alien king
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Just writing this to clear some space for myself and share what I learned.
I took 100mg DMT and 90mg Harmine/Harmaline Hydrochloride. I first took the Harmalas, waited an hour, then drank some water with the DMT. I took out the contents of other pills so I would have the capsules and put them in those.
The experience was not that wild, but definitely I learned a lot from it and can say that going forward I am looking to work more with the plant but am ready to see some real stuff. This experience was really just about me and my shit, learning and growing from old habits and ways of relating with myself. I've never been this deep with it and my only prior experience has been in smaller doses--though I've learned a lot from my times smoking DMT and whatnot, this is definitely the next caliber or the next horizon for me.
I basically had a beginners run of experiencing aya/pharma. I was promptly transferred into the spirit realm and everything was so hectic. At first it was just absolute chaos. Everywhere I looked had something going on both good and bad. Everywhere I could possibly look was just so dense with consciousness and things happening. It was honestly quite annoying how busy everything could possibly be. Just imagine one-thousand-million different conversations going on in a thousand different ways..except its real situations..real scenarios going on in the spiritual world that is a backdrop to what we normally experience sober.
Basically through the trip my entire will to live was thrown in front of me, all of my intentionality and ability to think and create and navigate through thought was just there and shown to me. It was really too much for me at the time but it showed me a lot about things I think about and how I need to do better and be a better person in several categories.
I was directly working with spirits that were kind of guiding the experience and I really just wasn't feeling the experience. I just wanted to sit there and lay down but the sickness and processing of old ways just kept building up as I got deeper in the experience and I was made to puke. It was horrible. Shit was coming out of my mouth before I could even get to the toilet. Horrible to say the least. I got most of it out, I'd conservatively say 80% but there's still more from where it came from, but definitely not as much as before. Only way I can describe puking is that my soul was coming out of my chest. In those moment I felt so full of power or invigorated. So much shit was coming out and it took all of me. My puking sounds were so loud so determined. Like it was just all of me at maximum power getting that shit out of me. I then just sat there for a moment after my exorcism and looked at myself as I sit on the ground. I closed my eyes and looked down at my body on an ethereal level. Just overlooking all the stories and experiences and things in my life that brought my to where I am. I was still super trippy..very easily got distracted and carried away. I caught myself (or rather got caught lol) several times beginning to think about things at first in a positive manner and then right off into shit and yucky nasty thinking. I tried so hard to make things better when I got down in the nasty stuff, but it's just so hard and there is just so much. They gave me some advice... they said, "Pick your fights." lol. It's so true.
I also forgot to mention but shiva came in riding on a calvary at the beginning of the whole experience just to set things off.
Anyways as the trip progressed I just basically went down rabbit holes and then stopped in panic and tried to make things work again and succeeded in some areas and failed in others. I ultimately figured out that I am just entirely overprocessed and worked over with emotions. Fans always running at max speed, coffee always in my system, chewing tobaccoo always pushing me forward, always working, always moving forward. I basically learned that I really need to lean into a less fast paced way of living in all manners. Just to slow down and take things slow, to take everything slow and meaningful and thoughtful. They kept showing me how my actions were impacting and doings things in the spirit realm. How I'd be walking a certain way and then make an abrupt change of course and it reflect negatively in my mental cycles or wellbeing. And how moving in a mindful and thoughtful way with predetermined measures for what you had planned to do and how you were going to do it. It's just kind of annoying because I'm kind of gung-ho and "lets get up and go do things" type and just want to go do it and get it over with. Anyways they just want me to be a more balanced and moderate person and slow down with everything I do. This is going to be hard for me and will take lots of time to develop just right..whatever.
Anyways this is probably the more interesting part of the trip. As I am working through all this shit and having to basically fight against all the terrible evil and tragic in the world as it basically just consumes me entirely, so much spirits and demons and just negative chaos clustering around me and everything, the experience, as it does, makes a suggestion to me. Sage.
So I go and get the sage and light this thing up and you wouldn't believe the wildest thing happened. This little bundle of sage, small little stick with a rose-bud type shape on the top, like a little tiki-torch... This thing starts talking to me. Like in the spirit realm this sage starts talking to me and making me suggestions and giving advice and guidance about how to navigate in those realms and things to avoid.. Warnings about opening up thoughts and people and entities trying to control you an consume your energy for evil. Basically advised me to keep my thoughts to my self in a way, but it was like in the spiritual realm. It was basically showing me like metaphysical fields of thought, like cones and clouds of thought where if I went and delved into, or shared and opened up my container to, that entities then could come in and harness my energy. As I got more intimate with this piece of sage that I was holding in my hand and tripping balls with, it started to draw me into its metaphoric field. I basically locked minds with it and began to trip into it, following the maze or the mandala or the hypnosis into it so deeply. It really connected with me and at this point I was really able to get deep into the mind with this sage, not only because I felt safe but because it was guiding me in places it had already had well established in those realms.
I just basically remember fully opening up my mind with this sage and seeing a full mental picture of its constructions of thought. It basically just let me download his hard drive.. if you will just a direct connect to his memory and transferred me lots of data about certain things. It was so weird because as I would put him down and go on tripping, i would end up in trouble again and I would just go back to him and light him up again and he'd help me out. He wanted me to pick him up a certain way, light the lighter a certain way, blow him and ignite the embers more deeply a certain way.. i really had a heart felt connection with this sage because he was helping me and guiding me and i was trying to follow his advice and be nice to him.
Anyways needless to say I have a lot to work on and to not work on. So basically I just need to slow and and live a little bit more moderately and have more discipline in certain areas and also up my game so to say in the realm of being a better person.... it was all about being a better person..
