old_one_001
Rising Star
Hello all. I've been lurking through nexus forums for the last five years or so off and on, but up until about 8 months ago, any time I came here it was to look at art or because a google search about mushrooms or acid or something brought me here. So lets get to the goods. I've been around the block.
I started smoking weed at the ripe age of 16 to escape family problems. That lead to experimentation with just about everything under the sun, luckilly nothing ever cought up with me, I hated coke, I hated speed ect, atleast for awhile anyways. Then I tried mushrooms. My first trip I ate a half eighth of golden caps barely any stems and I gatta say it was one of the most amazing moments in my life. This was followed by an increasing curiosity in psychodelics which soon lead to me breaking the fuck through on salvia. And when I say broke through, im talking about the wall opening up into blackness and sucking me in like a rolled up piece of paper type break through. I took a giant bong toke out of a zong using jet lighters. It was scary as hell. Eventually the psychadelics went away as i found myself in a more depressed state than I had ever been in my entire life as I came closer and closer to graduating from highschool. This is where I hit rock bottom.
I became a haroin addict. and soon enough i started using needles, and soon enough I had a couple really scary over doses/ possible over doses (not sure because i wasn't with anyone i just luckily woke up for two of them) Shit was real bad. Ended up in a hybrid rehab sober living for 18 months. 18 months clean as a whistle. got out and stayed sober for about six months before i started smoking weed again, especially with all the medical marijuana clinics that popped up. So from that point on up until august of 2012 i've been on the streight path, I now have over 5 years without haroin use and i've never looked back, as i was able to completely cut those people out of my life thanks to the 18 month stint in boot camp style sober living.
So this whole time i keep thinking about god (they love to make it a big deal in AA) and i've never had a connection with god, and definetly not the god that lives in churches. No, i kept retracing back to my psychadelic days when it seemed like I had stumbled onto something special. something like god. So I started to look for mushrooms. Never found them. But August 2012 I did stumble upon my new good friend LSD, and it has unlocked so many doors since then. I feel so much better about myself and my reality now that i've had access to this miracle substance. By the way, as the name states, I love heavy doses. My favorite moment was in december 2012 I went camping in the Desert alone on a head full of 10 hits. It was like a vision quest, and i definetly found what I was looking for, and THEN SOME.
Long story short, of course im getting all super excited and stoked on life and want to know everything about this substance (im a science major, a geology undergrad to be exact) so its in my nature to want to learn everything I can. Thats when I watched that spirit molecule documentary on net flix and well.....lost my fucking mind with excitement. Realizing that Lucy may be the catalyst to me realizing the true spirit molecule, DMT. So here I am about 7 months later and I still have yet to try the sacred molecule, BUT!!! My precursor is on its way. Its been annoying as fuck waiting for it. I can't believe the government had to get anal right when my mind awoke, but what ever fuck them anyways for the most part, (though i am very greatful for this country and the protection it provides me) It just pisses me off when things like this happen.
Long Long story short, the precursor is on its way, I quit smoking pot and cigarettes three days ago, and after watching this TED talk where this guy basically callled weed "the green bitch" and claimed Ayawaska helped him put his addiciton to rest, I'm hopeful that it will seal the deal for me and I can finally put the green bitch aside as well, though my intention isn't to give it up for good, but truth be told my chemistry teacher this year is fucking psycho hard and im just not ganna pass the way I smoke weed. So its now or Never baby and im ready to start living my fucking life the way I want to, and its time to break through the doors of reality, the way mother nature intended us to, with the spirit molecule.
I started smoking weed at the ripe age of 16 to escape family problems. That lead to experimentation with just about everything under the sun, luckilly nothing ever cought up with me, I hated coke, I hated speed ect, atleast for awhile anyways. Then I tried mushrooms. My first trip I ate a half eighth of golden caps barely any stems and I gatta say it was one of the most amazing moments in my life. This was followed by an increasing curiosity in psychodelics which soon lead to me breaking the fuck through on salvia. And when I say broke through, im talking about the wall opening up into blackness and sucking me in like a rolled up piece of paper type break through. I took a giant bong toke out of a zong using jet lighters. It was scary as hell. Eventually the psychadelics went away as i found myself in a more depressed state than I had ever been in my entire life as I came closer and closer to graduating from highschool. This is where I hit rock bottom.
I became a haroin addict. and soon enough i started using needles, and soon enough I had a couple really scary over doses/ possible over doses (not sure because i wasn't with anyone i just luckily woke up for two of them) Shit was real bad. Ended up in a hybrid rehab sober living for 18 months. 18 months clean as a whistle. got out and stayed sober for about six months before i started smoking weed again, especially with all the medical marijuana clinics that popped up. So from that point on up until august of 2012 i've been on the streight path, I now have over 5 years without haroin use and i've never looked back, as i was able to completely cut those people out of my life thanks to the 18 month stint in boot camp style sober living.
So this whole time i keep thinking about god (they love to make it a big deal in AA) and i've never had a connection with god, and definetly not the god that lives in churches. No, i kept retracing back to my psychadelic days when it seemed like I had stumbled onto something special. something like god. So I started to look for mushrooms. Never found them. But August 2012 I did stumble upon my new good friend LSD, and it has unlocked so many doors since then. I feel so much better about myself and my reality now that i've had access to this miracle substance. By the way, as the name states, I love heavy doses. My favorite moment was in december 2012 I went camping in the Desert alone on a head full of 10 hits. It was like a vision quest, and i definetly found what I was looking for, and THEN SOME.
Long story short, of course im getting all super excited and stoked on life and want to know everything about this substance (im a science major, a geology undergrad to be exact) so its in my nature to want to learn everything I can. Thats when I watched that spirit molecule documentary on net flix and well.....lost my fucking mind with excitement. Realizing that Lucy may be the catalyst to me realizing the true spirit molecule, DMT. So here I am about 7 months later and I still have yet to try the sacred molecule, BUT!!! My precursor is on its way. Its been annoying as fuck waiting for it. I can't believe the government had to get anal right when my mind awoke, but what ever fuck them anyways for the most part, (though i am very greatful for this country and the protection it provides me) It just pisses me off when things like this happen.
Long Long story short, the precursor is on its way, I quit smoking pot and cigarettes three days ago, and after watching this TED talk where this guy basically callled weed "the green bitch" and claimed Ayawaska helped him put his addiciton to rest, I'm hopeful that it will seal the deal for me and I can finally put the green bitch aside as well, though my intention isn't to give it up for good, but truth be told my chemistry teacher this year is fucking psycho hard and im just not ganna pass the way I smoke weed. So its now or Never baby and im ready to start living my fucking life the way I want to, and its time to break through the doors of reality, the way mother nature intended us to, with the spirit molecule.
