RootLeaf
Rising Star
Hello!
My name is Dmitri, I am 26 years old, have lived in California most of my life, now living in my native Kazakhstan, working towards my dream of becoming a freelance mobile professional. That is the surface story so far. My real interest lies in girls. Oy, I only joke!
I never seen drugs, nor thought about doing drugs - it just never occured to me, until I read on the internet that certain types of mushrooms will produce hallucinations. That clicked instantly. I know exactly what. It is almost like remembering, or like a blind man touching around this new world and finding a window - aha! THIS is the brindge, the teleport, the hidden portal, the access point! Something like that. Of course, that is only my first impression.
Over the course of time, and probably very much so in due time, starting at about 19 years old I have come to experience these mushrooms, and various other things, notably, of course, LSD, which I found quite tasteful for its lucidity and control, and MDMA, the other favorite exposer of beauty and love. I would guess I have taken LSD about 7-10 times, sometimes small doses, one clear peak experience where thoughts like meteors burned and evaporated against the white-hot stratosphere... It was beautiful, but it is kind of a sportscar of psychedelics in my opinion. MDMA, the girl I loved, MDMA with friends I love, the infinity and amazing calm beautify within the dialated pupil, mmm, yea, mine too is beautiful I think, and that was theraputic. I took molly about maybe 15 times in various settings, including one time together with LSD both in rather high doses at a San Francisco party which resulted in a truely astonishing one of a kind telepathic grouptrip in which I was strangely a focal point of everyone's projections. Maybe I am exagerrating. No, I don't believe that I am or was Christ but that night there were some pretty convincing intimations!
Mind you, this is all accompanied by authors like Daniel Pinchbeck, Carl Jung & co., Mircea Eliade, a bunch of stuff on eastern philosophy, etc, and the reading is something that I continue actively.
Then for about 3 years I did no psychedelics at all because in fact I was deported to Kazakhstan and it took me some time to establish myself here, recover, and once I did that, well, I did the next more reasonable thing. I went to Peru.
Ayahuasca was extremely therapeutic. I came into good hands, professional and compassionate people - they really didn't care about money, although yes they were used to a certain level of comfort. Drank it 4 times over the course of the month. My experience with Ayahuasca, I feel, has only touched the surface. It cleansed me of inhibitions and made me feel like an accepted child of nature and a legitimate citizen of the cosmos and yes the total download of the entirety if the existing information and yes the caring touch of the agent of mother nature and much, much more, but - good habits don't form in a day, and bad habits don't die in a day either. After my month's vacation I came back to the same routine and although I didn't expect to be perfect the way I was the morning after a ceremony, I strongly feel that I need to work with the medicine more deeply, with greater devotion, seriousness, and take the time to care for the good thinking habits to take root. And God willing I will be going there in January 2013 through April 2013, which my boss kindly allowed me to do, God bless her unwitting soul hahah.
Before I got to Peru, I intent to be initiated into the Iboga medicine. It is my hope that it will let me see clearly my life and who I am - a strong vision of meaning to sustain an ecstatic and loving existence!
Peace be to all! Thank you for letting me join a great community.
Rootleaf
My name is Dmitri, I am 26 years old, have lived in California most of my life, now living in my native Kazakhstan, working towards my dream of becoming a freelance mobile professional. That is the surface story so far. My real interest lies in girls. Oy, I only joke!
I never seen drugs, nor thought about doing drugs - it just never occured to me, until I read on the internet that certain types of mushrooms will produce hallucinations. That clicked instantly. I know exactly what. It is almost like remembering, or like a blind man touching around this new world and finding a window - aha! THIS is the brindge, the teleport, the hidden portal, the access point! Something like that. Of course, that is only my first impression.
Over the course of time, and probably very much so in due time, starting at about 19 years old I have come to experience these mushrooms, and various other things, notably, of course, LSD, which I found quite tasteful for its lucidity and control, and MDMA, the other favorite exposer of beauty and love. I would guess I have taken LSD about 7-10 times, sometimes small doses, one clear peak experience where thoughts like meteors burned and evaporated against the white-hot stratosphere... It was beautiful, but it is kind of a sportscar of psychedelics in my opinion. MDMA, the girl I loved, MDMA with friends I love, the infinity and amazing calm beautify within the dialated pupil, mmm, yea, mine too is beautiful I think, and that was theraputic. I took molly about maybe 15 times in various settings, including one time together with LSD both in rather high doses at a San Francisco party which resulted in a truely astonishing one of a kind telepathic grouptrip in which I was strangely a focal point of everyone's projections. Maybe I am exagerrating. No, I don't believe that I am or was Christ but that night there were some pretty convincing intimations!
Mind you, this is all accompanied by authors like Daniel Pinchbeck, Carl Jung & co., Mircea Eliade, a bunch of stuff on eastern philosophy, etc, and the reading is something that I continue actively.
Then for about 3 years I did no psychedelics at all because in fact I was deported to Kazakhstan and it took me some time to establish myself here, recover, and once I did that, well, I did the next more reasonable thing. I went to Peru.
Ayahuasca was extremely therapeutic. I came into good hands, professional and compassionate people - they really didn't care about money, although yes they were used to a certain level of comfort. Drank it 4 times over the course of the month. My experience with Ayahuasca, I feel, has only touched the surface. It cleansed me of inhibitions and made me feel like an accepted child of nature and a legitimate citizen of the cosmos and yes the total download of the entirety if the existing information and yes the caring touch of the agent of mother nature and much, much more, but - good habits don't form in a day, and bad habits don't die in a day either. After my month's vacation I came back to the same routine and although I didn't expect to be perfect the way I was the morning after a ceremony, I strongly feel that I need to work with the medicine more deeply, with greater devotion, seriousness, and take the time to care for the good thinking habits to take root. And God willing I will be going there in January 2013 through April 2013, which my boss kindly allowed me to do, God bless her unwitting soul hahah.
Before I got to Peru, I intent to be initiated into the Iboga medicine. It is my hope that it will let me see clearly my life and who I am - a strong vision of meaning to sustain an ecstatic and loving existence!
Peace be to all! Thank you for letting me join a great community.
Rootleaf
Sounds like you are learning alot with such teachers. I too have recently become interested in iboga. I would very much like to go to Peru for some ceremonies, but I gotta save up for that first. No need to rush it. Happy travels and welcome! 