plants do not heal: one heals oneself. And incomes the roots.

[AstralRoots]

In full honesty I've had in persistence a form of Messiah complex applied toward plants translated as it doing the work for me. I've experienced a heap of revelatory experiences utilizing myriad conduits though continue to self sabotage which in a sense is insulting to the teaching received. I ought only be as hard on myself as I need to be in order to generate positive change in my life. Tough masculine love was absent in childhood however it's never too late to appropriately apply it to my life.

Ganja has helped me feel equipoise in mind and has generated states of presence that always end up eluding me after its Grace departs my field. San Pedro helped me feel a degree of rapport with Nature and somatic cellular ecstasis which far exceeded any habitual pleasure provided by plants like Kratom. Mushrooms have catapulted me into far out states of galactic psychedelia that were near impossible to compute.

I spent quite a few years seeking extreme states of far out there highs in a sort of blatant neglect of cultivating unshakable ground. The deeper you go the higher you can go and apparently visversa. Some move from an already cultivated depth into the high heavens whereas others soar to the mountain top with shallow roots the latter proving patendly unsustainable. Balance is key yet is often found the hard way partially due to a tragic gross lack of rites of passages offered to children becoming adults. I could blame a lack of parenting generationally but perhaps its simply the curriculum in this particular realm of many.

The phenomenology of the dark night of the soul is a resounding one in my life which is as bypassable as El Capitan to one who has no climbing experience. Entheogens engaged in whilst the Plutonian underworld cycle is at play in one's life will surely yield challenging reflections from the unconscious by natural law. This dovetails with another thread I sought creating along the lines of knowing-discerning which medicine is appropriate for any given individual given their specififc needs psycho-somatically. Far out tryptamine exploration might better be curbed for depth in somatic expression-clearing-cultivation or visversa.

I was recently hoping for Bufo to offer me some sort of a miracle cure but instead found myself experiencing nothing more than a net financial/time loss. I glorified it on both ends which isn't to negate entirely a profundity of momentary experience yet at the end of the day a strengthening of roots at home would have likely been far wiser. The amount of work I find can be engaged through perhaps a small amount of rue in a conscious state of meditation is quite astonishing. One testimony of a man who engaged in a decade of somatic work prior to 5 makes a lot of sense in hindsight.

The overall iboga experience with significant foci on preparation seems much more appropriate given my predispositions. The Spirit of this plant seems to be a strong one of which I am beginning to prepare for on all of the levels I possibly can. Some say one can enter into rapport with these intelligences prior to absorption and+or through communion with other allies. I recall one mushroom experience illiciting qualities indistinguishable from Ayahuasca: an unexpected phenonomology that validated previously absorbed shared perspectives from others. Iboga seems to be one of the biggest in a certain respect not one that anyone would ever or should ever come to Willy nilly.

Thanks for reading and making this community possible.

 

[rkba]

Beautifully worded.

The plants are like 'forceful' mirrors that reflect one back to oneself. Every time a different angle, every time a reflection that may or may not be understood by the Selfs' perception.

Everything around can be perceived as a reflection of ourselves. Most of the times we pay little attention to these reflections. The faster we 'drive' on the path of life, the less we seem to notice. If we slow down enough, every so often our perception catches a glimpse of a reflection and is able to incorporate this 'revelation' into the core/roots of the Self. Sometimes it takes years before a particular reflection is even noticed. Then it is up to our perception to unravel the observation and to adjust ones perception to incorporate the reflection.

Ultimately it is up to the Self to do the 'work'.

 

[AstralRoots]

@rkba Well put and thanks for your reflection-insight. Hind sight being 20/20 I would also like to state that plants (and animal medicines) can indeed be remarkably healing. Synths can also be interesting however my idiosyncrasy leads me to be generally opposed to them wholesale at this point though that's another thread. The ongoing point of contemplation surrounding the relationship man has to plants is a fruitful one. The pharmacological harmony between certain psychoactive plants to our biologies is great cause for pause, research, retrospection, wonder, and ''field-research'' .

Ah... the capital S Self. The Imperial Self as Michael Tsarion champions. Authentic Self. True Self. I once heard a teacher proclaim that the Soul isn't given but is rather earned through rigorous/arduous effort on behalf of the individual. Nothing Great in life comes from the ''lazy boy approach'' of having ''no skin in the game'' which is tantamountly exemplified in the phenomenon of the man-child gamer in perpetual spinning-of-the wheels.

