moridy
Rising Star
Hello,
I came across your community today while doing some typical research on, well, DMT (go figure, right?).
A little bit about myself.. I am a 17 year old boy. My name is Chris. I grew up in a nice house in (basically) the middle of nowhere. Me, my mom, and brother lived in a house in the middle of one of BC's beautiful forests. My mom has had experiences with DMT, as I have not yet. I recently moved to the city of Vancouver with my brother(not as nice...). I'm currently finishing Grade 12 in a highschool filled with about 1,800 students. Whereas my old school had 30.
For hobbies and passions I am an artist, musician, and writer (mostly poems). I play piano (and hope to continue that as a career one day). My biggest influences in life, (who are other human beings) are Beethoven, Dali, David Lynch, Bill Hicks, Lewis Carroll, and Bukowski.
I believe strongly that our unconscious mind and dreaming plays a huge role in our, say... "purpose" here. I've experienced sleep paralysis and lucid dreaming countless times, and for about 5 (maybe more, even) years as a child I had one specific recurring dream that's driven me to become so interested with something like DMT. To put the dream simply, (very very very simply), I'd explain it as being with in a divine infinite garden of peace, beauty, life, and understanding. Then by the end of the dream I encounter two enormous obelisk-like figures that take up my entire field of vision (if I'm even perceiving this from my own eyes in the dream, and not some third person effect. The figures are like giant rectangles, blackish brown maybe. Filled with many circles, and the act of seeing them gives off a completely overwhelming feeling that basically just would make me feel like I was in the presence of god. One of the figures was larger than the other, and I saw it after (as it would usually go to present a higher state of astonishment). I didn't have this dream every night, but it was every so often for many years of my life, and recently (probably just before becoming a teenager) it has stopped. I remember it as being so familiar. As if meeting a friend after a while of not seeing them, and having forgotten what they were like, only to have it all come back and remember them perfectly again. I had felt similar overwhelming feelings with sleep paralysis, but instead those were the most frightening experiences of my life (in juxtaposition with the peace and harmony in the garden, and the godlike feeling of the obelisks, whereas this was pure evil and probably less powerful and intense). The sleep paralysis also started in my teens at about 14, a few days after my first MDMA experience, and the lucid dreaming started sometime after that.
At the present moment, I know of someone who could give me access to DMT, but am still considering waiting until I'm a bit more older, and a bit more knowledgeable with it. I had planned to also do it with my girlfriend, but am considering maybe such a thing should be done alone for the first time. Especially when I see the possible outcome as so personal to what I am looking for. I'm not saying I'm looking to recreate the recurring dreams from childhood, just to experience something beyond what is currently around me. At the same time, however. I've recently taken up a strong liking to DXM, but not just for an easy high. I see DXM as a subtle disconnection to the reality I'm submerged in, and ever since somewhat regular use of it, I've started to perceive everything around me as very foreign and strange. Now constantly I've been questioning reality, my own existence, and pretty much everything that appears in front of me. I think something to keep in mind daily is how incredible and unreal everything we already have around us and inside us is (and not just beyond us). So that's where I'm coming from when interested in DMT. Not to make life interesting, but to experience new sights, feelings, and worlds. However with all I've read so far on it, I haven't come across much on general feelings, other than visuals. If anyone here has experienced strange, overwhelming, or uncomprehendable feelings on DMT, please let me know for I'm very interested. As for Ayahuasca and whatever else, I don't know very much, and I don't believe I'm ready to at this point (one step at a time, especially when the steps are so large).
Anyways, glad to have found this forum, looking forward to meeting others, reading more, and hopefully participating with my own experiences in the future.
- Chris.
I came across your community today while doing some typical research on, well, DMT (go figure, right?).
A little bit about myself.. I am a 17 year old boy. My name is Chris. I grew up in a nice house in (basically) the middle of nowhere. Me, my mom, and brother lived in a house in the middle of one of BC's beautiful forests. My mom has had experiences with DMT, as I have not yet. I recently moved to the city of Vancouver with my brother(not as nice...). I'm currently finishing Grade 12 in a highschool filled with about 1,800 students. Whereas my old school had 30.
For hobbies and passions I am an artist, musician, and writer (mostly poems). I play piano (and hope to continue that as a career one day). My biggest influences in life, (who are other human beings) are Beethoven, Dali, David Lynch, Bill Hicks, Lewis Carroll, and Bukowski.
I believe strongly that our unconscious mind and dreaming plays a huge role in our, say... "purpose" here. I've experienced sleep paralysis and lucid dreaming countless times, and for about 5 (maybe more, even) years as a child I had one specific recurring dream that's driven me to become so interested with something like DMT. To put the dream simply, (very very very simply), I'd explain it as being with in a divine infinite garden of peace, beauty, life, and understanding. Then by the end of the dream I encounter two enormous obelisk-like figures that take up my entire field of vision (if I'm even perceiving this from my own eyes in the dream, and not some third person effect. The figures are like giant rectangles, blackish brown maybe. Filled with many circles, and the act of seeing them gives off a completely overwhelming feeling that basically just would make me feel like I was in the presence of god. One of the figures was larger than the other, and I saw it after (as it would usually go to present a higher state of astonishment). I didn't have this dream every night, but it was every so often for many years of my life, and recently (probably just before becoming a teenager) it has stopped. I remember it as being so familiar. As if meeting a friend after a while of not seeing them, and having forgotten what they were like, only to have it all come back and remember them perfectly again. I had felt similar overwhelming feelings with sleep paralysis, but instead those were the most frightening experiences of my life (in juxtaposition with the peace and harmony in the garden, and the godlike feeling of the obelisks, whereas this was pure evil and probably less powerful and intense). The sleep paralysis also started in my teens at about 14, a few days after my first MDMA experience, and the lucid dreaming started sometime after that.
At the present moment, I know of someone who could give me access to DMT, but am still considering waiting until I'm a bit more older, and a bit more knowledgeable with it. I had planned to also do it with my girlfriend, but am considering maybe such a thing should be done alone for the first time. Especially when I see the possible outcome as so personal to what I am looking for. I'm not saying I'm looking to recreate the recurring dreams from childhood, just to experience something beyond what is currently around me. At the same time, however. I've recently taken up a strong liking to DXM, but not just for an easy high. I see DXM as a subtle disconnection to the reality I'm submerged in, and ever since somewhat regular use of it, I've started to perceive everything around me as very foreign and strange. Now constantly I've been questioning reality, my own existence, and pretty much everything that appears in front of me. I think something to keep in mind daily is how incredible and unreal everything we already have around us and inside us is (and not just beyond us). So that's where I'm coming from when interested in DMT. Not to make life interesting, but to experience new sights, feelings, and worlds. However with all I've read so far on it, I haven't come across much on general feelings, other than visuals. If anyone here has experienced strange, overwhelming, or uncomprehendable feelings on DMT, please let me know for I'm very interested. As for Ayahuasca and whatever else, I don't know very much, and I don't believe I'm ready to at this point (one step at a time, especially when the steps are so large).
Anyways, glad to have found this forum, looking forward to meeting others, reading more, and hopefully participating with my own experiences in the future.
- Chris.