I took 100mg DMT and 90mg Harmine/Harmaline Hydrochloride. I first took the Harmalas, waited an hour, then drank some water with the DMT. I took out the contents of other pills so I would have the capsules and put them in those.
The experience was not that wild, but definitely I learned a lot from it and can say that going forward I am looking to work more with the plant but am ready to see some real stuff. This experience was really just about me and my shit, learning and growing from old habits and ways of relating with myself. I've never been this deep with it and my only prior experience has been in smaller doses--though I've learned a lot from my times smoking DMT and whatnot, this is definitely the next caliber or the next horizon for me.
I basically had a beginners run of experiencing aya/pharma. I was promptly transferred into the spirit realm and everything was so hectic. At first it was just absolute chaos. Everywhere I looked had something going on both good and bad. Everywhere I could possibly look was just so dense with consciousness and things happening. It was honestly quite annoying how busy everything could possibly be. Just imagine one-thousand-million different conversations going on in a thousand different ways..except its real situations..real scenarios going on in the spiritual world that is a backdrop to what we normally experience sober.
Basically through the trip my entire will to live was thrown in front of me, all of my intentionality and ability to think and create and navigate through thought was just there and shown to me. It was really too much for me at the time but it showed me a lot about things I think about and how I need to do better and be a better person in several categories.
I was directly working with spirits that were kind of guiding the experience and I really just wasn't feeling the experience. I just wanted to sit there and lay down but the sickness and processing of old ways just kept building up as I got deeper in the experience and I was made to puke. It was horrible. Shit was coming out of my mouth before I could even get to the toilet. Horrible to say the least. I got most of it out, I'd conservatively say 80% but there's still more from where it came from, but definitely not as much as before. Only way I can describe puking is that my soul was coming out of my chest. In those moment I felt so full of power or invigorated. So much shit was coming out and it took all of me. My puking sounds were so loud so determined. Like it was just all of me at maximum power getting that shit out of me. I then just sat there for a moment after my exorcism and looked at myself as I sit on the ground. I closed my eyes and looked down at my body on an ethereal level. Just overlooking all the stories and experiences and things in my life that brought my to where I am. I was still super trippy..very easily got distracted and carried away. I caught myself (or rather got caught lol) several times beginning to think about things at first in a positive manner and then right off into shit and yucky nasty thinking. I tried so hard to make things better when I got down in the nasty stuff, but it's just so hard and there is just so much. They gave me some advice... they said, "Pick your fights." lol. It's so true.
I also forgot to mention but shiva came in riding on a calvary at the beginning of the whole experience just to set things off.
Anyways as the trip progressed I just basically went down rabbit holes and then stopped in panic and tried to make things work again and succeeded in some areas and failed in others. I ultimately figured out that I am just entirely overprocessed and worked over with emotions. Fans always running at max speed, coffee always in my system, chewing tobaccoo always pushing me forward, always working, always moving forward. I basically learned that I really need to lean into a less fast paced way of living in all manners. Just to slow down and take things slow, to take everything slow and meaningful and thoughtful. They kept showing me how my actions were impacting and doings things in the spirit realm. How I'd be walking a certain way and then make an abrupt change of course and it reflect negatively in my mental cycles or wellbeing. And how moving in a mindful and thoughtful way with predetermined measures for what you had planned to do and how you were going to do it. It's just kind of annoying because I'm kind of gung-ho and "lets get up and go do things" type and just want to go do it and get it over with. Anyways they just want me to be a more balanced and moderate person and slow down with everything I do. This is going to be hard for me and will take lots of time to develop just right..whatever.
Anyways this is probably the more interesting part of the trip. As I am working through all this shit and having to basically fight against all the terrible evil and tragic in the world as it basically just consumes me entirely, so much spirits and demons and just negative chaos clustering around me and everything, the experience, as it does, makes a suggestion to me. Sage.
So I go and get the sage and light this thing up and you wouldn't believe the wildest thing happened. This little bundle of sage, small little stick with a rose-bud type shape on the top, like a little tiki-torch... This thing starts talking to me. Like in the spirit realm this sage starts talking to me and making me suggestions and giving advice and guidance about how to navigate in those realms and things to avoid.. Warnings about opening up thoughts and people and entities trying to control you an consume your energy for evil. Basically advised me to keep my thoughts to my self in a way, but it was like in the spiritual realm. It was basically showing me like metaphysical fields of thought, like cones and clouds of thought where if I went and delved into, or shared and opened up my container to, that entities then could come in and harness my energy. As I got more intimate with this piece of sage that I was holding in my hand and tripping balls with, it started to draw me into its metaphoric field. I basically locked minds with it and began to trip into it, following the maze or the mandala or the hypnosis into it so deeply. It really connected with me and at this point I was really able to get deep into the mind with this sage, not only because I felt safe but because it was guiding me in places it had already had well established in those realms.
I just basically remember fully opening up my mind with this sage and seeing a full mental picture of its constructions of thought. It basically just let me download his hard drive.. if you will just a direct connect to his memory and transferred me lots of data about certain things. It was so weird because as I would put him down and go on tripping, i would end up in trouble again and I would just go back to him and light him up again and he'd help me out. He wanted me to pick him up a certain way, light the lighter a certain way, blow him and ignite the embers more deeply a certain way.. i really had a heart felt connection with this sage because he was helping me and guiding me and i was trying to follow his advice and be nice to him.
Anyways needless to say I have a lot to work on and to not work on. So basically I just need to slow and and live a little bit more moderately and have more discipline in certain areas and also up my game so to say in the realm of being a better person.... it was all about being a better person..