Who asks the questions of who am I, where am I, what is my origin point, and where am I going today? Why is the philosopher artist mystic poet shamanic sagely type often marginalized or even ostracized by modernity? Why are the spotlights often most brightly shined upon ''heroes/heroines'' that any rational parent would go to great lengths to ensure their children wouldn't be exposed to?

I digress as I'm derailing my own thread. My thought-stream of the moment. Take good care my friend.

 

[rkba]

@rkba Well put and thanks for your reflection-insight. Hind sight being 20/20 I would also like to state that plants (and animal medicines) can indeed be remarkably healing. Synths can also be interesting however my idiosyncrasy leads me to be generally opposed to them wholesale at this point though that's another thread. The ongoing point of contemplation surrounding the relationship man has to plants is a fruitful one. The pharmacological harmony between certain psychoactive plants to our biologies is great cause for pause, research, retrospection, wonder, and ''field-research'' .

When all of Creation comes potentially from the same source (All One), all creations are connected to each other and interact with each other. Your Garden of Perceptions allows the Self to respond (vibrations) to the interactions and in doing so create 'new' interactions with Creation. The vibrations you send out will be matched by Creation and reflected back to you. In this sense you create your own reality.

Ah... the capital S Self. The Imperial Self as Michael Tsarion champions. Authentic Self. True Self. I once heard a teacher proclaim that the Soul isn't given but is rather earned through rigorous/arduous effort on behalf of the individual. Nothing Great in life comes from the ''lazy boy approach'' of having ''no skin in the game'' which is tantamountly exemplified in the phenomenon of the man-child gamer in perpetual spinning-of-the wheels.

Who asks the questions of who am I, where am I, what is my origin point, and where am I going today? Why is the philosopher artist mystic poet shamanic sagely type often marginalized or even ostracized by modernity? Why are the spotlights often most brightly shined upon ''heroes/heroines'' that any rational parent would go to great lengths to ensure their children wouldn't be exposed to?

I does make you wonder, doesn't it.

 

[AstralRoots]

When all of Creation comes potentially from the same source (All One), all creations are connected to each other and interact with each other. Your Garden of Perceptions allows the Self to respond (vibrations) to the interactions and in doing so create 'new' interactions with Creation. The vibrations you send out will be matched by Creation and reflected back to you. In this sense you create your own reality.



I does make you wonder, doesn't it.

"Potentially" had you ever considered that the ego was bourne during a traumatic event which took place some time ago? Through this a fissure between the hemispheres ensued. It was a natural response.

People talk about "core trauma" or our inner most pang. Sometimes I wonder if it's not the moment the splitting occurred. Some say we are a race in amnesia. Maybe due to that event.

Anyways! Yes you're right about your perceptions in my perception.

I think of the word synchromysticism

And the quote : if ones perceptions were clear reality would be seen as it is: infinite

Take care

 

[rkba]

"Potentially" had you ever considered that the ego was bourne during a traumatic event which took place some time ago? Through this a fissure between the hemispheres ensued. It was a natural response.

People talk about "core trauma" or our inner most pang. Sometimes I wonder if it's not the moment the splitting occurred. Some say we are a race in amnesia. Maybe due to that event.

There are so many possibilities and stories, that -to me- our consciousness has had this basic question about our origin for a very, very long time. I don't think it really matters which story it is, as long as a sincere attempt is made to close this fissure between the hemispheres. And yes, I also think that some sort of traumatic event could have caused us to push away our 'other' self. Maybe the 'other' self can access information stored from eons ago, captured within our essential Being. Maybe if we could to communicate well with the 'other' we could see "The Light".

Or maybe Creation has created this goose-chase for us on purpose, so that we can Be in this world that we have created ourselves. A recursive loop that is infinite, like reality.

Who knows, but let's try to close that fissure.

And, Flux with Joy!

 

[AstralRoots]

There are so many possibilities and stories, that -to me- our consciousness has had this basic question about our origin for a very, very long time. I don't think it really matters which story it is, as long as a sincere attempt is made to close this fissure between the hemispheres. And yes, I also think that some sort of traumatic event could have caused us to push away our 'other' self. Maybe the 'other' self can access information stored from eons ago, captured within our essential Being. Maybe if we could to communicate well with the 'other' we could see "The Light".

Or maybe Creation has created this goose-chase for us on purpose, so that we can Be in this world that we have created ourselves. A recursive loop that is infinite, like reality.

