Jarl Von Hoother
Underwater Pyrotechnition Underdog at Large
- Merits
- 42
T=20.) I nervously begin telepathizing with friends on a deep interpersonal level as we pass the pipe- deeper than they were willing as I thought of treating them like they were everyone I will meet and wish to treat. Than the LSD started making the air thick with weridness.
T=40 Everything we could think of controversially I didactically oriented into a down with the establishment as if I were a radicalist with a megaphone in a poetic sort of testifying way,
T=50 I remember accidentally controlling peoples thought (who took less acid than I did) everyone's attention was on me idk why, continuing when I accidentally approached them all with question; 'whose thoughts are we sharing?' as I flickered the lamp light on and off. My friends started getting really weirded out by me. I felt like their thoughts were all chasing mine as I was their's galvanizing this weird imposing impression of having eye balls on the back of my head.
T=1:00 + two or three more hits
At this point everyone is getting really uneasy. (Did my Ego devour theirs?) watching as their thoughts feebly chase me- mimicking the reality of this pursuit I ran and jumped off the chair to the kitchen for some water, in mid air Feeling real clear headed. Along my way as I walk inside this rather large house away from them all I had this feeling like 'yeah I 'am superman- suddenly I started seeing these electric pools of green light merge with red, orange, back to green and blue with violet protruding viels of holy light surrounding my periphery. Although be a skeptic, agnostic or whatever. I felt like I was god - as I walked away from them to rationalize my arrogance in reconcilation of achieveing superego masked with my favorite poets as I went around feeling like I was god, as if I understood what is was, who I was?
T=1:30 These extra hits came on like a tornado and I went from mad to bezerk as all my friends who sitting quietly speechlessly. a some what of a friend tryed to calm me down as I sat alone on a bed, he was speaking eerily and i couldn't pay much attention I thought ah these hits are doing their job. And for reasons to blame on lsd I saw this shotgun mounted on the wall, and had this hallucination of him shooting me with it, over and over and over. I got up nervously and walked out of the room and literally forgot it all. while a qaurter of my mind. still lingering on sudden death I panicked,
T=2:00 The LSD shattered my ego and revealed it for the worm it really is? I remained largely unconscious for the most part of the rest of this. Fear raised up in torrents, after having dreams about 2012 -out of my mind I said to myself (other wise I was almost entirely silent) The comet is going to hit now, Seeing in my mind far from neptune as it passed time was not the detail my cracking mind thought it's going to come, and oh it's going to hurt, Oh no! I ran into the bathroom ducking in the tub holding- doing this I felt I was releasing from my body and the bathroom took on this malevolent qaulity, I felt like child in the body of an adult only this adult was so damn clueless, I felt it was he who was an insect squrimming before the careless world, as all this pathetic weird animal's fear and turned him into a mere heap of organs, a worm or better yet literally nothing. This was a rude awakening for both this viewer and the little me...
T=2:15 Laying in the bathtub still I realised I had went through utter hell, my hell. or whoever's back there yet unscathed as if nothing happened as I dreamily awaken observing as the water dripping onto a modly stain from the facuet. What I felt then was like one of my warrior like ancestor's courage to rise as if into battle. Miles away I felt so free running in the grass, I saw millions of brothers and sisters awaited me there I was guided by my experiences as a child, running in the grass with my friends only in this fantasy that dragged me up on my feet we were all holding hands naked. Through the trees, in the forest everywhere all of us were racing toward something.
T=2:25 I get out of the bathroom, I start seeing things differently -no longer aware of the acid. I rose up and everyone was so paculiar, I looked at this girl who was my long time friend and I spoke her name. Everyone was so weirded out by me still- I felt it and returned them with the gratitude I showed them but, only a thousand times more. Everything about them said, Humanity! "green and blue clothers reminded me of people on earth, back there singing. My other aqaintance friend who idly lounged with a hood appeared to me like the same homeless people I used to sleep with on the streets and feed and protect while hitch hiking two thousand miles 2 two months prior to all this. He appeared foolish and I doubted myself as to why I couldn't look past his 'sketchyness'?
