Plasikperson
Esteemed member
Hello lovely Nexusians.
I have been jurking in the background exploring teks and reports for a few months now.Whilst I have all I need, I have yet to deploy a tek and have not been travelling as yet. I feel a need to understand as much as I can, especially in relation to DMN and the science of the molecule before I jump on board. The main driver here is likely a ‘sense of’ control, however arguably deluded this may prove! As will be obvious from that admission, I like to feel in control as much as my own sovereignty of mind and circumstances allow. Perhaps put better, I like to feel informationally forearmed so as to feel best ‘set’.
This is my first post.
I would like to ask your more experienced opinion. Please feel free to avoid caveats, I know you do know me and it’s not a medical opinion with personal experience with me. I know my decisions are my own, but your honest opinion is of great value as further information for my consideration. I humbly thank anyone who takes the time to reply in advance.
I am an emotive sort who feels as much as thinks their way through life. I am passionate, a tad rash, and quick to become irritated or very enthusiastic. I have no diagnosis and am certain I am in very norma ranges, but I am far from perfect or ‘moderate’ in response to stimuli.
I am a professional and family man. My partner has no interest in anything but nature and animals. She doesn’t drink, smoke or care for anything but her DMT that she is radiant within and happy with. I am more curious and feel the need to travel in all ways, but for now my voyages will be my own, although I wish to confide in her when the set and setting feels conducive.
As a teenager some 33 years ago I enjoyed a lot of mild doses of LSD between being permanently very happily stoned. I functioned well, and would self assess as well in control.
One night I took a ‘super mario’ that was doing the rounds. Amongst a myriad other ‘unusual occurances’, at one point I left the bed I lay on at a point in a song. I knew that song inside out and could play it on the guitar, drums and bass. I returned to the bed a fraction of a second later at the very same moment in the song. If it means anything to anyone Dave Navarro has just applied a vibrator to his Gibson SV to create the final bars of the solo
The only thing was in that – I would estimate 50-250ms, I had lived everyday of my life to ~40 yeas old. I had got up, had a sh1t, had breakfast, read the paper (I never do that) cleaned my teeth, chatted to the girlfriend (no one I know or ever met) who became my fiancé then wife then mother of my two children. I commuted to work, it was boring and I was bored, but modestly happy. Bit like the end of Goodfellas, all a very suburban boredom that I somewhat begrudgingly accepted and focused on everyone else to stave of the pangs of desire for more rock n’ roll.
Anyway, point is, I lived about 23 years – every bloody second of it, or as I returned to this reality/my DNM and sensory processing (fleetingly) it damn well seemed that way.
I’ve spent the last 30 years very moderately concerned about going down the rabbit whole the other way, although awakening at 17 again with the experience I now have would be most engaging. That said, I’d still have trouble laying a bet of Trump winning two elections, but that would be more of a moral rather than evidential issue.
On the other hand I feel being exposed to so much so young (this is one example of many) has somewhat hindered me. It’s made me more cautious than I was, more aware of the fragility of my DMN, and rather irritatingly could be argued to have created a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts.
So, my question. Given the right setting, which for me would be to see past and look back at my DMT with a view of recalibrating it for the betterment of all around me, and so as to possibly get the grounding to spread more positivity and good into the world in more creative ways, do you see any reasons I might be better to leave it for now.
I hope the question, and my reason behind it makes sense. I also thank you for your time reading this and hope it was worth your effort on some level! Anyone who answers, again, all my thanks and love in advance x
I have been jurking in the background exploring teks and reports for a few months now.Whilst I have all I need, I have yet to deploy a tek and have not been travelling as yet. I feel a need to understand as much as I can, especially in relation to DMN and the science of the molecule before I jump on board. The main driver here is likely a ‘sense of’ control, however arguably deluded this may prove! As will be obvious from that admission, I like to feel in control as much as my own sovereignty of mind and circumstances allow. Perhaps put better, I like to feel informationally forearmed so as to feel best ‘set’.
This is my first post.
I would like to ask your more experienced opinion. Please feel free to avoid caveats, I know you do know me and it’s not a medical opinion with personal experience with me. I know my decisions are my own, but your honest opinion is of great value as further information for my consideration. I humbly thank anyone who takes the time to reply in advance.
I am an emotive sort who feels as much as thinks their way through life. I am passionate, a tad rash, and quick to become irritated or very enthusiastic. I have no diagnosis and am certain I am in very norma ranges, but I am far from perfect or ‘moderate’ in response to stimuli.
I am a professional and family man. My partner has no interest in anything but nature and animals. She doesn’t drink, smoke or care for anything but her DMT that she is radiant within and happy with. I am more curious and feel the need to travel in all ways, but for now my voyages will be my own, although I wish to confide in her when the set and setting feels conducive.
As a teenager some 33 years ago I enjoyed a lot of mild doses of LSD between being permanently very happily stoned. I functioned well, and would self assess as well in control.
One night I took a ‘super mario’ that was doing the rounds. Amongst a myriad other ‘unusual occurances’, at one point I left the bed I lay on at a point in a song. I knew that song inside out and could play it on the guitar, drums and bass. I returned to the bed a fraction of a second later at the very same moment in the song. If it means anything to anyone Dave Navarro has just applied a vibrator to his Gibson SV to create the final bars of the solo
The only thing was in that – I would estimate 50-250ms, I had lived everyday of my life to ~40 yeas old. I had got up, had a sh1t, had breakfast, read the paper (I never do that) cleaned my teeth, chatted to the girlfriend (no one I know or ever met) who became my fiancé then wife then mother of my two children. I commuted to work, it was boring and I was bored, but modestly happy. Bit like the end of Goodfellas, all a very suburban boredom that I somewhat begrudgingly accepted and focused on everyone else to stave of the pangs of desire for more rock n’ roll.
Anyway, point is, I lived about 23 years – every bloody second of it, or as I returned to this reality/my DNM and sensory processing (fleetingly) it damn well seemed that way.
I’ve spent the last 30 years very moderately concerned about going down the rabbit whole the other way, although awakening at 17 again with the experience I now have would be most engaging. That said, I’d still have trouble laying a bet of Trump winning two elections, but that would be more of a moral rather than evidential issue.
On the other hand I feel being exposed to so much so young (this is one example of many) has somewhat hindered me. It’s made me more cautious than I was, more aware of the fragility of my DMN, and rather irritatingly could be argued to have created a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts.
So, my question. Given the right setting, which for me would be to see past and look back at my DMT with a view of recalibrating it for the betterment of all around me, and so as to possibly get the grounding to spread more positivity and good into the world in more creative ways, do you see any reasons I might be better to leave it for now.
I hope the question, and my reason behind it makes sense. I also thank you for your time reading this and hope it was worth your effort on some level! Anyone who answers, again, all my thanks and love in advance x
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