Who knows, but let's try to close that fissure.

And, Flux with Joy!

I am forgetting the lover of wisdom atm that felt all humans needed to become artists as the "answer" to societies problems. Indeed the art ist has closed such fissure.

Neurosis is pain unaddressed and is creativity blocked. Bio energetic flow in the body becomes stifled due to trauma. Shadow work must then include soma.

Yes, who knows. The Pali Canon suggests certain questions are ultimately imponderable. Best to "practice" to go "beyond" to where a greater wisdom is.

Metamorphose, transmogrificate, alchemize

 

[Kobranek]

Great write up but I would be careful with such concrete statements since the pharmacological properties of plants have documented medicinal properties, hence it most likely isn't a mechanism that triggers us into healing ourselves.

I've contemplated this with my migraines and seratogenic 5ht2a agonists like mushrooms, lsd, and dmt. When I haven't journeyed in a while and a migraine is triggered I go through a very dark period with dark thoughts and negativity. Unlike if I journey fairly enough am I both reaping the pharmacological benefits or the energetic work (psychoemotional) that comes from journeying?

I also grew up without a dad but contemplate the effect toxic masculinity I've inherited from other role models and even my own mother of what her definition of what a man is and how she's projected that onto me. To be honest I'm not a fan of toxic masculinity and have witnessed the effects it has had on other friends and family.

 

[rkba]

I'm not a fan of the behavior of what some people mean by the term 'toxic masculinity'. However, the term itself is ill-defined and it is often, if not always, used to drive a wedge between groups of people. The fact that a sex is placed within the term itself, that describes a type of destructive behavior that is quite apparent in both sexes, is a huge red flag for me.

The Romans are claimed to have once said: "divide et impera", divide and conquer. These three words describe a mechanism that can be found throughout all layers of our entire social structure. I find this mechanism to be much more harmful to the intrinsic freedom of an individual than the 'toxic' behavior that is likely to be produced by it. As this mechanism is systemic in nature and, if not addressed, will continue to flourish within the individual and therefore the collective society.

Just like with working on the Self, after a root-problem (shadow) has been illuminated and recognized, one will have to address (accept and let go) the shadow in order to create change within. Only when we illuminate, recognize, accept and let go, the shadows within our Self, can we change the problems that are reflected back by the mirror we call society.

Well, that was an interesting path. I think I can follow my own thoughts, but having this societal problem reflecting back my own Self.... Illuminating! It seems to make sense. I'll have to ruminate on that for a while so I can accept and let go. Especially the letting go is still the hardest part, which I accept. LOL.

Above all, Flux with Joy!

 

[rkba]

I'm ruminating, like a cow in the Sun. Maybe that's why cows are sacred animals. Mmmm...

If this "fissure between the hemispheres" is the divide, it makes one wonder who/what is doing the conquering. If we create our own reality, then it is ourselves who are doing the conquering. Maybe this Divide of the Self enables us to conquer our own Identity and our task is "simply" to melt them back together and reach ...... Who knows. Nirvana?

Flux, Flux along the River of Life!

 

[Kobranek]

Wisely said my friend. I'll ditch the toxic masculinity term. I didn't realize it was such a loaded term but can totally understand where your coming from. I think a better term would be toxic machoism? The act of portraying an aggressive macho persona which is gender neutral. Don't want to have anything to do with dividing nor conquering with myself much less anybody else. Thank you for the perspective!

 

[AstralRoots]

Good stuff. Concretizing the unconcretizable seems to be a tendency of the ignorant mind. More and more I glean my experience is unlike the next person's though the common threads can be fun to weave at times as well.

My mind is a wonderful servant of the heart yet a horrific master. The mind can seem to manufacture war against itself. Is it a microcosmic expression of a schism seemingly being conducted macrocosmically?

Krishnamurti proclaimed that it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. My experience resonates deeply with that sentiment.

Yes.. I was reflecting upon what looks like divide and conqueror tactics being foisted upon the minds exploitable by such psychological tactics. Or I'm full of shit and a conspiracy theorist. It's hard to not arrive at a reduction of intentionality around separating people from themselves and each-other.

Alas indeed as I continue to take a deeper look at my self I see the one who is responsible for maintaining the divide. The fissure is there: how to navigate it skillfully. One revelation that precipitated in mind heart is that some amount of the pain I carry is not my own.

Flux. Fuse. Integrate. Shine light.