zenith_and_nadir
Rising Star
hello all on the nexus. id like to start by stating that ive done quite a bit of reading on the forums here and some of the things ive heard.....wow. Never have i tried DMT but its on my 'to do list' and it sits right near the top. cant say for sure where i heard about DMT, I think perhaps it was hearing it mentioned on youtube or even maybe on Arrowid but i know it got my attention and i have done a lot of reading henceforth.
Drugs I have tried are marijuana, heavily for about 4 years but have since given that up as it came to be just the same old feeling, the occasional spliff now and again is the way to go, really helps me with song writing which is something im quite passionate about. Speed i have dabbled in only a little but it doesnt seem to really do a great deal besides keep me awake with super quick conversations and a crappy come down for the next day or two. ecstasy, haven't done for at least a year but depending of course on the pill it can be a lot of fun. tried shrooms once with a friend mid last year and while he was trippin balls i was seemingly unfazed by the experience besides some stomach cramps soon after ingestion. probably my favourite drug so far is acid taken about 6 trips and each one different in its own little way but always an insight. im just quite weary about the long term of effects of it as it takes a good couple of days to really get over it and even then it sometimes doesn't fell as though its ever gone. my most disliked drug of all although my most consumed is alcohol, stinking alcohol, its become the norm to just drink my weekends away into oblivion with my mates and worry about the hangover later, but shit, the hangover, after some weekends of heavy drinking and im back at home, I have severely depressing thoughts which really haunt me for a day or two. sure i know its a depressant but hell i really want to cut right back on my consumption because nothing is worth those feelings.
In a sense i live a type of double life. around my mates im a footballer, always have been. though i have been called a jock i dont consider myself to be. the other side is me when im on my own, im definitely an introvert and dont require much social contact. i just find it hard to tell my mates 'no, im just gonna do my own thing' im nearly convinced that there is more to life than just what our 5 senses reveal to us but damn is it hard to define what i truly believe goes on. i guess words could never do it justice.
ive had one experience that id like to straight up share. only told a handful of people this as its not something i can tell most but im certain that im not the only person who its happened to.
it began 4-5 years ago when i visited New Zealand with my family and we visited my nan in what was pretty much a trailer park. she told my dad 'oh you have to go see 'bill' over at that site, hes amazing, hes healped me work thru so many issues.' so my dad, my sister n I approached 'Bill' and straight away he looked and me and said 'You, you look very aware and perceptive' i was a bit confused about what he was on about, at the time he was just some strange hippy. but he went on to explain how he is a spiritual healer and he can see and channel everyones spiritual guides. and so he went on to draw our guides for us while looking up and never at the page, he produced some pretty incredibly detailed portraits. for me he said he could see an indian chief standing behind me but when he channeled him to draw he ended up drawing a monk. he told me i had at least two guides and the monk was the one that came thru. fair enough i thought, still feeling rather displaced by what was going on. we came to leave and he said to me, 'you will soon enough get a better idea of who your guides truly are' or something along those lines anyway.
About 8months later after getting a lil bit high, (lighter than usual) i began to stress out.....majorly about my life, i didnt have a job and my parents were helping me survive. i went to bed that night and could not for the life of me get to sleep, my mind was rampant. then i just felt this urge to look into the far corner of my room and although it was fairly dark i could make out two figures, a monk and a chief! it really spun me out and couldnt believe what was happening, believed i was insane pretty much. i convinced the chief to come over to me and touch my arm and he did and my arm began to tingle with warmth. they were there for a bit less then an hour and i just remember them communicating to me that 'everything will be ok, dont worry'
friends that i have told this story to upon hearing that they were a monk and a chief some instantly go 'wow, i can totally picture you as either of those.'
Has anyone else had these types of experiences?
So ahh, basically what im looking for here initially is some good advice on just where to begin with DMT. what extraction method to use first, how to be sure the plant im using definitely contains DMT, the most confusing part for me is the extraction process but im just going to have to give it a go i guess.
well yeah thats me in a nutshell, or a tortishell, some kind of shell at the very least!!
Drugs I have tried are marijuana, heavily for about 4 years but have since given that up as it came to be just the same old feeling, the occasional spliff now and again is the way to go, really helps me with song writing which is something im quite passionate about. Speed i have dabbled in only a little but it doesnt seem to really do a great deal besides keep me awake with super quick conversations and a crappy come down for the next day or two. ecstasy, haven't done for at least a year but depending of course on the pill it can be a lot of fun. tried shrooms once with a friend mid last year and while he was trippin balls i was seemingly unfazed by the experience besides some stomach cramps soon after ingestion. probably my favourite drug so far is acid taken about 6 trips and each one different in its own little way but always an insight. im just quite weary about the long term of effects of it as it takes a good couple of days to really get over it and even then it sometimes doesn't fell as though its ever gone. my most disliked drug of all although my most consumed is alcohol, stinking alcohol, its become the norm to just drink my weekends away into oblivion with my mates and worry about the hangover later, but shit, the hangover, after some weekends of heavy drinking and im back at home, I have severely depressing thoughts which really haunt me for a day or two. sure i know its a depressant but hell i really want to cut right back on my consumption because nothing is worth those feelings.
In a sense i live a type of double life. around my mates im a footballer, always have been. though i have been called a jock i dont consider myself to be. the other side is me when im on my own, im definitely an introvert and dont require much social contact. i just find it hard to tell my mates 'no, im just gonna do my own thing' im nearly convinced that there is more to life than just what our 5 senses reveal to us but damn is it hard to define what i truly believe goes on. i guess words could never do it justice.
ive had one experience that id like to straight up share. only told a handful of people this as its not something i can tell most but im certain that im not the only person who its happened to.
it began 4-5 years ago when i visited New Zealand with my family and we visited my nan in what was pretty much a trailer park. she told my dad 'oh you have to go see 'bill' over at that site, hes amazing, hes healped me work thru so many issues.' so my dad, my sister n I approached 'Bill' and straight away he looked and me and said 'You, you look very aware and perceptive' i was a bit confused about what he was on about, at the time he was just some strange hippy. but he went on to explain how he is a spiritual healer and he can see and channel everyones spiritual guides. and so he went on to draw our guides for us while looking up and never at the page, he produced some pretty incredibly detailed portraits. for me he said he could see an indian chief standing behind me but when he channeled him to draw he ended up drawing a monk. he told me i had at least two guides and the monk was the one that came thru. fair enough i thought, still feeling rather displaced by what was going on. we came to leave and he said to me, 'you will soon enough get a better idea of who your guides truly are' or something along those lines anyway.
About 8months later after getting a lil bit high, (lighter than usual) i began to stress out.....majorly about my life, i didnt have a job and my parents were helping me survive. i went to bed that night and could not for the life of me get to sleep, my mind was rampant. then i just felt this urge to look into the far corner of my room and although it was fairly dark i could make out two figures, a monk and a chief! it really spun me out and couldnt believe what was happening, believed i was insane pretty much. i convinced the chief to come over to me and touch my arm and he did and my arm began to tingle with warmth. they were there for a bit less then an hour and i just remember them communicating to me that 'everything will be ok, dont worry'
friends that i have told this story to upon hearing that they were a monk and a chief some instantly go 'wow, i can totally picture you as either of those.'
Has anyone else had these types of experiences?
So ahh, basically what im looking for here initially is some good advice on just where to begin with DMT. what extraction method to use first, how to be sure the plant im using definitely contains DMT, the most confusing part for me is the extraction process but im just going to have to give it a go i guess.
well yeah thats me in a nutshell, or a tortishell, some kind of shell at the very least!!
