yeah, SWIM(W) thinks this comes up every time W uninhibits himself. W often feels like apologizing to his partner for "having been so uptight." W has only had one other partner who W experienced these kinds of substances with, and even when W felt totally 'loosened up,' W didn't remember feeling compelled to apologize. though W says the feeling of being loosened up and clear was always the same, a big yawn to W's sober pretensions.

W would say that age has something to do with it. parameters of what is possible generally narrow down with age- even if one maintains that "anything is possible," W thinks the meaning of this statement registers through a refined experience of "possibility" which involve reason, logic. W feels like sometimes Ws able to access this state of mind while “sober”, though not as closely or purely as when under certain substances.

W agrees though, taking this feeling/rationality back to 'sober reality' is very key. W thinks this alternate rationality has a way of being equally surreal and powerful when realized soberly.