I'm still somewhat foggy, from what was my most intense experience with mescaline so far.
Last night, at 23.00, i took 225 micrograms of 1P-LSD. I waited for little over an hour and then i drank the peyote-tea that i had made before. It was a peyote, a little smaller than a tennisball in a cluster with two thumb size ones, and a couple of smaller ones as well.
I've had experiences with peyote before, but i don't realy know what made me underestimate this cactus.
Innitially i was a little dissapointed. "is this all?, i'd expected a little more of this combo".
That was 01.30.
But the stuff kept building and building. and it didn't take long before i realised that i had underestimated this little fellow, peyote.
At 02.30, i started panicking a little. I started to completely disapear, to vaporise, to dissolve into the vibration of light that began to completely encompass me. OMG, i'm losing my mind. If it get's any worse, i'm gonna go crazy". The time is now 02.52. I'm looking at my Phone to see what time it is. "if this is gonna get worse, i'm gonna have to call 911" i'm thinking. I decide to do a little test:I'm gonna lay on my back and relax for a little while, watch the universe evolve right in front of me and dissolve some more into the light. If, after i've seen the universe evolve in front of my very eyes, it's less than 5 minutes later, i decide...then i'm definately losing my mind, and i should call 911.
I lay back, relax a little, watch the universe evolve, and dissolve into the light some more. When the universe is finished i decide to look at my Phone again.
Thank god...it's 03.04. In the last twelve minutes it seemed my situation was stabalising a little bit. It seems i'm not gonna loose my mind after all. It starts to become increasingly groovier.
I'm lying on the floor. Though i'm vaporising, vanishin, dissolving in this intricate vibrating web of light that's all around me, inside and outside me, i no longer fear. I'm spinning with this maze of light, this game of gravity, infinity and time. Each breath a lifetime, each breath a universe from it's birth to it's gaping end. each breath, a new infinity.
After a while, i decide to go outside. I leave my house. This is crazy...i'm vaporising, but i'm going outside nevertheless. But i'm not afraid. I know what i'm doing, i know where i'm going. I'm going to the forrest.
Entering the forrest. I can smell the earth, the trees, and i can sense the animals around me. It's like a jungle. Amazing.
Then, a deer starts barking at me. I can't see it, but i can hear it's close. I can hear it's footsteps and it's barking. It's affraid of me, and that's why it barks agrressively. I take a step back. I take a non confronting pose, staring at the ground. Breathing slowly.
"it's alright" i'm saying, mentally, "it's alright". After a while i can sense the dear relaxing. I hear it quitly walking away from me.
I continue to walk until i get at a bench. All of a sudden i decide to take all my clothes of, and to wander further, naked, deeper into the forrest.
This is crazy..I'm still vaporising, still dissolving into the light, still vanishing into eternity... completely naked, in the middle of the forrest.
But while i'm standing there, i can feel it, very deep within me. To the very core of me, to the bones realy...A voice. "welcome to earth", it's saying. "welcome to earth".
Yes, mushrooms, LSD, ayahuasca...they all have something extra-terrestial. Something cosmic. But this thing. The mescaline. It's the most earthly substance there is. It's so very terrestial. No spaceships, no aliens...it feels like earth, like clay, like sand, like rich fragrant mud. But heavenly like nothing else.
Anyway, i managed to get back home, fully dressed an all. And while i'm typing, i'm still vibrating somewhat, and buzzing with warmth. And while i'm sitting here, typing, i'm having a nice cup of tea.
Last night, at 23.00, i took 225 micrograms of 1P-LSD. I waited for little over an hour and then i drank the peyote-tea that i had made before. It was a peyote, a little smaller than a tennisball in a cluster with two thumb size ones, and a couple of smaller ones as well.
I've had experiences with peyote before, but i don't realy know what made me underestimate this cactus.
Innitially i was a little dissapointed. "is this all?, i'd expected a little more of this combo".
That was 01.30.
But the stuff kept building and building. and it didn't take long before i realised that i had underestimated this little fellow, peyote.
At 02.30, i started panicking a little. I started to completely disapear, to vaporise, to dissolve into the vibration of light that began to completely encompass me. OMG, i'm losing my mind. If it get's any worse, i'm gonna go crazy". The time is now 02.52. I'm looking at my Phone to see what time it is. "if this is gonna get worse, i'm gonna have to call 911" i'm thinking. I decide to do a little test:I'm gonna lay on my back and relax for a little while, watch the universe evolve right in front of me and dissolve some more into the light. If, after i've seen the universe evolve in front of my very eyes, it's less than 5 minutes later, i decide...then i'm definately losing my mind, and i should call 911.
I lay back, relax a little, watch the universe evolve, and dissolve into the light some more. When the universe is finished i decide to look at my Phone again.
Thank god...it's 03.04. In the last twelve minutes it seemed my situation was stabalising a little bit. It seems i'm not gonna loose my mind after all. It starts to become increasingly groovier.
I'm lying on the floor. Though i'm vaporising, vanishin, dissolving in this intricate vibrating web of light that's all around me, inside and outside me, i no longer fear. I'm spinning with this maze of light, this game of gravity, infinity and time. Each breath a lifetime, each breath a universe from it's birth to it's gaping end. each breath, a new infinity.
After a while, i decide to go outside. I leave my house. This is crazy...i'm vaporising, but i'm going outside nevertheless. But i'm not afraid. I know what i'm doing, i know where i'm going. I'm going to the forrest.
Entering the forrest. I can smell the earth, the trees, and i can sense the animals around me. It's like a jungle. Amazing.
Then, a deer starts barking at me. I can't see it, but i can hear it's close. I can hear it's footsteps and it's barking. It's affraid of me, and that's why it barks agrressively. I take a step back. I take a non confronting pose, staring at the ground. Breathing slowly.
"it's alright" i'm saying, mentally, "it's alright". After a while i can sense the dear relaxing. I hear it quitly walking away from me.
I continue to walk until i get at a bench. All of a sudden i decide to take all my clothes of, and to wander further, naked, deeper into the forrest.
This is crazy..I'm still vaporising, still dissolving into the light, still vanishing into eternity... completely naked, in the middle of the forrest.
But while i'm standing there, i can feel it, very deep within me. To the very core of me, to the bones realy...A voice. "welcome to earth", it's saying. "welcome to earth".
Yes, mushrooms, LSD, ayahuasca...they all have something extra-terrestial. Something cosmic. But this thing. The mescaline. It's the most earthly substance there is. It's so very terrestial. No spaceships, no aliens...it feels like earth, like clay, like sand, like rich fragrant mud. But heavenly like nothing else.
Anyway, i managed to get back home, fully dressed an all. And while i'm typing, i'm still vibrating somewhat, and buzzing with warmth. And while i'm sitting here, typing, i'm having a nice cup of tea.