Seeking a new perspective.

[MergeSort]

Hello all,

I stumbled upon this forum in my psychedelic studies and I think it's quite an awesome community. I look forward to being a part of it and learning from you all.

My voyage through the psychedelic world started about two months ago. The past year has been the most traumatic and painful one of my life. I have suffered a great deal and my life has changed in so many ways, so quickly. I realized that I needed a new perspective on life, so I am starting to experiment with psychedelics.

I have not been able to try any psychedelics yet. But I plan on it soon. I like doing as much research as possible before I start experimenting.

To put it shortly, I am looking for a new perspective on life. I am looking to use psychedelics, dmt in particular, to help me in this pursuit.

I look forward to being a part of this community. Feel free to ask me any questions.

 

[Pandora]

Hello MergeSort,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thank you so much for sharing that introductory essay with us. You said and hinted at a lot.

I wonder if you might be willing to tell us a bit more about what you said? No need to be too specific if you don't want to. Can you specify the nature of what was so traumatic and painful this past year? Deaths of loved ones? Midlife crisis? Loss of housing? Radical change in medical status?

Has it (whatever it is) been getting any better for you now that you've been dealing with it for a calendar year? Are you progressing? Are you integrating? There is a GREAT link in the upper right hand corner of this forum you might benefit from even as a current non psychedelic user - Heath & Safety. I would recommend you click that and read the entire thing. You might find it to be fascinating and perhaps even relevant. Who knows.

Also, what opened your eyes or alerted you to psychedelics a couple of months ago?

Finally, what do you hope to accomplish or achieve? I do know you said a new perspective on life and there's a good chance you may get just that. Is there anything else that comes to mind? Perhaps that's more than enough, eh? I know, speaking for myself, for my midlife crisis resolution it sure was.

I like your attitude towards research. It's a great one. You'll find the research rabbit hole goes deep these days with psychedelics. Hopefully you are at least a bit of an information addict. That helps here. Please, do take a good look around.

I look forward to hearing more about you and seeing you around this place, posting your thoughts on various subjects.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.

 

[MergeSort]

Sorry for the late response, I have been really down for the last few days and have not come online. I have been suffering from clinical depression for a long time. It has been getting worse over time, regardless of various treatments I have received. It destroyed my life pretty much. My girlfriend of six years left me about six months ago because she couldn't deal with it anymore. I also flunked out of college because I couldn't function. About three months ago I attempted suicide. I overdosed on sleeping pills and wound up in the emergency room. After that ordeal I ruled out suicide as an option because the whole experience was horrible and I didn't want to ever risk it happening again.

I have never done any type of illegal drugs before last week. I turned to drugs as an escape because, as I said above, suicide was not an option. I started doing research and found out about psychedelics. I heard about them before, but was never interested in them. I then realized that I may be able to use these drugs to help myself out of this horrible depression by changing the way I look at things.

Idk if it's a pipe dream, but I'm trying it out.

So far I have taken LSD, Shrooms, Salvia, Weed, and DMT.

I probably have not gotten the full effect from them all because I took them all within a week of each other and I know cross tolerances exist between them. I haven't been able to control the trips yet. They all turn out to be really confusing and random. I am reading a few books and resources to help get something positive out of the trips.