SHroomtroll
Rising Star
So let me start of by saying that salvia was the first drug i tried after alcohol, ciggs and cannabis.
Dont ask me why i thought it was a good idea but it being legal and short lasting were strong reasons for me to try it at a young age of 20.
The trip itself was mindblowing and i havent dared to touch it again untill yesterday which was almost exactly 8years after my first trial.
Between this time i have done most tradional psychs and a bunch of rc's in various doses.
But still nothing compares tl the kind of crazy that salvia produces.
What happened was that ive been dealing with fear alot lately, fear in different form and shapes.
Right now im also alone at home since my gf and daughter is away for a few weeks, this is bringing alot of stuff to the surface that i usually dont have to deal with.
So i decided yesterday that i need to confront it all, so i thought about one of my biggest fears which is that crazy salvia i have locked up.
So i load my changa pipe with a small amount of the 10x extract and hit it.
I get pretty nice buzz but not much more so i load it up moar.
I put the flame on and suck it down hard and keep it down while putting down the pipe.
Then it hits me like a dissiociative laser beam!
I feel numb in my spine and lay down to try to relax a bit.
I now fall into the egodeath trip but very soon feel this pull, i cant resist it and it drags me up from my couch like something has ahold of my spine and i have to follow.
I walk in a perfect line a few meters then turn 90degress and walk a little shorter untill i turn again and this repeats untill im just standing in the middle of the room spinning without moving my feet.
At this point i am panicking a bit since my whole room is morphing around me and i feel batshit crazy while spinning like a piece of metal powered by a magnet.
After a little while i do the same weird walk back to my couch and lay down while slowly coming down and realising wtf just happened.
At first i just felt violated by some salvia troll but now today i realise what salvia tried to tell me.
Im not in control like i think i am but just a zombie following whatever impulse is the strongest, i need to break free from my fears and take back the control of my life.
Dont ask me why i thought it was a good idea but it being legal and short lasting were strong reasons for me to try it at a young age of 20.
The trip itself was mindblowing and i havent dared to touch it again untill yesterday which was almost exactly 8years after my first trial.
Between this time i have done most tradional psychs and a bunch of rc's in various doses.
But still nothing compares tl the kind of crazy that salvia produces.
What happened was that ive been dealing with fear alot lately, fear in different form and shapes.
Right now im also alone at home since my gf and daughter is away for a few weeks, this is bringing alot of stuff to the surface that i usually dont have to deal with.
So i decided yesterday that i need to confront it all, so i thought about one of my biggest fears which is that crazy salvia i have locked up.
So i load my changa pipe with a small amount of the 10x extract and hit it.
I get pretty nice buzz but not much more so i load it up moar.
I put the flame on and suck it down hard and keep it down while putting down the pipe.
Then it hits me like a dissiociative laser beam!
I feel numb in my spine and lay down to try to relax a bit.
I now fall into the egodeath trip but very soon feel this pull, i cant resist it and it drags me up from my couch like something has ahold of my spine and i have to follow.
I walk in a perfect line a few meters then turn 90degress and walk a little shorter untill i turn again and this repeats untill im just standing in the middle of the room spinning without moving my feet.
At this point i am panicking a bit since my whole room is morphing around me and i feel batshit crazy while spinning like a piece of metal powered by a magnet.
After a little while i do the same weird walk back to my couch and lay down while slowly coming down and realising wtf just happened.
At first i just felt violated by some salvia troll but now today i realise what salvia tried to tell me.
Im not in control like i think i am but just a zombie following whatever impulse is the strongest, i need to break free from my fears and take back the control of my life.