Greetings I Toyed with the Void,

You've been through some heavy places & spaces...  and I'm glad you found your way here.  IMO, one of the single most important aspects of the use of psychedelics is this, we can potentially and often do, become reborn through the process.  We are gifted an opportunity to step outside of ourselves and awaken to that which is, not that which we believe we see and so, fully understand.   :idea:

Please feel free to share more of your experiences with us.  You are amongst family now.  May the light illuminate your path!

Keep searching within yourself for answers.  You'll find this a warm and embracing community, albeit it quite an unreserved, unabashed cluster of individuals.  Each member of unique insight and a thoughtful perspective.