kyrolima
Rising Star
SWIM wrote me a letter again from his recent experience:
"I tripped yesterday the second time with oral DMT.
15 o'clock me and my 2 cronies took each 150 mg of Syrian Rue extract.
1 hour and a few balloons filled with THC later we all took our dosages of DMT.
For me 130 mg, for my friend 120 mg and the guy new to the substance started out with 80 mg.
We walked to our favourite tripping place which me and my friend discovered on our last journey!
As we walked to the place i just could not recognize any change as last time.
1 hour later: We all just lay on the ground waiting for the effects to emerge.
Nothing happend...
My friend (he didn't eat a thing that day) started to talk about visuals and mindgames where he could walk trough doors and decide which way he choose. But it was ridiculous to me because i couldn't feel ANYTHING. Last time i did Pharma after an hour i couln't even stand up!
So I waited and waited :lol:
2 hours after we took the DMT i decided to head home and think over what i did wrong! Maybe i made a mistake while extracting the syrian rue..
Few minuites before i reached my home I recognized first effects. My friends did leave then. They wanted to smoke some weed but i wanted to be alone from now on.
WISE DECISION!!!
The effects were going to get stronger and stronger.
Soon i layed down on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Slightly visuals of moving dots vibrating and forming patterns.
Very interesting and fun to watch.
But not as interesting as the following.
I crumbled myself under my bedspread and closed my eyes.
I thought "Look it's him!" and it seemed as if someone was there who did not want to be seen by me!
WHO WAS THAT?
It was like i was in a room! No walls, just an oval room of brown colour and very few patterns.
I experienced this as an healing room. But i didn't saw anything else in this room. Just relaxation, being somewhere else and vibrating healing energy!
A lot of stuff came up. I retought some behavior, some of my judgements about other people, what i want to do, what i don't want etc etc.
As i had released most of my bad toughts and pain i got up.
I headed to the small bathroom where i watched myself in the dark mirror! My face disappeared, my face did form other faces (huge eyes, or faces of mightyness! Some kind of a mighty person's face! I think i really need to know who I am in order to gain such a face as normal status!
I felt the urge to move. So i slammed my back against the wall! Left back, Right back, Left back .... Fast and hard. But not hurting myself.
That movement i felt was necessary to come back alive! To feel myself again!
Accidently i slammed a part of my spinal column against the wall. It hurted a bit but something was made straight again (at least i hope that) But no worries. No hurting today, I'm perfectly healthy right now. Except a little bit of tiredness.
Ok. Now as my session with myself has ended I decided to eat something.
I head to the kitchen, make something to eat and think about a lot of things. Myself, my life and my purpose in it!
I got no job at the moment. I don't think that this is a great issue, but I just can't decide what I really want to do.
And i think a lot about slavery and such things in correlation with work.
I think about what I am slave to. (Slave to money, slave to someone else, slave to ego blabla)
I came to the conclusion that if you do what you really want, you can't be a slave to nothing and nobody!
I ended my trip in a good mood and hoped i could translate my experience to my actual life.
But today i have to recognize that i didn't change that much!
I feel good, i am friendly. I am compassionate. I met my friend (see above) today. But a real impulse to know what i really want in life i did not get!
That's a little bit of a problem for me. But I think that's my issue to deal with. Not anybody else's!
Soooo,
i learned alot again.
I am happy about my dosage and i will do x1.5 next time - see my next report. It probably will be on the next monday! I'll introduce another friend to DMT.
What i regard as a strange fact is, that the other guy who (tried to) trip with us, had nearly no effects at all. And we're not speaking of a low dosage (80 mg)
He's a strange person anyway and i feel that he's kind of disrespecting DMT.
Do you think that the spirits actually deny him the experience?
That would be VERY interesting!
I also think that this person will never do it again. Because he had no effects.."
"I tripped yesterday the second time with oral DMT.
15 o'clock me and my 2 cronies took each 150 mg of Syrian Rue extract.
1 hour and a few balloons filled with THC later we all took our dosages of DMT.
For me 130 mg, for my friend 120 mg and the guy new to the substance started out with 80 mg.
We walked to our favourite tripping place which me and my friend discovered on our last journey!
As we walked to the place i just could not recognize any change as last time.
1 hour later: We all just lay on the ground waiting for the effects to emerge.
Nothing happend...
My friend (he didn't eat a thing that day) started to talk about visuals and mindgames where he could walk trough doors and decide which way he choose. But it was ridiculous to me because i couldn't feel ANYTHING. Last time i did Pharma after an hour i couln't even stand up!
So I waited and waited :lol:
2 hours after we took the DMT i decided to head home and think over what i did wrong! Maybe i made a mistake while extracting the syrian rue..
Few minuites before i reached my home I recognized first effects. My friends did leave then. They wanted to smoke some weed but i wanted to be alone from now on.
WISE DECISION!!!
The effects were going to get stronger and stronger.
Soon i layed down on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Slightly visuals of moving dots vibrating and forming patterns.
Very interesting and fun to watch.
But not as interesting as the following.
I crumbled myself under my bedspread and closed my eyes.
I thought "Look it's him!" and it seemed as if someone was there who did not want to be seen by me!
WHO WAS THAT?
It was like i was in a room! No walls, just an oval room of brown colour and very few patterns.
I experienced this as an healing room. But i didn't saw anything else in this room. Just relaxation, being somewhere else and vibrating healing energy!
A lot of stuff came up. I retought some behavior, some of my judgements about other people, what i want to do, what i don't want etc etc.
As i had released most of my bad toughts and pain i got up.
I headed to the small bathroom where i watched myself in the dark mirror! My face disappeared, my face did form other faces (huge eyes, or faces of mightyness! Some kind of a mighty person's face! I think i really need to know who I am in order to gain such a face as normal status!
I felt the urge to move. So i slammed my back against the wall! Left back, Right back, Left back .... Fast and hard. But not hurting myself.
That movement i felt was necessary to come back alive! To feel myself again!
Accidently i slammed a part of my spinal column against the wall. It hurted a bit but something was made straight again (at least i hope that
) But no worries. No hurting today, I'm perfectly healthy right now. Except a little bit of tiredness.Ok. Now as my session with myself has ended I decided to eat something.
I head to the kitchen, make something to eat and think about a lot of things. Myself, my life and my purpose in it!
I got no job at the moment. I don't think that this is a great issue, but I just can't decide what I really want to do.
And i think a lot about slavery and such things in correlation with work.
I think about what I am slave to. (Slave to money, slave to someone else, slave to ego blabla)
I came to the conclusion that if you do what you really want, you can't be a slave to nothing and nobody!
I ended my trip in a good mood and hoped i could translate my experience to my actual life.
But today i have to recognize that i didn't change that much!
I feel good, i am friendly. I am compassionate. I met my friend (see above) today. But a real impulse to know what i really want in life i did not get!
That's a little bit of a problem for me. But I think that's my issue to deal with. Not anybody else's!
Soooo,
i learned alot again.
I am happy about my dosage and i will do x1.5 next time - see my next report. It probably will be on the next monday! I'll introduce another friend to DMT.
What i regard as a strange fact is, that the other guy who (tried to) trip with us, had nearly no effects at all. And we're not speaking of a low dosage (80 mg)
He's a strange person anyway and i feel that he's kind of disrespecting DMT.
Do you think that the spirits actually deny him the experience?
That would be VERY interesting!
I also think that this person will never do it again. Because he had no effects.."
