Great post, and welcome.

This is just standard for me, so bear with me for a second. Salvia isn't for everyone, I understand. But it is also a plant with which you have to cultivate a relationship. I had many experiences similar to what you've described here, and I continued to do it. At first I thought that I was punishing myself somehow, for some reason. Then I thought that maybe I was just stubborn and I wanted to experience some of what other people had described. Then I finally came to the conclusion that somehow, in my soul/spirit/heart, I knew that getting to know this plant was something I needed to do. She can be beautiful and healing much like DMT. She can also be terrifying, much like DMT. Maybe it's easier for us to have those terrifying experiences with Salvia because of the strangeness of the effects, the physical pulling and twisting, the dysphoria, etc. But Salvia does deserve another shot. Trust me. It may just not be for you, maybe DMT is a much better ally for you personally. But Salvia isn't something that easily "goes away"  She calls after a time, and you'll say, "Why not?" because the memory of that terror has faded with time. Eventually, I think everyone can get to a place of beauty and magnificence with Salvia, if they just persevere.