T=2:45 A person in my mind told me, R____ remember the steps. I went walking between every room fishing for what dark room scares me the most to remember at least one thing. But upon walking back into the kitchen. as everyone followed me there It ALL snapped together. I had pushed myself away from people. Just as the epiphany struck me. Still seeing the spirits of everyone I felt like the one alive one as a crowd of their blissfully enfold me. passing through me suddenly. I looked up at the cieling getting higher and higher until it was shaped like a blue and golden marble diamond rudded dome made of crystalline pure light. My eye lids sank standing there as my arms involuntarily spread out. I see the outline of the blue dome making a mandala where I 'am the center of everything doing everything at all times in one shakespearian motion like sweep. All the people that I loved, how my eyes always meet their faces no matter how frightened, sad, angry, happy. my prowess as a man and a lover watching myself act as if in a midnight summer's dream-esque.
I realise I 'am the most beautiful person in the world. so in touch with the world, nature, people, and everything that want's to be seen. I realise I love myself, here in this moment while I was primed for affection.
T=3:50 I feel god all around me showering me in pure light. I can't say it's just euphoria, or joy, or happiness. It was love and all the above. I felt touched by god who has all the sudden in my life made it's existence obvious and noticing it come as my friends gather and hold me as I lean my face- eyes close up into the light I feel as if despite everything I went through I should share just an ounce of this. I awaken again- this girl who was my closest friend asked, "R____, did you just say 'I thought nobody could touch god?" I looked to her, and them all staring close by looking at her whose utterly inquisitive face turned from that within a moment to the most angelic person I've ever seen. In and out my desire came and left to tell her what we truely are to one another in and out -love (thought)-not love (thought) and said shyly, ceasing the feeling then "Yeah I guess so, are you doing okay, A__?"
T=4:10 It was thought that my erratic behaviour was thought to be of some cause to brink a flying saucer right over their house, They called me and my friend to come watch it, but we were too busy staring into eachothers eyes to care.
My words still fail me, but The End.
Sincerely, Your Beloved Jarl Von Hoother
T=40 Everything we could think of controversially I didactically oriented into a down with the establishment as if I were a radicalist with a megaphone in a poetic sort of testifying way,
T=50 I remember accidentally controlling peoples thought (who took less acid than I did) everyone's attention was on me idk why, continuing when I accidentally approached them all with question; 'whose thoughts are we sharing?' as I flickered the lamp light on and off. My friends started getting really weirded out by me. I felt like their thoughts were all chasing mine as I was their's galvanizing this weird imposing impression of having eye balls on the back of my head.
T=1:00 + two or three more hits
At this point everyone is getting really uneasy. (Did my Ego devour theirs?) watching as their thoughts feebly chase me- mimicking the reality of this pursuit I ran and jumped off the chair to the kitchen for some water, in mid air Feeling real clear headed. Along my way as I walk inside this rather large house away from them all I had this feeling like 'yeah I 'am superman- suddenly I started seeing these electric pools of green light merge with red, orange, back to green and blue with violet protruding viels of holy light surrounding my periphery. Although be a skeptic, agnostic or whatever. I felt like I was god - as I walked away from them to rationalize my arrogance in reconcilation of achieveing superego masked with my favorite poets as I went around feeling like I was god, as if I understood what is was, who I was?
