From the moment I inhaled the smoke I knew that this was not anything I had experimented with in the past. The spice has a smell & flavor all its own that's for sure. I could feel it warming me like a blanket starting from my head and working it's way through to my fingertips. My friend said "close your eyes and put your head back" which I did with pleasure. I began to see the silhouette of a man sitting in a Budda position, just the outline of him/it and I was travelling into him. All the while there is an intense checker board pattern flashing and it is in multiple colours shape shifting too. I am Diving deep into the center of the chest of this buddha figure, and I knew I was heading into the heart of this beautiful being. It was all too much for me, I started to panic, in my mind I was screaming "no, no, this was a mistake" I have been clean of any Narcotics for 3 years.Just then a voice from inside the center of the silhouette says "stop" and the whole experience stopped. Then it asks me "ARE YOU READY"?. I say yes, but both conversations between the being and me are happening at the same time and all inside my mind I suppose. So I am just a little confused how this is happening, but I also feel it to be perfectly natural all the same. I start to go deeper and it becomes even more intense, all things are explained in this realm. No one is ignorant of anything. We all know everything and it's peacefull. I am worried about my loved ones for some reason and I become scared again, then the voice again says "stop" but this time it brings my family into my heart and I can feel their love inside me. I am one who believes in a soul, and at that moment their souls were with me in a way that could never be in this realm. This is something I cannot begin to describe to you other than total utter connection. I am one with all my children and they are one with me and all of our love is as one. The being says to me again. "ARE YOU READY" but this time with a tiny giggle in its voice. Now I know I am perfectly safe going into this world and I agree to let myself be taken into the deeper parts of this inner world I have just discovered.
This whole experience had a very positive effect on me. When you can feel love inside your body like I did at the very moment I was terrified, not to mention the deep and ancient voice that was speaking to me. I have read here on the nexus how some believe that all the beings we encounter are actually tiny nano beings within our selves, if that is true, I am definetely a very old being of energy. I could feel and sense that it was older than anything I have ever encountered in my life, deep out of ancient Africa is how the voice felt in side my mind. I also felt warmth from it too, like a guide. Perhaps my spirit guide. It left me tingling all over from head toe, I remember when I opened my eyes I looked at my friends wife and said "you got to be F#$@ng kidding me" Not exactly a peacefull statement but I really couldn't think of anything else to say because I had just been shown to whole blue print of the universe and understood it as well. She looked to be made of egg shells and her husband had a grin 2 feet wide. I hugged them both and thanked them for this wonderfull experience. I fit perfectly with the search and questions I had been asking throughout the year. At that moment I realized that any drugs I had done up to that point were nothing compared to these and unfortunately I have done most of them. I don't consider this a drug, its more of a tool of enlightenment. It was so beautiful an experience and such a feeling of love like I have never ever felt in my life. Just peacefull!!! I have since done it twice again, but I had pre flight jitters and didn't do enough. The next time will be a full breath and I hope it is a beautiful as the first time.
I have to ask, has anyone else been able to communicate with these other worldly spirits and has it been as uplifting an experience as I had. I was on a life high for 6weeks straight. I didn't do anything to change how I felt. And it was the first time I had been drug free for almost 15 years. Just wonderfull. I am happy it found me. If only everyone could feel that feeling of love and togetherness.
This whole experience had a very positive effect on me. When you can feel love inside your body like I did at the very moment I was terrified, not to mention the deep and ancient voice that was speaking to me. I have read here on the nexus how some believe that all the beings we encounter are actually tiny nano beings within our selves, if that is true, I am definetely a very old being of energy. I could feel and sense that it was older than anything I have ever encountered in my life, deep out of ancient Africa is how the voice felt in side my mind. I also felt warmth from it too, like a guide. Perhaps my spirit guide. It left me tingling all over from head toe, I remember when I opened my eyes I looked at my friends wife and said "you got to be F#$@ng kidding me" Not exactly a peacefull statement but I really couldn't think of anything else to say because I had just been shown to whole blue print of the universe and understood it as well. She looked to be made of egg shells and her husband had a grin 2 feet wide. I hugged them both and thanked them for this wonderfull experience. I fit perfectly with the search and questions I had been asking throughout the year. At that moment I realized that any drugs I had done up to that point were nothing compared to these and unfortunately I have done most of them. I don't consider this a drug, its more of a tool of enlightenment. It was so beautiful an experience and such a feeling of love like I have never ever felt in my life. Just peacefull!!! I have since done it twice again, but I had pre flight jitters and didn't do enough. The next time will be a full breath and I hope it is a beautiful as the first time.
I have to ask, has anyone else been able to communicate with these other worldly spirits and has it been as uplifting an experience as I had. I was on a life high for 6weeks straight. I didn't do anything to change how I felt. And it was the first time I had been drug free for almost 15 years. Just wonderfull. I am happy it found me. If only everyone could feel that feeling of love and togetherness.
