Punctuation? How do you use it?
psychonaut I am not i am what i yam, i is always CAPITALIZED try typing i without using shift Microsoft your phone google will all correct you I is you, "you" is proper always capitalize the you that is in the in I. double space at the end of sentences is as natural as shift I. My Grandma taught numerous generations of Americans to speak read write English, the youngest generation; being myself, years after her retirement. Punctuation is a funny thing; especially if you code which I do not. words are even worser if u like me learned colour instead a color.
Right then I"m done with that. I will do the rest with typos and human error forgive, if you will! I am 40, "holy shit" The man behind the keyboard stated a lot faster then he could ever imagine being able to type! "I broke my head", {He stated aloud} I'll not narrate in this manner albeit easier
Enough tomfoolery
I messed up bad when I was 17, my brother and I, took acid. this was not abnormal many people have done similar. The problem we had only 1 hit, there were two of us. also not a big deal. We split the hit and waited as all 17 and 19 year old boys, are prone too; impatience! In our haste to feel the effects. We, decided enhancing the experience essential to the mission! Using our combined aptitude for mind altering substances on hand we elected to huff gas. "I know I know" one thing I would have never done looking back, would never do any of the inhalants!
Huffing gas I believe caused an asphyxiation syndrome that I would propose is similar in effects to Carbon Monoxide poisoning where the victims lose consciousnesses and hallucinate. I believe this is one of the DMT release mechanisms in the body where the mind releases the soul. I'm not quoting anything here simply making my biased assessment. During this experience I got out of the truck stood looking up at the trees, my great grandfather had planted when he homesteaded this small parcel in the 1890's in Remote Idaho. I saw God that day and was enlightened, my brother saw me, standing in front of the truck shirt off, on that hot August day in the high plains desert. According to him he saw all the veins in my body stand out as i looked up with a look of rapture. I remember few things, none of them clear, a bright light I was communing with in the trees, I feeling of renewed purpose "or possibly of initial purpose". I remember no drive to be anything until that point! After the bright light fizzed out of my immediate awareness A Fly buzzed loudly by my face saying "REMEMBER" Which I am pretty sure is what erased all the memories of what had just transpired. The next memorable experience was the scariest most frighting, thing imaginable. As my understanding of what transpired expanded, so did the knowledge that gave me the shivers so bad they tingled all the way down my leg where I kicked them off, that's when I met the Jester,"Whom I later named" thanks to "The Nexus" "It's all a joke!" SCARED the sacred outta me! I had always been "good" in order to get to heaven. This was different this meant obliteration if i did not amount to something. 4 months 12/01/1994 later I wrecked a Honda 3 wheeler, stripping me of my, "not to brag" devilish good looks. my face bashed into the pavement My femur knee ankle broken. My 2 front teeth I was too old to grow back again. I was crushed emotionally, mentally and physically! After a year in bed essentially I was no longer on probation for the first time since I was 12, the state released custody of me so my family could deal with my medical bills. I began to think I was invincible! Which led done another self destructive path. A unforgiving trip on shrooms dissuaded me from that notion. Luckily! I couldn't do Acid period w/o meeting the joker! I decided that an annual renewal with the help of mushiez, was essential.This worked great for years until all my cohorts I had enlisted fell by the way side. I had started using other drugs that people, in the same circle use regularly, it didn't fit with my grand scheme, "meth" I found an out but it was in opposition to my prime directive, but so was, meth! I took a traveling job hoping my family i had created would come with me. this led to 4 years of absolute hell for my psyche! Finally I quit my job. I had lost touch with my prime directive however and quitting something "anything" caused a new turmoil in my existence. High hopes dashed! My conscience smashed like The Hulk likes to do! Over and over! My Love! My Life! My wife! My savior! With no drug addictions herself! Became my biggest advocate over HERSELF or even myself! "I am a pretty confident person!" "USUALLY!" But when the Jester was winning, I was whining, she was The Rock!
I am 40 now I am in and outta depression, I found the cure, my wife moved me away from the peer pressure of my home, I now live in in Denver and i have tried ordering ACRB and every time I mess up the TEK I have Peganum Harmala "Syrian Rue" I can't do a proper extraction I have even identified local plants ie Illinois bundle flower.
I have lurked hoping to gain insight.
I know I have to fix me.
I know how to fix me.