T=1:30 These extra hits came on like a tornado and I went from mad to bezerk as all my friends who sitting quietly speechlessly. a some what of a friend tryed to calm me down as I sat alone on a bed, he was speaking eerily and i couldn't pay much attention I thought ah these hits are doing their job. And for reasons to blame on lsd I saw this shotgun mounted on the wall, and had this hallucination of him shooting me with it, over and over and over. I got up nervously and walked out of the room and literally forgot it all. while a qaurter of my mind. still lingering on sudden death I panicked,
T=2:00 The LSD shattered my ego and revealed it for the worm it really is? I remained largely unconscious for the most part of the rest of this. Fear raised up in torrents, after having dreams about 2012 -out of my mind I said to myself (other wise I was almost entirely silent) The comet is going to hit now, Seeing in my mind far from neptune as it passed time was not the detail my cracking mind thought it's going to come, and oh it's going to hurt, Oh no! I ran into the bathroom ducking in the tub holding- doing this I felt I was releasing from my body and the bathroom took on this malevolent qaulity, I felt like child in the body of an adult only this adult was so damn clueless, I felt it was he who was an insect squrimming before the careless world, as all this pathetic weird animal's fear and turned him into a mere heap of organs, a worm or better yet literally nothing. This was a rude awakening for both this viewer and the little me...
T=2:15 Laying in the bathtub still I realised I had went through utter hell, my hell. or whoever's back there yet unscathed as if nothing happened as I dreamily awaken observing as the water dripping onto a modly stain from the facuet. What I felt then was like one of my warrior like ancestor's courage to rise as if into battle. Miles away I felt so free running in the grass, I saw millions of brothers and sisters awaited me there I was guided by my experiences as a child, running in the grass with my friends only in this fantasy that dragged me up on my feet we were all holding hands naked. Through the trees, in the forest everywhere all of us were racing toward something.
T=2:25 I get out of the bathroom, I start seeing things differently -no longer aware of the acid. I rose up and everyone was so paculiar, I looked at this girl who was my long time friend and I spoke her name. Everyone was so weirded out by me still- I felt it and returned them with the gratitude I showed them but, only a thousand times more. Everything about them said, Humanity! "green and blue clothers reminded me of people on earth, back there singing. My other aqaintance friend who idly lounged with a hood appeared to me like the same homeless people I used to sleep with on the streets and feed and protect while hitch hiking two thousand miles 2 two months prior to all this. He appeared foolish and I doubted myself as to why I couldn't look past his 'sketchyness'?
T=2:45 A person in my mind told me, R____ remember the steps. I went walking between every room fishing for what dark room scares me the most to remember at least one thing. But upon walking back into the kitchen. as everyone followed me there It ALL snapped together. I had pushed myself away from people. Just as the epiphany struck me. Still seeing the spirits of everyone I felt like the one alive one as a crowd of their blissfully enfold me. passing through me suddenly. I looked up at the cieling getting higher and higher until it was shaped like a blue and golden marble diamond rudded dome made of crystalline pure light. My eye lids sank standing there as my arms involuntarily spread out. I see the outline of the blue dome making a mandala where I 'am the center of everything doing everything at all times in one shakespearian motion like sweep. All the people that I loved, how my eyes always meet their faces no matter how frightened, sad, angry, happy. my prowess as a man and a lover watching myself act as if in a midnight summer's dream-esque.
I realise I 'am the most beautiful person in the world. so in touch with the world, nature, people, and everything that want's to be seen. I realise I love myself, here in this moment while I was primed for affection.
T=3:50 I feel god all around me showering me in pure light. I can't say it's just euphoria, or joy, or happiness. It was love and all the above. I felt touched by god who has all the sudden in my life made it's existence obvious and noticing it come as my friends gather and hold me as I lean my face- eyes close up into the light I feel as if despite everything I went through I should share just an ounce of this. I awaken again- this girl who was my closest friend asked, "R____, did you just say 'I thought nobody could touch god?" I looked to her, and them all staring close by looking at her whose utterly inquisitive face turned from that within a moment to the most angelic person I've ever seen. In and out my desire came and left to tell her what we truely are to one another in and out -love (thought)-not love (thought) and said shyly, ceasing the feeling then "Yeah I guess so, are you doing okay, A__?"
T=4:10 It was thought that my erratic behaviour was thought to be of some cause to brink a flying saucer right over their house, They called me and my friend to come watch it, but we were too busy staring into eachothers eyes to care.
My words still fail me, but The End.
Sincerely, Your Beloved Jarl Von Hoother
