So my friend has just come down from his maiden pharma voyage. Here's how his experience went as told to me.... :
" The THH tea (200mg worth) went down pretty smooth... mixed it with loose leaf yerba mate and it tasted less horribly than anticipated. Waited 20 mins and then drank the spice/OJ mixture (75mg worth).... which tasted like orange juice but smelled like fresh nikes. At around the 20 minute mark started to sense that something was about to happen. The feeling of shortness of breath was the first noticeable effect... very similar to my experiences with smoking spice. The next 10 minutes hit me like a ton of bricks. Not anywhere close to the gradual peak and decline as many travelers report. I found myself laying on my bed and extremely cold despite being indoors and basically room temperature. Colors became brighter, lines of contrast between objects became sharper and I lay wrapped in multiple blankets prepared for whatever was about to happen.
From what I gather when reading other peoples experiences with pharmahuasca is the common occurance of having a guide help you through the trip. So amongst the mild hyperspace visuals I began to notice the outline of a person popping up. The only problem was, when I would look close to determine who or what this person was... it would dissolve. It was only noticeable as a vague outline, although it's presence was most certainly felt just not yet understood. Visually the trip was remarkable but not overwhelming. It was much slower and easier to comprehend than previous trips. The guide began to really bother me, and somehow he looked so familiar . I started feeling like this person/entity probably has something important to show me. So I distinctly remember trying to focus less on the legoland visuals in the background and more on the figure.... waiting for him to do his thing. Well, He never really did anything at all... except now he was appearing everywhere. Suddenly I could not look away from this thing. Eyes open, eyes closed... it didn't matter. As I'm realizing that I have no choice but to stare at this thing, his face becomes clearer so I can now start to see details. The face begins to morph from smiling and approachable to scary and demented. At this point I was full on in the thick of the trip... probably 45 minutes had elapses since dosing. I felt panic that I haven't felt in a long time. I needed to see something other than this face. It kept appearing with a zoom effect, it would start with the outline and build to a closeup of his face.. and then repeat and repeat.
The turning point of the trip was the moment I realized.... the figure... was me. Im staring at myself and I can't look away. I have a devilish grin and I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I don't get it. Is this god-complex? Somehow I'm my own spiritual guide? The realization that this powerful figure, who had the allure of such importance initially, ended up being just me was sort of a letdown. But maybe there is some importance in seeing myself in this light. Maybe this was an all-powerful, all knowing entity that decided it wanted to mess with me and disguise itself as me. The 'Me' visual lasted in total about 2 1/2 hours. My own relentless presence was pretty frightening. I gave in to this entity mentally and emotionally. I asked it what I had to do. It seemed complete submission is what this thing was looking for because once I felt I really had nothig more to offer, the intensity waned. What a feeling of relief. I still kept seeing myself but now with the feeling that the worst was over and that this thing got what it wanted. I'm still not sure what to make of this experience. I would say it was neither positive nor negative. Just way different from anything else i have ever experienced"