I need help to get my drive I had when I was 17
psychonaut I am not i am what i yam, i is always CAPITALIZED try typing i without using shift Microsoft your phone google will all correct you I is you, "you" is proper always capitalize the you that is in the in I. double space at the end of sentences is as natural as shift I. My Grandma taught numerous generations of Americans to speak read write English, the youngest generation; being myself, years after her retirement. Punctuation is a funny thing; especially if you code which I do not. words are even worser if u like me learned colour instead a color.
Right then I"m done with that. I will do the rest with typos and human error forgive, if you will! I am 40, "holy shit" The man behind the keyboard stated a lot faster then he could ever imagine being able to type! "I broke my head", {He stated aloud} I'll not narrate in this manner albeit easier
Enough tomfoolery
I messed up bad when I was 17, my brother and I, took acid. this was not abnormal many people have done similar. The problem we had only 1 hit, there were two of us. also not a big deal. We split the hit and waited as all 17 and 19 year old boys, are prone too; impatience! In our haste to feel the effects. We, decided enhancing the experience essential to the mission! Using our combined aptitude for mind altering substances on hand we elected to huff gas. "I know I know" one thing I would have never done looking back, would never do any of the inhalants!
Huffing gas I believe caused an asphyxiation syndrome that I would propose is similar in effects to Carbon Monoxide poisoning where the victims lose consciousnesses and hallucinate. I believe this is one of the DMT release mechanisms in the body where the mind releases the soul. I'm not quoting anything here simply making my biased assessment. During this experience I got out of the truck stood looking up at the trees, my great grandfather had planted when he homesteaded this small parcel in the 1890's in Remote Idaho. I saw God that day and was enlightened, my brother saw me, standing in front of the truck shirt off, on that hot August day in the high plains desert. According to him he saw all the veins in my body stand out as i looked up with a look of rapture. I remember few things, none of them clear, a bright light I was communing with in the trees, I feeling of renewed purpose "or possibly of initial purpose". I remember no drive to be anything until that point! After the bright light fizzed out of my immediate awareness A Fly buzzed loudly by my face saying "REMEMBER" Which I am pretty sure is what erased all the memories of what had just transpired. The next memorable experience was the scariest most frighting, thing imaginable. As my understanding of what transpired expanded, so did the knowledge that gave me the shivers so bad they tingled all the way down my leg where I kicked them off, that's when I met the Jester,"Whom I later named" thanks to "The Nexus" "It's all a joke!" SCARED the sacred outta me! I had always been "good" in order to get to heaven. This was different this meant obliteration if i did not amount to something. 4 months 12/01/1994 later I wrecked a Honda 3 wheeler, stripping me of my, "not to brag" devilish good looks. my face bashed into the pavement My femur knee ankle broken. My 2 front teeth I was too old to grow back again. I was crushed emotionally, mentally and physically! After a year in bed essentially I was no longer on probation for the first time since I was 12, the state released custody of me so my family could deal with my medical bills. I began to think I was invincible! Which led done another self destructive path. A unforgiving trip on shrooms dissuaded me from that notion. Luckily! I couldn't do Acid period w/o meeting the joker! I decided that an annual renewal with the help of mushiez, was essential.This worked great for years until all my cohorts I had enlisted fell by the way side. I had started using other drugs that people, in the same circle use regularly, it didn't fit with my grand scheme, "meth" I found an out but it was in opposition to my prime directive, but so was, meth! I took a traveling job hoping my family i had created would come with me. this led to 4 years of absolute hell for my psyche! Finally I quit my job. I had lost touch with my prime directive however and quitting something "anything" caused a new turmoil in my existence. High hopes dashed! My conscience smashed like The Hulk likes to do! Over and over! My Love! My Life! My wife! My savior! With no drug addictions herself! Became my biggest advocate over HERSELF or even myself! "I am a pretty confident person!" "USUALLY!" But when the Jester was winning, I was whining, she was The Rock!
I am 40 now I am in and outta depression, I found the cure, my wife moved me away from the peer pressure of my home, I now live in in Denver and i have tried ordering ACRB and every time I mess up the TEK I have Peganum Harmala "Syrian Rue" I can't do a proper extraction I have even identified local plants ie Illinois bundle flower.
I have lurked hoping to gain insight.
I know I have to fix me.
I know how to fix me.
I need help to get my drive I had when I was 17
