kungpow
Brandon
Well last night was rather peculiar for me. I had an unknown quantity of DMT that had been sitting in my freezer for the past year. My guess was that it was anywhere between 300-450mg of pure white DMT crystals. I have been saving the crystals for the right time. I've been waiting for another pharmahuasca journey since my last one almost a year ago. My first dose was with 200mg and 3.5 grams of syrian rue. It was pretty intense, but I believed that I could handle more. Another reason I made my dose so high is because the dmt was over a year old, and I believe that it wouldn't have been as active after such a long period of time. I have not tripped for about 6 months and after the beautiful weather yesterday I decided that it would be a good night to trip.
I have had the DMT packed in a 00 capsule for a couple of weeks waiting for the right time. I also had 7 00 capsules with ground up syrian rue in them. I have tried syrian rue tea before with dmt and mushrooms and I cannot take the taste anymore. I have heard of just capping the ground up seeds, so I tried that. It seemed to work perfectly.
So it was around 11 o'clock and I decided to take my syrian rue. We were all outside sitting next to a fire smoking hookah. Soon after it got a little chili and the wind picked up so we decided to head inside. Return of the Jedi was on tv so I thought I would watch the rest of that. About 11:50 I took the DMT capsule.
I was just sitting there watching Return of the Jedi. I wasn't expecting a very powerful trip and was just sitting back relaxing. About 12:20 I start getting this strange feeling and notice that it was kicking in. I got to where I didn't really like Star Wars very much, because I was tripping too hard. I thought some tunes would be nice so I go back to the family room and turn on some tunes. My brothers thought it would be a good idea to smoke a J, but I told them that I am tripping to hard. They weren't tripping so they went and smoked the J.
While I was sitting in the room listening to Ott I was getting the most intense OEVs. With my eyes closed it seems as if I was transported to another place that seemed very familiar. It seem as if there was something living there, but all I could see are the silhouettes of what looked like people. Soon I decide the music was too much for me to handle and I go in the living room.
I turned on the TV and The Matrix was on. I watched this for about 15 minutes and things started to go very wrong. I ended up turning it off and laying in the dark in complete fear for the next 3 hours. It is hard for me to remember what happened during this time, but it was the most fearful experience in my life. It seemed as if I was dying right there on my floor. I tried not to panic and tell myself I was on a drug, but the feeling was overwhelming. I also had moments where seems as if I had done something very bad such as murdering someone and not remembering it. I thought that the cops were coming to get.
My auditory hallucinations were too much. Everything was too much. I needed it to stop and I couldn't get it. I knew that I needed to just let go and ride the wave, but my ego was holding on tight.
This terror experience last for for what seemed like lifetimes. I thought I was stuck in some kind of time loop. I experienced age regression very intensely , and looked at memories from when I was a child. Things that I had totally forgotten about, and they showed me who I have been. It was as if my life was flashing before my eyes.
I finally felt myself coming down and could finally remember what day it was around 4 am. By 5 am I was in my bed with my sleeping fiance asleep.
This was the single most difficult experience I have ever had. I have had bad trips before, but this was something more. Most of what happened I cannot even attempt to explain in words. It was very amazing yet terrifying at the same time to know the power of this drug.
I would like to know if there are tips on how to let go once I get to this point. How do I go with the flow and relax. I believe that if I could have just let go my experience would have been the exact opposite.
I do believe that the experience was very informative. I learned a lot about myself and that there are some major changes that I need to make in my life. I always to try to take as much good from my experiences as I can. But I just could not believe what happened to me last night. The only thing that I could think about today was what happened during my trip.
I was very thankful that I was a live when I came down. Hopefully as time passes I can try to work out what really happened last night. Thanks for listening I know it was long.
~Peace Out
I have had the DMT packed in a 00 capsule for a couple of weeks waiting for the right time. I also had 7 00 capsules with ground up syrian rue in them. I have tried syrian rue tea before with dmt and mushrooms and I cannot take the taste anymore. I have heard of just capping the ground up seeds, so I tried that. It seemed to work perfectly.
So it was around 11 o'clock and I decided to take my syrian rue. We were all outside sitting next to a fire smoking hookah. Soon after it got a little chili and the wind picked up so we decided to head inside. Return of the Jedi was on tv so I thought I would watch the rest of that. About 11:50 I took the DMT capsule.
I was just sitting there watching Return of the Jedi. I wasn't expecting a very powerful trip and was just sitting back relaxing. About 12:20 I start getting this strange feeling and notice that it was kicking in. I got to where I didn't really like Star Wars very much, because I was tripping too hard. I thought some tunes would be nice so I go back to the family room and turn on some tunes. My brothers thought it would be a good idea to smoke a J, but I told them that I am tripping to hard. They weren't tripping so they went and smoked the J.
While I was sitting in the room listening to Ott I was getting the most intense OEVs. With my eyes closed it seems as if I was transported to another place that seemed very familiar. It seem as if there was something living there, but all I could see are the silhouettes of what looked like people. Soon I decide the music was too much for me to handle and I go in the living room.
I turned on the TV and The Matrix was on. I watched this for about 15 minutes and things started to go very wrong. I ended up turning it off and laying in the dark in complete fear for the next 3 hours. It is hard for me to remember what happened during this time, but it was the most fearful experience in my life. It seemed as if I was dying right there on my floor. I tried not to panic and tell myself I was on a drug, but the feeling was overwhelming. I also had moments where seems as if I had done something very bad such as murdering someone and not remembering it. I thought that the cops were coming to get.
My auditory hallucinations were too much. Everything was too much. I needed it to stop and I couldn't get it. I knew that I needed to just let go and ride the wave, but my ego was holding on tight.
This terror experience last for for what seemed like lifetimes. I thought I was stuck in some kind of time loop. I experienced age regression very intensely , and looked at memories from when I was a child. Things that I had totally forgotten about, and they showed me who I have been. It was as if my life was flashing before my eyes.
I finally felt myself coming down and could finally remember what day it was around 4 am. By 5 am I was in my bed with my sleeping fiance asleep.
This was the single most difficult experience I have ever had. I have had bad trips before, but this was something more. Most of what happened I cannot even attempt to explain in words. It was very amazing yet terrifying at the same time to know the power of this drug.
I would like to know if there are tips on how to let go once I get to this point. How do I go with the flow and relax. I believe that if I could have just let go my experience would have been the exact opposite.
I do believe that the experience was very informative. I learned a lot about myself and that there are some major changes that I need to make in my life. I always to try to take as much good from my experiences as I can. But I just could not believe what happened to me last night. The only thing that I could think about today was what happened during my trip.
I was very thankful that I was a live when I came down. Hopefully as time passes I can try to work out what really happened last night. Thanks for listening I know it was long.
~Peace Out
