming' ability. All I need to do is to take a nap afternoon when is still daylight. There is always a dream, and I'm aware that I'm sleeping!?!:roll: I can see part of my sleeping body (depends on position) in daylight and I'm dreaming at the same time. It's like watching TV and seeing your reflection on the screen under right angle and light.I control myself in dream story really well. I'm not a 'victim/powerless' like in normal dreaming state, but I'm much more under control. I noticed that dreams are carrying 'a message' for first time in my life. It's amazing experience every time. I remember these dreams for days. The other day I would swear I that characters in my dream noticed that I'm awake dreamer and playing with them!:d First time this ability manifested, I couldn't believe it, but than I searched on net if that is possible and it is. Even on this forum I found a similar reports.
4.Jurema is changing me. I'm living my life like before, but something is changed. It's hard to gasp for now, but it seems that I becoming quieter and I pay definitely less attention to reality around me. It's like echo of that quiet half an hour after you come back from spice realm and you still bit high, but very quiet, without many thoughts. Sometimes I feel strange sadness in that state, but it is gone next days.
Alright, enough for now...
I wish everyone good luck and thanks for your opinions and experiences. It's been great help.
